#we're not supposed to have like minds
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
If Jeff is taking lore into the Time-Space Continuum with the references to Sunshine being God and Moonshine being this projective soldier/entity (my brain wants to go the Belief System), I want to have a genuine lore/world build discussion.
Below is a link to a post from a different fandom, but it still uses the same FICTIONAL LECTURE as a basis that has been my baby since like 2015-ish.
I can post like the entirety of the actual lecture (which reminds me that I need to work on the actual Energy Graph & Energy Convergencies Causes and Effects). There's so much to it...like a lot, there's even Mirror Energies (think Yin-Yang) that make up the multi-verse, which leads to specific gods, which then leads to the center of the multiverse (Peacemaker/Creator/CDC).
There's THEORIES!
For some of my own Lore Drop for this Series I'm working on (well, trying to):
Link is being weird..."Annalise has Questions (Don't We All)" is what it should be...also a reminder to change the TSD comparison to a sandwich.
Psychological Hypnotism (which is a big plot point in Infinity: Dusk to Dawn) will be included in 4, 5, 6, Rise My Phoenix. It deals with Emotional Energy mixed with Environmental Factors without a Environmental Event being the cause. Negative/Positive Emotional Energy Tethering from Magical Causes (which was hinted at in 1, 2, 3, Who Do You See [by accident]).
....that's hard to explain without context.
ANYWAY! IF Jeff takes this route, based on context we've been given he's gonna be the Dark Guardian to my Guardian of Light. Although that's where that ends. Cause in my 'verse the Dark Guardian/Light Guardian only have ONE of themselves (deals with POWER Expense: Multiple Alts (Alternate Selves) means power gets equally connected to each one. So the "main" Alt is less powerful when facing a greater enemy (ex: Dark Guardian), even if those Alts are physically together on the battlefield--also deals with too much energy all at once can destroy the human body/vessel).
Above deals with Names/Titles Give Power (if you haven't read Ghost Zone CDC, go read it, it will provide context.)
Either way, from my stand point, it's really fucking weird that my fav artist (almost my Celeb Crush [never happened before]) is synchronizing with my Comfort World Build.
Sunshine = Dark Guardian (Cortez), Moonshine = Malabyss/Sentient Darkness [Possessive Entity via accumulation of Negative Emotions (Energy)]/Houxvech (Entity of Nivoux)
Like I said, Discussion.
UPDATE:
#jeff satur#jeffverse#I don't normally like to do this#but it's really fucking weird#like jeff#we're not supposed to have like minds#this isn't supposed to happen#not even gonna discuss Hogtied which began in 2017#comfort world building#pretty sure i posted the fictional lecture somewhere just can't find it#what's even more? there's a fucking lullaby involved before finding jeff#like seriously#“fly with me”#daughter & father#when i mean intricate and complex i mean it#that post was targetted#i have a semblance of a direction Infinity is going but nothing concrete#dropping lore but no straight story line
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
some stories are written precisely to elicit strong emotions from the reader INCLUDING negative ones. some stories and characters are meant to be upsetting, they are meant to challenge you and make you uncomfortable!! when a story makes you feel Big Feelings sometimes you are meant to sit in those feelings and ask yourself why! fiction is a great space to explore these emotions in a safe environment. you, as the reader, are meant to think critically about the art you are enjoying and that includes asking yourself questions like why has the author presented their art in this way and what are they trying to tell me. and then you get to have fun picking it apart and figuring it out and deciding what, exactly, the art means to you.
