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"Nikolai had shattered Yegerov's friend's skull with the wrench propped up against the wall nearby. The blood had spattered up his bare torso, matting his chest hair, stained the side of his face. Shirtless, with a buzzcut he hadn't worn since his time in the Russian Air Force, he looked every part the madman he had become."
From this fic by @on-a-lucky-tide
As you can see, the image staid with me.
Alternate versions ( No blood, Nik with hair, lineart) under "keep reading" âŹď¸ââŹď¸ââŹď¸â
#cod#cod nikolai#nikolai cod#tw blood#call of duty#I hope I got the vibe right because WOOOO this image of Nikolai with nothing but anger left behind his eyes is living rent free in my brain#Paragraph that make you open CSP immediately âđââď¸#big lad innit#he looks line an entire different man without his long hair this is wild#you know what isn't easy to draw? BLOOD SPLATTER#I hope it looks good#I really like this piece#didn't take me too long either all things considered#the lineart is here just to show off the body hair let's be honest#anyway hope you'll like it :3c#Thank you again from writing something with my prompt Rawr !!!#my art
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It will never not be super ridiculous that Buffy had to single-handedly protect the world from demons, raise her teenage sister, manage a household, and work a full time job, all at the age of 22 and everyone around her is like âgod Buffy just grow up and deal with it, stop acting like itâs hard.â
#Giles leaving will never make sense#what 22 year old can be expected to juggle all that without support#and someone explain why Willow and Tara didnât pay rent cause I have questions#she really got no sympathy from anyone they all acted like she was this sad pathetic loser who couldnât handle being a grown up#but also can you give me any better representation of the reality of your early 20s than that#this show really did the thing#buffy the vampire slayer#btvs#buffy#buffy summers
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pro endo becuase it upsets me that you would choose a fundamentally carceral institution over an experience you donât personally understand.
#chrome barkz#rent lowering gunshots#we are anti psych in this house#liberation from sanism is not achieved without liberation from the prison system and the psychiatric institution#you will always have more in common with your fellow systems than a doctor who would recommend you be institutionalized for your own safety#pro endo
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Okay I have an idea for the german operators so hear me out.
In germany it is common practice that primary school kids have to get a bicycle license, its not a real license that is worth anything but it is a 1-2 week long course in primary school where they are taught traffic rules as a pedestrian and cyclist. (is is prolly different from school to school tho, just going off of the common experience of my friends and I)
For these courses they usually go to practice fields which are usually intended for drivers-license trainees to practice on without a teacher present.
The courses are usually overseen by the teachers, at least one police officer and a bunch of police academy students.
Now enjoy the mental image of younger police academy students IQ, Blitz, Bandit (+his twin brother) and Jäger having to deal with a haggle of 8 year olds.
Jäger squatting on the floor next to a bike, explaining the mechanisms and how to fix it yourself if the chain pops off while the kids are sitting on the floor around him.
Bandit cheering "let 'em fight!" while his twin brother has to pull two kids apart so theyâll stop fighting over who cut off who at the crossection.
IQ in front of a big ol board with all the street signs and different road markings, explaining what they mean.
Blitz being swarmed by a bunch of way too interested kids because asking the nice policeman about police-stuff is much more interesting than listening to what ever it is the teachers actually dragged them there for.
#we did that shit in the pouring rain and everyone was sick the week after lmao#also ye we have special fields for car license trainees where you can practice by yourself if you can organize a car#because you are not allowed to drive without a license and without a driving teacher present on the open road#but if you can borrow a car from a friend and they are willing to hang out with you there then you can go there and practice by yourself#they dont have to be in the car with you. just present in case something happens#in some places you have to call your city management and rent the place and in others you can just go#not every city/town has one tho and not all of them are the same quality#the one in our town has just a bunch of small paved paths and signs and crosswalks#and the one where I go to school rn has full on signal lights and a roundabout and stuff#rainbow six siege#r6s#r6s gsg9#r6s jäger#r6s bandit#r6s blitz#r6s iq
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"If you were leading and you fell, and I couldn't hold you... I'd go with you."
