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chaelinsbitch · 2 years ago

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Idk how I've developed such a fear of work now but like every night before work I'm always so scared I've done something really wrong and I'm going to get into a lot of trouble and like idk what I'm doing and idk how to get myself to care enough to actually care enough about the job idk idk !!!!!!!!! And I keep digging holes for myself I can't fix them!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want to work!!!!!!!! Feel like I'm going to die

#HELP i cant do this #idk i feel like at this point everyone knows im stupid and have nothing to genuinely contribute and find me annoying #which ik yeah im in my head but its not entirely untrue either #i alr feel so behind everyone else in every aspect 'life isnt a race' ik but like #idk i cant even have coherent thoughts #my younger cousins were over like 18 and 21 and were having such eloquent intelligent conversations #i feel like my mind shuts everything out and stops me from any genuine progression #so im the same person i was 5 years ago 10 years ago #and now everyone is figuring out my ruse and think of me as some stupid freak. idk idk anyway I don't want to work tomorrow

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