#this post has been in my drafts since SEPTEMBER and it just gets more and more relevant lately#and sure sometimes we decide in the end that the art is bad and that we don't like it. that's fine. i'm not arguing anyone's right#to dislike certain things. it's fine!!! but why are you acting like it's a personal offense??? what's going on??#like idk what is in the water these days that people have become so averse to Storytelling#the whole POINT is to make you FEEL SOMETHING!!!#why are you getting mad at artists for making you feel something!!!!#between some of the asks i and other authors get to the recent stuff with mouthwashing and epic saga and fucking nosferatu#NOSFERATU. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE SCARY???#i really feel like i am losing my mind. i keep thinking of that 'disco elysium but its a little girl looking for her lost cat in the alps'#tweet. like this is really where we're at. people would rather feel Nothing. no one wants to be challenged#no one wants to explore Themes or read social commentary anymore it's so dire#let's all just go read our bland cozy fantasy story with found family and No conflict & nothing interesting to say at all#i'm sure we'll all be safe there#fuck!!!#also this isnt aimed at that anon i got a few days ago this is just like. a general trend i have noticed that is happening Everywhere rn
179 notes
·
View notes
Text
realized that i have never given any thought whatsoever to the consequences of period sex . shgdasgdhgasdgashg knowing myself i'd be knocked the fuck out i'm honk shoo mimiming i am letting out the most peaceful quiet snores while HE'S forced to clean all of that upshdajksdfjadhsah that's so embarrassing oh my god
#this problem also includes piss yeah#BROOO WE NEED TO CLEAN THAT UP#well he needs to clean that up#😭😭😭😭😭#thank god period sex is not real this would be way too much of a hassle i think#/lh#okay well i suppose you can use a towel for period sex and it does also depend on your flow#but#shgadsgdhgasghdghasghdhga#god that's so silly#THE MATTRESS WOULD ALSO NEED CLEANING?????????????#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and i'm not doing any of that i am zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz#hgsadgsghdhgasghd#IT'S NOT MY FAULT OKAY IWOULDDDDDDDDD HELP CLEAN ALL OF THAT UP IF I COULDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD#yes i did finally start my period yes i was thinking about period sex freak sae yes i will kind of . spiral over this nowjgsghdghasghda#i would do it in real time too like i'd wake up and everything is clean now and then i'd freak out BC WDYM YOU DID ALL OF THAT OH MY GOD#WE'RE NEVER FUCKING DOING THAT AGAIN THAT'S WAY TOO MUCH WE ARE NEVER HAVING SEX AGAIN#and he's just giving me that half smirk half smile bc 1. i am way too dramatic 2. he does not mind cleaning everything up on his own#3. we will one hundred percent do it again#hasgdsghadgasgdhsadag#terrible terrible guy#mayor of loserville
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
It's still something to me that Sukuna knew Yuji was his nephew for like a month and didn't tell Yuji that.
Why he didn't, I don't know. But I guess it's because he didn't care to, at the end of the day. There would have been no point to it.
Even still, Sukuna wanted to so badly break Yuji's spirit and he didn't figure that may have done it, revealing they're technically family? Because had Yuji known, I'm sure it would have upset him.
Then again, maybe Sukuna figured "the brat wouldn't believe me anyways". In 248, he mentions no matter what he did, Yuji isn't breaking.
A part of me also feels like Sukuna just didn't want to be reminded that he still had family. The more you don't think and mention something and ignore it, the more nonexistent it becomes.
Maybe he acted dismissive while revealing that information to Uraume, who was more surprised and curious, to kind of cut off that connection. Extinguish that feeling of what it's like to have family that could care for you.
He was there to witness how Yuji's relationship with Choso changed and maybe it reminded him of what could have been had he and his twin survived in the womb. (I still think Sukuna just had it out for Choso and maybe part of the reason could be because Choso was so devoted to be being a big brother while Sukuna didn't get to experience having a sibling.)
We see how he acts just from Yuji showing any bit of sympathy and pity for him.
Maybe he is disgusted by the idea of human connections and emotions genuinely. That his own "me, myself and I" mentality is so strong that he convinced himself that even having family is absurd to him? And what if a part of him, deep, deep down just feels he doesn't deserve that love?
I'm just rambling and pondering right now.
#so many layers he has and it keeps me up sometimes... WHY?!#like he seems like the typical villain but no some of his actions and what he says and thinks are questionable#honestly i don't mind it because i like just imagining the what if's#while a part of me did wish for more backstory another part of me doesn't hate there isn't because maybe we're meant to be disconnected#from sukuna like we're supposed to be hidden from what makes him human#i know gege could have touched on things more and maybe even gege feels the same#but that doesn't mean it's all that bad when there's room to ponder and imagine and get creative with ideas#where was i going with this?#anyways yeah WHY DIDN'T HE SAY ANYTHING?!#just kiya's thoughts#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#sukuna#ryomen sukuna#sukuna ryomen#itadori yuji#yuji itadori#yuuji itadori#itadori yuuji#jjk manga spoilers#jjk spoilers
67 notes
·
View notes
Text
How's Heather? How's Heather? How's Heather? How's Heather?!