#emergency!#johnny gage#randolph mantooth#roy desoto#kevin tighe#johnny & roy#squad 51#this gifset was inspired by that quote from johnny to roy in s5#when they're climbing up a cliff for a rescue#and before johnny starts up ahead of roy he pauses and says this to him in such a sweet and genuine way#and that moment has lived in my head rent free ever since#i was going to use that scene for part of this#but it's so dark and hard to see so i decided against it#anyway these two aren't leaving a rescue without each other â¤ď¸#nothing to it when you know what you're queueing
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If I was to make a Lolilo The Musical playlist like the one I made for NMTD, where I retell the story using musical theatre songs, I would fully use âWithout Youâ from RENT to represent the Beadick Week-Long Breakup. Because that shit is maudlin and melodramatic and romantic as hell, and neither of them would ever say âlife goes on, but Iâm gone, cause I die without youâ out loud. But crucially, thatâs how they FEEL. And the point of musical theatre is that characters sing what theyâre too emotional to say out loud.
#nmtd#lolilo#beadick#these losers both respectively spend a week apart going âI must be strong Iâm fine on my own I am never going to be happy againâ#and then they get back together#if nothing else that level of melodramatic angst is how I felt when I thought the breakup was permanent so it captures that moment#I havenât had time to edit any of the fanfics that are one editing pass away from being postable#so you get text posts instead#I miss my otp#otp: team blessed#this description is a positive thing btw I LOVE Without You from rent
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Am at that wonderful standstill with house repairs where i am now broke again. Today will be "find little tasks no one likes to do for money" day to recouperate expenses so i can continue.
I am forever thankful to the people that helped me last week, and the person (i will find out who you are and love you one day) who helped me this week. If anyone else has a couple dollars free, i could use that to buy some nails/tiles for the roof, or spackle for interior holes in the ceiling, or primer/paint to fix up the water damage. Idk this house needs a Lot lmao
PLEASE DO NOT PUT YOURSELF OUT FOR ME UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES THOUGH
https://www.paypal.me/PallasfromTumblr
#I feel so dirty asking#but i can repay one day#and its to get the children back asap#but please if you are struggling dont do it#ill figure it out#I did have an interview yesterday that SEEMED to go well#so maybe i will have job soon#but idk how long to hope for that without them re-calling me ':/#they said âwithin a couple weeksâ so ill stick with if i dont hear from them in 2 weeks its a no go#but i still have hope#they seemed like nice people#also i refuse to pay rent while i am fixing the house and the landlord is ignoring my calls and messages#he should he doing this its his house
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They keep taking me to museums which is great but I Swear everyone keeps rushing through the god damn exhibitions & no one wants to read the plates or actually look at the items & all that i NEED to go to a museum ALONE.
