#without the toxicitiy

[acoraxia]

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came up with an au idea where Shadow and Cosmo are presumed dead by the end of the explosion with the Metarex dying and Shadow has to raised Cosmo and find a way back to Mobius. A space adventure, if you will. not an odyssey, per say... but Shadow would 100% have a crash out while Scylla plays in the background.

this is for fun, I don't know how I'd incorporate Sonic or the rest of the cast in this YET but i have fun and I will keep having fun and this (as of april 16th) will be my last Sonic post for a while because another hyperfixation is eating at my brain and I want to get rid of that as quickly as possible before going back to this with my full attention

might write a fic, might not. we'll see

[jjinheehee]

Not the best for each other tbh.

Because Mhork is too passive and last thing Aoey needs is someone just simply watching him go down this path further than he needs without help and not being able to provide the 'right' kind of love for them.

Whether it's at the set where they met, at home during dinner or even in the special episode, Mhork gives in to those around him easily once they tell him to keep away or even stays quiet when he has the opportunity to speak up for Aoey. And to him and the rest, Aoey is too toxic for him, he cannot handle Aoey's personality simply by liking him.

Aoey is a really interesting character. On one hand he is toxic, because of his family and the way he himself wished to be loved. There are people in real life who are like him, and there are those who don't want to be associated to them in any way because this is someone who (whether he knows it or not), never changes. It tires those who wants to help them out (for example, Tiffy).

On the other hand, he just wants to be himself while living in this world. It's not the best or the healthiest, but it's his way of searching and exploring means of being loved, or even reason to live. He is not contended with the mainstream forms of love or accepting of the fact that 'being toxic' is bad, it's just in him, to be like that, to be toxic, that's his nature. A dead knot.

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Tbh, if I'm close to someone like him, I will probably end up like Tiffy. Trying to be there for him, protect him but getting tired of him once he blows up and thereafter, advising others not to be near him. It probably takes a stronger and more stubborn person than Tiffy to keep staying with him and keep the 'toxicitiy' from Aoey from influencing self, while helping him path the best and correct way out of the knot.

This kind of people is very very rare but are very very strong and clever, or even someone who is just naturally able to dispel and accept his personality at the same time, and in the series, there isn't one for Aoey. Still, Aoey left me thinking how unaccepting people are of them because of what Aoey is capable of doing and harming. Also at the same time figure out what kind of people can even help, even if there's just a speck of hope.

Nevertheless, I like the darkness in facial expressions Bruce portrayed of Aoey. His aura matches how I depict Aoey very well. Though maybe for crying scenes, it's still lacking. Aside from that, other than the main couple (Top 1 couple with the best kiss scene chemistry on-screen ever since I started watching BL), I really really love Aoey. Gene and Sib can be together, meanwhile, I'll just have Aoey in my mind.

Teach me how to die inside from hearing this. I'd just hug him and probably leave.

[chaelix]

to every dumb cow who tries to ridicule anyone for liking kpop:

see this !!!! this is my mood chart. me and a few of my close friends at the start of the year made these so at the end of the year we could look back and see how good or bad our year was. 

if you notice, i had a very rocky start to the year then around the 21st of feburary, the pink colour to represent ‘love’ was used for the first time. that’s when i listened to bts for the very first time. then you see a real proper change around march 15th, when i started to watch a lot of bts content pretty much daily, when i really got into them. 

then if you literally look at the whole of may, i didnt have any breakdowns, i didn’t feel sad or angry for an entire day to the point i’d put it down on this chart. that was the month bts were so active because of the comeback and because they were in america. i also got into stray kids properly that month.

things were pretty much perfect up until just over a week ago, but everyone is gonna have their off days. but basically, let me explain the point of this post:

i used to get so soooooo down before i got into kpop, then it became my distraction to the point i no longer needed a distraction anyymore. i snapped out of my self loathing phase, i got a job, i felt so inspired by a lot of kpop idols to actually get my fucking shit together and i did. and i know a lot of people can relate. 

so yeah i get pretty fucking annoyed when i get ridiculed or when others get mocked for being so invested into kpop, bc kpop inspired me to become the better version of myself that just needed to come out of its shell, without out? i’d probably still be a moping mess.

so fuck anyone who makes any of you feel like shit for liking kpop, for liking any genre of music, for liking anything that just makes you happy, no one needs that toxicitiy in their lives and im so glad i cut out all of mine

enjoy this lil motivational post thing i guess !

[thirdeyethecat-blog]

Abuse in Poly. A psa/rant.

You don't have to read this. So I guess if you do, that's of your own free will and volition. Not mine.

Some people think that poly is free of toxicitiy if all memebers verbally consent to whats happening. Some believe, that poly is inherently better than monogamy, and less prone to issues. This isn't true at all, and is a huge misconception I see all to offten. Poly is hard work and dedication, Poly is constant open communication. Poly is not getting angry at your partener for spending time.with other partners; true polyamoury is not "primary partner" friendly. You can say all you want that you're polyamorous, but if you attempt to exersize control over any one of your partners you instantly are no longer poly. There is no room for control in poly. There is no room for control in love. Poly is accepting, and enjoying, that your partner has others in their life that give them love and joy. Polyamoury is not for the selfish. Polyamoury is not for those anxiously attached. Anxious attachment styles and relationship anarchy do not mix. If you find yourself frequently being scared and jealous of your poly partner, you should reconsider why you are polymarrous, and if this relationship can continue to go on safely and without hurting you or your partner.

The polyamourous heart will always be polyamourous. You will NEVER be able to control it. Even if you think you've won, you haven't.