#knowing that hunter doohan is supposed to be in season 2 makes me think that we're gonna get an eviler muse doppelganger#it's actually gonna make me laugh so hard if him being named cooper has any connection to cooper twin peaks#like this is just a crack theory i have with friends but if there's actual weight i will literally lose my mind laughing#muse#daredevil muse#bastian cooper#hunter doohan#daredevil#daredevil born again#daredevil spoilers#ddba#ddba spoilers#daredevil mcu#daredevil fanart#fanart#marvel fanart#my art
51 notes
·
View notes
Text
Noticing that TV and film will often have a character either have had an abortion in the past that isn't showcased on screen (and just used as part of the character's ~fucked up and twisted backstory~) OR contemplate getting an abortion in the present day but not to through with it. Just once I want to see someone delete that fetus within the events of the plot and not be like. Extremely majorly punished for it and/or be in the wrong
#ramblings of a lunatic#was watching a tv show w the fam recently and it's the 2nd series of a show that was clearly written with only 1 in mind#so in the 2nd season a character gets pregnant (bc ofc) and contemplates getting an abortion#only to do the whole 'omg she thinks she's lost the baby and realizes she wanted to keep it all along!'#which like. fine and valid and happens to ppl irl I'm sure#but like. this season doesn't establish if she wanted kids prior or if she has a stable job (she was struggling career wise-#-last season and the timeskip this season doesn't go into it)#AND has this fucking bizarre scene w/ her boyfriend (whos mostly been irrelevant and occasionally annoying up til now)#where he says it's 'our pregnancy' that she was going to terminate and when she (rightfully) bites back-#-saying 'you mean MY pregnancy?!' he just. storms off and deflects#which would be one thing but we have to wrap up the main plot so she just apologizes to him (for other plot stuff)#and we're never given any indication that his opinion has changed and they're just happily parenting at the end of the season#which just. left a bad taste in my mouth#like I KNOW i know not every bad thing said on screen needs a big blinking arrow that points out that it's Bad and Wrong#but idk how I'm supposed to feel in a series that has painted itself as explicitly feminist up til this point#presents the outcome of a woman dating and bearing a child for a man w seemingly zero respect for her bodily autonomy as happily ever after#w no follow up#like the whole series is centered on a group of sisters and this pregnancy story happened to the youngest one#who's always seen as needing to 'grow up' in season 1. so assuming this is meant to be building off that arc it's so WEIRD still#bc yes being a parent is an opportunity for many ppl to mature emotionally but that's not really something the character-#-reflects on all season. it's more abt her burying her past relationship w a season 1 guy (who was infinitely more interesting than new guy)#-than anything to do with that#AND EVEN IF IT WAS the notion of pregnancy as a punishment/reckoning meant to make her grow up or take responsibility-#-which is secretly a blessing in disguise i. god the show fell apart so hard here for me#and my mom and sister were just cooing over the baby at the end and i didn't speak up bc i didn't want to be a bitch#and in all fairness I'm probably being a tad uncharitable in this post but like. don't piss me OFF man#anyway. normalise abortion storylines that aren't backstory fodder and aren't fakeouts for baby plots. please
27 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#why oh WHY does academia have to be like. 'we want these extremely specific things from you'#'no we're not going to tell you what they are'#'you'll find out in the feedback when we point out all the things you got wrong'#which i wouldn't have got wrong in the first place if the lecturer had just TOLD me/us what she was expecting from this assignment#idk man#clearly there's a disconnect between how my brain works and how academia thinks it's supposed to work#i've always had this issue even way back in undergrad#to me coursework feels like guesswork most of the time#things that i think are meant to be obvious are just... not? to me?#anyway anyway don't mind me#i passed so things aren't all that dire#about yours truly
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
Could we celebrate any other character's birthday....