#NONE of these people want anything to sink in they dont wanna think about how long ago Whole Species Life Changing Thing happened it sucksss#Id be reading something then i look around & see everyone's went to the next floor without telling me BITCH!!!!;;!!!#WHY GO TO A MUSEUM WHEN YOU DONT EVEN CAREEE.#I DONT CARE IF YOU RENTED A TOUR GUIDE THEY TALK & WALK TOO FAST FOR ME TOO LET ME LOOK AT THE WALLS BY MYSELF. GOD.#I gotta go on a trip to Jakarta / Taman Mini alone i really need to do that itd heal me. No more rushing through exhibits.#No more feeling tired & like a burden bc I cant walk for too long without getting tired. No more weird looks about what i order for food.#I get to buy the merch that interests me & not like 3 more fridge magnets or a tote bag. I can take my own photos.#Brb planning a future trip for myself alone I dont want anyone coming with me at all just me. my phone. the public & my bag.#I dont wanna go to group outings anymore at least let me like stray off from the group please#nillas
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this excerpt from kavehâs old sketchbook makes me clinically insane
#i wouldnât call this a bad thing but what could i possibly do for him that guy definitely wouldnât take me in for no reason and without expe#IM GONNA KMS!!!;!:!:!:#ahem anyway#haikaveh#kavetham#guys#i just#this on top of the thesis being pieced together in there#and his part of what was clearly a debate with alhaitham#and him saying that even tho their views contradict each other itâs bc of that that theyâre able to learn and grow from each other#idk theyâre soooo#actually going back to the main point#yea kaveh i wonder why alhaitham is letting you stay with him for what is probably low rent#without asking for anything else in return#hmm i wonder thatâs such a difficult question.#WHATEVER I HATE GAY PPL
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I know I haven't said much about it, but legitimately, "running away" was one of the most pivotal life decisions I've ever made. Probably THE first major life decision I've made, and also the best. If you have an opportunity to go, leave. Get out of there. If you are not safe at home, emotionally, physically, whatever, and you're able to leave, do it. It's going to suck such major ass for a while because you're going to have to deal with the scars they've left on you, but I wholeheartedly, full-throatedly, with-my-chest promise you that it is going to be better. You're going to be better. If you have the privilege of being able to escape, no matter how difficult it feels, then RUN.
#whatever you leave behind is not your responsibility. sometimes you're gonna have a fucked relationship with the siblings you 'abandoned'#but they have to understand that you had to leave. and that you were actively fighting to take them with you the entire time#it's okay to be selfish. you need to be selfish to start to recover.#if you have to be homeless please look up and do your research on local resources first. plan things out.#i was lucky enough to have family who'd been waiting years and years for this moment to happen#if you can go and have your college dorm as a safe haven then absolutely take that chance#if you can go and rent an apartment with the money from your job then take that chance#plan shit. do it. even if your brain fights you. you do not want to be out there without proper precautions or else you could end up-#-seriously fucked over.#also i know i'm encouraging people to get out but in equal measure:#if it isn't safe to leave you are not lesser for staying.#if it's winter and you can't be out there alone you are not complicit in your own abuse yk?#if you have family you CANNOT leave behind like extremely young siblings then you are not at fault for staying.#i was lucky enough to be able to leave quickly and (relatively) painlessly and i'm aware that not everybody can do that#sometimes staying IS the better choice. but that's a choice YOU have to make not me#assess your situation properly. are you staying for your own safety or because you're scared?#etc etc. obviously take all of this with a grain of salt i don't have all the life experience in the world just what little i have#also: prepaid phones are a godsend. MRIs. canned food. make sure to have first aid kits if needed. plan ahead. have a stash somewhere safe#rox rumblings#me things
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(vent in the tags) me thinking i've finally escaped financial problems: :DDDDD
life:
#idk why the image pasted like that but anyways haha im once again in a fucking pit#last month i was able to accumulate enough savings from collectively work and also other stuff#so i have a bit of extra in case of emergencies and additional expenses like taxes and stuff#but then guess who decided to not tell me he can't send me money by the end of the month - the time when i have to pay rent?#:DDD my beloved father#so i end up using the savings to pay for it#and i dont blame him or im not mad at him at all#especially because sending me money is already enough of a privilege that not a lot of people have#but at the very least if you don't think you can send me money can't you just tell me?#that way i can work for it???