#like you know...clawdeen...the supposed main character#monster high#monster high g3#its just...i feel like we're inviting comparison here#especially with the inclusion of cupid#like if we're gonna go that far we may as well commit and include clawd too#are they actually dating or...? i dont watch the cartoon but ive seen gifs#granted i already figured that we're probably not gonna get another boy doll#on the plus side im excited that we're gonna get another catty#i do really like her but i just dont have the energy to try and find her a better outfit and fix her hair#so im praying this one has a cute outfit#and our first line without drac...a miracle#watch em still sneak her in there somehow#im also bummed that they didn't fix the lore concerning drac's age#that was the one thing i did hope they'd change#wasnt there an episode that showed her and heath as childhood friends..? is he also 1600??#or is this another instance of the show lore not matching the doll lore?#text post#im sick and salty dont mind me
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
many thoughts, many thoughts…
#hmm... this isn't really my place to speak—i'm not apart of the flower patch—but i have a lot of thoughts on my mind about you.#firstly I'm glad they found someone as important to them as Alli is to me (and the rest of the system of course)!#they deserve someone that important. they really really do.#and second—on the subject of labels—did you know that some of them call this a situationship?#i think that's funny personally. none of us see this relationship as romantic or anything similar‚ for the record.#but some of them do label it as such‚ mainly in a silly/joking way. they don't seriously think of it as such#i guess we should come up with our own word for it. hmm...#you're our knight. i suppose that makes us your ward? we're certainly not royalty… tho if u wanna call us ur prince we wouldn't mind /silly#labels simultaneously do and don't matter to us as you can tell. but we're not gonna run ourselves ragged trying to put a word to this#this… whatever it is. an expanse. an ocean of amazement. hmm...#it's like getting a glimpse at a galaxy—you can't see much but what you do see is truly beautiful. does that make sense?#what they feel for you is immaculate and all-consuming. is immaculate even the right word? thought disorder be damned i hate words.#anyways! it's… a lot‚ as you know. they really do lov you more than words can describe.#and lord. we haven't felt this since we met Alli. we really really haven't.#we can't put into words what she means to us either. even after all these years…#but anyways. ine of the brightest stars in our constellation‚ one of the most vivid and perfect colours in our mind#one of the best and beautiful notes in our favourite song‚ so on so forth.#many ways to put it. our desrest knight‚ you mean so much to us. but I'm sure you know that already! <2 <3#alrighty. back to sleep. had to get this off my mind before i forgot in the morning#I do hope you'll stick around. lord knows the next time I'll be here again. would love to see you again should i go dormant anytime soon.#–Amour
4 notes
·
View notes
Photo
Always Webkinzing (Patreon)
#Doodles#Webkinz#OFF#Helix#Dexter Favin#Max Vyer#Mix of old and new doodles now that we're coming up on the end of the year#Don't worry about what day it is pay no attention to the calendar sh shh the year is coming to a close#That first Zum doodle was from fairly early in the year! Well before I got back into playing#I just always love Zums they're always waiting in the wings of my mind#Hehe#That particular Peeky isn't a perfect matching of anyone but they're not that far off from Zana I suppose :0#No reference doodling strikes again lol#I have since looked Very Closely at Zum designs they are always so interesting to me <3#I'd like to study their rarity sometime again too ahh the fun! I really wish Zumwhere wasn't a Deluxe unlock hweh#Spider plush! Fake fan that's not even a Webkinz! I wish it was tho#No we picked him up while out Webkinz thrifting - did find my lilKinz Lioness during the same run! Score!#But I mean - he's a plush spider how could I not get him he's so cute#I believe his name is Peepers as well like - I had no choice here I Couldn't Not it was very important#He lives in the plush hammock in smol and my room now :) And he's very cute! Little bow tie ahh adorable#More characters through the Webkinzifier! Yaaay#Had to toss an Elsen through - little marshmallow lads! Make a little Zone 1/2/3 room - 2 would be a library so that's easy#3's factory aesthetic probably Could be copied...there's even a Wonka-style candy factory oh no lol too perfect#I imagine Elsens would be on the weaker side and would get sick more often - if Dr. Quack was still /here/! Pffbtl#And then Dex and Max <3 Obviously hehe ♥#The funnest part really is thinking about what their PSF and PSI would be - Max's are so easy to imagine especially!#A big fluffy bed and something with a silver spoon - maybe even a reference to his ''special candy'' pft#Caleb's could be a poisoned sandwich lol#They're so cute hhh <3 So much of the fun of Webkinz is the plush-to-life aspect! I want a Max plush and little playable guy!#The real appeal of making plushies at the same time as coding things haha
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.
#just something i've been pondering the last few days#kind of like no matter how much people debate or i suppose theoretically deconstruct media featuring queer stories#the most important thing is how it makes a queer person feel#and I do think it is of course a good thing to ensure queer stories are executed with respect and authenticity#but there's this grey area in fandom spaces in which people may have found rep from a 'unreliable' source i suppose#or something which is queerbaiting- sherlock springs to mind for example yet if people have been able to explore and nurture their own#queerness through that media does that therefore mean their experience is invalid? i don't think so#and my worry is the more we focus on theory the less we focus on emotion and therefore the actual queer experience itself#and sure theory can inform the queer experience and ensure the media is a 'healthy' site of queer identity formation and identity aid#but at the same time scorning or being rude to those who have found certain media an aid is not the right approach to be taking#especially as queer experiences are so wide ranging that one person's idea of 'good' representation is someone's else's of 'bad'#and that unless a piece of media is clearly offensive in its portrayal of queer experience there has to be some benefit of doubt#I think we're still in a period of progression in media espc tv where queer creators are coming to the fore of their own stories#and we've got to 'live and let live' a little about where people are finding sights of queer validation and joy#and perhaps this a naive and simplistic way of thinking but i think queer people can either recognise when something isn't the best rep#but was helpful for them anyway and therefore in a way confer 'ownership' of the media to themselves in how they engage#or there is variety in queer experiences represented in media so that perhaps not everyone finds a 'site' of rep but that does not#therefore invalidate it or make it 'bad' representation#this is just my opinion and it'd be hypocritical for me to not now mention this is only formed from my own queer experience lol#so i'm not trying to tell anyone how to feel or anything just something i'm pondering
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
I don't wanna say that the Dunmeshi fandom is speedrunning towards that hyperspecific level of annoying a fandom gets to after a while, but whew buddy
#Hayley Speaks#I think the main annoyance is the ship gatekeeping#Like you know what; I'll say it#I can see the intrigue in shipping Laios and Marcille#Would I still prefer Farcille at the end of the day? Yeah!#But to pretend they have NO potential chemistry is silly#I was watching their interactions during the dragon episodes and it's like 'Alright I could see something there if I were interested-#-enough in poking further'#It's definitely not /just/ comphet (even if I'm SURE some shippers out there probably do ship it for that reason)#Also the whole thing about people shipping guy characters together being an invasive species is annoying#Those wlws are PLASTERED everywhere I look; don't act like people shipping the boys is going to suddenly get rid of that#Also again..........this is the anime where a rugged hairy man is constantly flashing taint at us#And we're NOT supposed to ship him??#You're out of your mind
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
well mark that down as situation 2938489 that I don't know how to handle
#i would love advice on this if y'all have any thoughts to share because i know what my parents think and im having trouble sorting it out#i love these three friends of mine but it is really draining to be around them now because all they will talk about is church drama#(re: our old church) and rehashing it all and being Outraged about the horrors etc etc#either that or being downright condescending about protestants/non denominations and acting like it's funny to talk like that all the time#i end up being more angry or resentful or exasperated at the end of our conversations than glad and at peace like i did before#(before all THIS ish happened and the three of them were like okay this is all we're going to talk about now)#i've tried to say in gentle ways (i am simply not capable of this kind of blunt confrontation) that maybe we should not be talking#so uncharitably towards other people especially behind their backs. like. yes bad things happened. we have to acknowledge that.#but continually making jokes and jibes at a priest's expense really rubs me the wrong way especially since i KNOW that he loves us#and in many ways was trying his best in the circumstances. and are we not supposed to be loving our neighbour#and is this not downright slander to keep going on this way esp since it goes on for HOURS at a time#anyway i don't know what to DO because if i keep chatting with them/meeting up with them conversation will be 90% this thing and i Hate It#but on the other hand i feel responsibility towards them because my godson's one of them and another is a friend who is a fairly recent#convert and if i leave them to stew in their own echo chamber i doubt it'll do them good#am i supposed to keep some distance? am i supposed to keep arguing whenever one of them says something unkind or inflammatory?#am i supposed to keep speaking up so that they hear a different perspective? am i supposed to run in the other direction for my own peace o#mind? anyway i am still thinking this over and it stresses me OUT#it used to be fun and life giving to be around these people and now it is so exhausting and seriously alarming in many ways
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
one thing that is so genius on a craft level with the broken earth books is that the derogatory for 'orogene' is - That Way - on 100% purpose. you're supposed to feel like it's not a word to say out loud, it's supposed to be uncomfortably similar to words you've already heard and know as cruel slurs in the real world. it's a direct fucking parallel designed to deliberately give the reader that crawling feeling and it works so well i dont even feel right typing it up for a post