#because now im literally sitting with no money with food running out quickly in the fridge#i can't pick up a shift because whether its out of town or in my city it doesn't matter#i have no way to transport myself there other than on foot or on my bike#and i cant even cycle there without eating otherwise i'd basically sentence myself to death#so im trying to get by without eating for a couple of days right now but its just#sigh#i keep telling my father that i don't blame him and im not mad at him if he can't send me money when i need him to#but please tell me because i literally cannot take a shift this month because i need to study for the exams#and if i fail these exams i literally have one more chance to do them or else i have to repeat a year#which is going to cost us more in the long run#and just#yeah#maybe the hunger is getting to my head#im not going to open emergency comms this time because technically speaking i do have a job i can do#its just i need to just wait for the money that was supposed to be in my bank account to be sent#so i can eat and also i can have money for transportation#haku vents#venting#yeah no im just not in a good spot right now#apologies to mutuals and friends if i can't be on often
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kinda sucks having good days and bad days cause you can never plan anything. I think about getting into sport or dance and all I can think is "I can't guarantee I'll be able to that day". I hate making plans and suddenly being forced to drop them cause I'm not feeling well. Sucks for me, sucks for everyone else I had to ditch on. And then Ill be stuck at home a couple days later. Feeling fine. No plans. Nowhere to go. Angry I couldn't feel that way earlier. makes me feel fake. like I'm lying. and I hate it
#and just how FAST you can go from Great to Awful is. frustrating. âwhyd you say you were okay if you werent?â i WAS OKAY. and now im NOT.#i wasnt lying; i thought i was okay......#txt#cant function without plans and even if i could; if i were to leave the house without telling id be made to feel bad about it#'why arent you taking me; why arent you telling me anyrhing; i want to know what youre doing i need to know i need to knowknowknowknowknowâ#im supposed to be an adult(have a job; pay rent; be responsible)#but im not allowed to be An Adult(make my own decisions. do things cause i want to. on my own time.). i feel like a kid that pays bills.
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i hate having four fucking ads on a 20-minute podcast episode.
(it's a rant, enjoy.)
no, i don't want to get your shitting plus subscription, i don't even pay for 95% of the films and shows i watch online. stop fucking begging for patrons, it's not our problem you want to do this full-time. good for you if you do it but it's not somehow our duty to get you there just because you're a creator. not everyone can afford 60 fucking subscriptions. instead of people getting the minimum to at least get by as a basic human right, i bet like 85% of creatives online are making elite clubs on patreon and shit for those who have spare money. i get that you need it, but so many people (especially PDA neurodivergents) are extremely put off by being asked to pay and won't do it (like me) just because of that. i've encountered art that had the option to pay without requiring it, and I did. because they deserved it anyway, and they understood the classism and capitalism ingrained in the internet creative culture and that a lot of people don't have the means to become members of the club. i'm planning on starting a podcast, been wanting to publish fiction in paper since i was a kid, and i still want to make all that 100% free with the option of payment, because i believe that knowledge, stories and art should be accessible to anyone, regardless of financial situation (what do you think libraries are for, hm?????). when it's not, that's when elitism starts to rise and i'm just too tired for that shit. the empty snobbery culture around modern art alone is driving me insane.
Starkid has been recording their performances for years and guess what - they're massive, they sell out, people attend their live plays for the experience, but those who can't are still able to be a part of the fandom (as opposed to broadway musicals that get shared through bootlegs, hm) and they don't expect their fans to be responsible for their means of living. people who want to see a live performance, to buy your book in a bookshop professionally bound and keep it, to thank you for making your day by buying you a coffee will do so of their own free will. don't beg them to pay for your groceries if you made the choice to put your art out there. it's the system that is responsible for taking care of your basic needs, not your fans.
#shoutout to#the amelia project#because the ads in there drove me to this rant.#dear philip thorne. please do kindly shut up#can you leave all your begging to the end so i can skip it#i know i'm gonna offend someone by this post and to be clear: i'm not sorry.#the far-right is built on the mindset of individualism which means everyone is on their own and weak if they need help#while still requiring everyone to keep up with the insane standards.#far-left IS NOT GOOD EITHER TO BE CLEAR#WE NEED A BALANCE#but making us pay for each other's living costs is a distraction from#those who barely notice the difference of losing 2000 bucks#we should be able to go to work and make art without stressing over barely paying for rent and how much the month's food costs#not because we need to fight to survive but because we love being alive.#AND I'M CZECH. it's so much better here in comparison to so many countries.#so that's it i'm tired bye
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every time there is a ted lasso playlist without taylor swift in it an angel gets its wings.
#beebles#i am not tagging this with shit because i do not feel like being rent asunder thanks <3#sorry if you are a swiftie i love you but.#i have one sided beef.#a ted lasso playlist without mumford and sons is like an angel without wings.#saying this though i recognize that marcus mumford raised me from an egg.#i have been listening to sigh no more since i was like 11 lol
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Do all these billionaires WANT to have a reason to use their bunkers? And that's why they're hastening the complete collapse of the US and mucking around in the elections of other democracies? Cause if you pause a fuckton of federal money that pays salaries and helps people stay on their feet while also not hiring anyone to work for the federal government and deporting everyone who picks our damn food and slaughters our damn animals, then wtf do you think is gonna happen?
We're speeding toward a situation where white collar folks have to turn to the the gig economy to get by, only there is no longer demand for that kind of work cause there are so many fewer white collar workers who need their groceries and meals delivered, so competition will be fierce. Wages will go down. The folks who used to do those jobs are gonna end up replacing the deported workers & they'll be so desperate for cash that they'll take the same shitty wages and wealth inequality will rise to the point where there is no fucking middle class anymore and then we'll all be slave laborers and then...
#Bunker time#Wake me up from this nightmare please#A bit simplistic#but basically salaried workers are gonna get forced into low wage hourly work or gig work#Those workers will get squeezed out#Prisons will fill cause being poor & homeless is a crime#Those folks will get sent to farms & slaughterhouses where they work 10 hours a day for 25 cents#And lose contact with the outside world cause phone & internet time is $5 per hour#Federal money is everywhere. It fuels so much of our economy#All these asshat Magats without degrees who want to see government workers fucked over cause they're insecure about their lack of education#Are gonna learn real quick how important those jobs are when nobody is spending money on the services they provide#You think folks are gonna be remodeling their houses & calling plumbers when they're out of work & can't pay their mortgage#lol no#And who is gonna snap that property up when it goes into foreclosure?#One of those big real estate companies that's backed by venture funding#And they'll turn around and rent it out to whoever still has enough cash to pay for rent but not enough to cover a mortgage#We're so fucked
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i have no idea whatsoever about who the killer(s) might be this season, but i AM worried to death that LORETTA is in huuuuuge danger !!!! SAVE MY LORETTA !!!! YOU WILL NOT HAVE HER DIE TOO
#4771#omitb#omitb s4#omitb spoilers#i was right about dudenoff being dead BUT HOLY COW I DIDN'T EXPECT HIM TO BE INCINIRATED AS WELL#and he was murdered and burnt 3 YEARS AGO ?!?!?!?!#who the fck can easily access the arconia's apartments to place secret camera#and shoot from long distances#and take dudenoff's checks from the bodega#and receive all the money the westies have been paying for their rent ???#who had sazz's smartphone ???#i guess they have loretta's too or answered the phone when oliver called her to clear up the whole proposal situation#I THINK LORETTA HAS ALREADY BEEN INJURED IF NOT FREAKING KILLED BUT IT'S SUCH A SCARY THOUGHT I DO NOT WANT IT TO BE REAL#also why would someone shoot Glen !?!?! and Zach ?!?!?!???#i am so confused WHO IS BEING THREATENED AND WHO IS FREAKING KILLING EVERYONE#i am very suspicious of jan btw#and lester#and i also believe one of the sisters could have been involved without telling her twin#BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONNECT THE DOTS#so that's all you'll get from me#dear lord i pray charles mabel and oliver will be alright#and loretta too#also don't you find it weird paul rudd was included in the opening titles for the 4x07 episode but never really appeared on screen#aside from the initial frame where he's lying on the ground in a blood pool#just thinking
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