#which leads of course into direct parallels when orogenes reclaim it and start calling themselves it as a use name#which gives ESSUN the ick . despite using it herself in a derogatory/self-deprecating way#how they're not supposed to use it in the fulcrum because it's a slur. but this also gives them no framework for reclaiming it#an orogene who's grown up with that mindset will think it's crude or self-hating to start using the r-version in earnest#and this supposed mark of propriety and politeness thus becomes yet another way for the fulcrum to exert control#'don't use that word it's a dirty word.' 'we're the only organization on earth that will treat you like people. but we both know you're NOT#etc etc#which i think this level of bare-bones just-this-close-to-reality worldbuilding#might be part of what's prevented the series from getting as big as some other similar spec fic series#it's full of fantastic elements but the main conflict/problem with the world is a 1:1 problem we already have#i imagine a lot of readers feel uncomfortable about that#but also. as illustrated by this exact 1:1 problem. it's a very Black series by a Black author that is only ostensibly about people who can#move rocks with their minds#which is unfortunately the other reaosn i think it doesn't have the audience of say. baru#and i love baru! good books. having a lot of fun with them#but jemison's ability to write about the same things has this extra toothy edge that baru just ... won't. just by nature of experience#anyway there is so much in these books . god
16 notes
·
View notes
Note
Why did PHW’s makeup for his “Ghosting” show premiere look better than Emma’s makeup for Minecraft London premiere 💀💀





Wait, what
Holy fuck
#anon#anon ask#anon answered#percy hynes white#is actually#BUT his lips still creep me out#🤔 his 🔥 face reminds me of all of those old paintings of royals with distinctive and handsome noses#i have one painting in mind but by gods i can't think of its name or painter damn it#but anyway there you go percy stans#i relent...he isn't completely fug okay#also i can't believe we're fuggin stuck w enid sinclair#gimme back our#wavier#like it was supposed to be#poor mogwai#jenna ortega#wednesday netflix#netflix wednesday#xavier thorpe#his chest still needs meat on there#but regardless#that is what the wlwenclairs ruined for her and for us...gd it that's bullshit
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#tag talk#vent#also I'm gonna complain because I had another experience of “I look dumb because I assumed things followed rules and they don't”#okay so most heavy machinery uses keys (as opposed to numberpad locks) right? right. so I'm renting out a boom lift to a guy and we finish#finish the rental process and I go out with him to unlock it and get it hitched up to his truck. and I'm like oh right you need the key.#so I go in to the key box and there's a shit ton of keys and they're supposed to be organized and of course they're not organized at all.#so I take a picture and text it to my tool tech and then call him to be like hey which fucking key goes to the 35' boom lift???#and he gives me a vague description that matches 3 keys so I'm like okay I'll figure it out from here. and I check and all 3 keys have#have different teeth. now most times the same brand and type of equipment will just have the same key. a kubota key will turn on most kubota#but they have different teeth. so I'm like okay I'll just try each key. it's only 3 keys it'll be easy. so I go out and I try the first key#and it turns. cool. problem solved right? I get suspicious and try another key. it also turns. I get worried. I try the third key. it works.#I'm now concerned because they're literally keyed differently. so I get worried they they all turn but maybe they won't really all Work#now in retrospect I realize that it's not that complicated. like those cheapo locks that have a “key” but really can be opened by anything#but I'm stressed. the inspection process already crashed on me once. and I'm alone and behind schedule for closing up shop.#and because I learned a rule as a kid. locks can't be opened by different keys. and I had 3 different keys.#so I call my tool tech again and I'm like man I don't know which is the right key they all turn in the starter#(it's electric so it's not like an engine turns on or anything.) and my tech is very clearly confused and I'm panicking because this guy's#been trying to rent this boom lift for the past thirty minutes and the program crashed and now this green kid doesn't know which key to use#and anyway. I realize all too late that any of the 3 keys would work (even though they're. once again. literally KEYED DIFFERENT)#and I have a mortifying moment where I just.. hand him the key and am like “any of them would work”#and I've been sleeping like shit the last few days so I've been stuttering like hell and he's been giving me sympathetic looks the wholetime#and anyway I'm gonna go down myself in the bathtub or something I feel like a fucking idiot#need one of those “be patient I have autism” shirts or something.#and like.. I'm MAD. because keys are supposed to work how keys work. I got taught how locks work and now they work differently??? ughhhhh#I know it's stupid but I'm mad because it's a stupid little thing and now I look like a fucking idiot and I'm not and yet I am#I know if I were R this wouldn't bother me and I would laugh and be able to slow down my mind enough to speak slowly and clearly#but I can't I'm not her I'm not wearing my armor right now I'm stuck weak and stupid and I know I'm venting I know I know I know I know#I should add the vent tag so people can block this accordingly. so you can ignore my- no calm down buddy don't get that self pitying okay?#hey it's alright. I'm gonna post this and we're gonna have a chat okay?
2 notes
·
View notes