#yeah hit post this shit was drawn in like 2023

[winged-eggers]

AU Forgort Land rat lore. The pink one melted a little and is now on life support and very very angry

[txgrteo]

a long post about a long absence

i don't want this to be too long, so i'll probably omit some unnecessary details, but i wanted to open up about wtf happened to me. i feel bad for leaving so many people who care about me with literally no information. the last time i engaged with art as a community was pretty much exactly a year ago, early november 2023. posted a zeraora pic on twitter and stuff and just kinda jetted. it wasn't supposed to be what it is now, it just became that.

i got really demotivated, for starters. I've always struggled with reach and public perception, and my obsession with being a better version of myself. And i like to use empirical data for that- i prefer metrics, such as likes, retweets, comments- anything that can be graphed, quantified, etc. It's just how I work, i really like structure. But I never got that growth I was looking for. Posts didn't perform and I hated it- namely the feeling of being either not good enough or not acknowledged enough. so yah i left-

but oh boy did the shit hit the fucking fan. late november after i left, my long-term freelance position went up in smoke mainly due to mismanagement on their part, and that left me without literally any income. so no job, and literally couldn't hold a pencil without wanting to stab it through my neck (so, commissions were a no-go) means i was pretty fucked.

skip to like march and i hadn't literally drawn a single image since november. had no drive to. and right there i kinda just called it quits. social media was eating me alive- i couldn't deal with it. shortly after i got rehired, quit for the last time because of MORE mismanagement, then lost my apartment. i'm in a safe place rn with some absolutely outstanding friends but yeah...

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i don't know if i can come back. i don't know if i'm capable of dealing with my perception of my work in the oddly socially competitive market that is digital art. i don't know or care if i'm a good artist. i literally do not. even if i were/am, could i handle the pressure that social media brings me? it might just be something i'm unable to handle. so even if i wanted to come back, and im not sure if i could- should i?

so, for now, i'm gonna keep all my art to myself. i've drawn some banger shit lately (I FINALLY AM GETTING PAINTING DOWN YESSSSSSSSSSSS) but... i shouldn't post it. if i do, and it doesn't soar to relatively meteoric heights, the cycle will begin anew, and i ain't feelin that.

idk. who knows. it's whatever regardless. i just want to put myself first for once and worry about healing as a creator and learning to love what i make again. i didn't draw a single picture for 8 months. actually nothing. im drawing again now but i'm not willing to open myself up to relapsing into hating my art or myself anymore.

...as an aside, fuck twitter/all for-profit social media and what it's done to the internet as a whole. literally fuck it. i hope twitter goes up in the biggest ball of flames it can. (unfortunately this means you too, tumblr).

(last thing i wanna say is that i WILL most likely be making at least one post in the not too distant future, for commissions. i'm in an extremely dire part of my life right now and regardless of my emotional state i still need to eat. so i'll be making a commission post at some point.)

anyways, thanks for reading

[limoncats]

hi i’m limoncats

and i made this bullshit of a blog on the 26th of August, 2023

QUICK NOTE: you've most likely already noticed, but i swear very frequently. i sincerely apologise if that bothers you!!! ANOTHER QUICK NOTE: i do post a lot of Okegom but please know that i do NOT support funamusea.

my nicknames are Seren, limon or Eostra, i don't mind which you use.

okay so uhh before you go down and look at my kinda about me section pls look at my sona’s character sheet (no pressure btw)

(drawn April 4th, 2024) yeah, you can use that to reference my sona when drawing! if you do end up drawing me pls tag me i’d wanna see it 🥺🥺

also this comparison between heights of my sona and my OC Mayuu (real name: Rui Maikaze) is here so you can use it as a reference for my sona's height [height chart by MookieTheMonster on Deviantart]

DISCLAIMER: THIS BLOG AIN’T SPOILER-FREE FOLKS!!

okay here’s the long-awaited (← not really) about me section

hi, i’m limoncats (no shit) and i’m a multifandom artist who loves RPG Maker games! aaaaaaaaaaand the Chronicles of Ancient Darkness...god i love that series.

my birthday is January the 5th, i’ve basically drawn my entire life, purple is my favourite colour, green is my least favourite colour, i’m aroace, and vegetables taste ass to me

i was born and raised in England by Turkish parents!

i’m also a minor (under 18) so ye

as of now, i own 3 cats. (2 at home, 1 lost. i miss her [Luna] so much…praying she comes home)

disclaimer: if anything i say comes off as offensive to anyone i apologise in advance. i don’t want to offend anyone.

FAQ

“can i use your art as a profile picture/header?” yes, just credit me somewhere easy to see.

“can i repost your art?” yes, just credit me somewhere easy to see.

“can i dub one of your comics?” yes! ask me 1st and credit me in the description of your video, whether it’s a link to one of my socials (or multiple) or a direct link to the comic. (p.s. please give me the link to the comic dub i’d love to see it 🥺)

"can i use your art commercially?" ask me via discord (limoncats)

"how do you say your names?" limoncats is said "lee-mohn-cats", Seren is "suh-renn" (like the "seren" in "serenity", i think Seren is supposed to be a shorter version of "serenity"), Eostra is "ee-o-strah" (the o is said like the o in "impossible")

"why is one of your nicknames Eostra wtf she's like a horrible villain" listen. my school friends were assigning Soul-Eaters to each other and they assigned Eostra to me and i think it's funny asf

feel free to ask me stuff/request drawings via ask box!

my website (straw.page)

(there's additional info there too)

and that's basically it for my intro post! you're free to go look through my tumblr now :) (dw you weren't obligated to read this)

(p.s. if you like the Chronicles of Ancient Darkness, please talk to me. i'm begging you)

as of the 1st of July, 2024, i have hit 100 followers on tumblr! thank you all <3

and as of the 17th of August, i have hit 100 subscribers on YouTube!! thank you all so much!!!!!!!

userboxes + stamps below! (credits in alt text) flash/hueshift TW

if you want to see my art, go to the tag #my art on my blog!

p.s. feel free to ask me shit about Anaita

[empty-movement]

sorry but please... post your akio plastic covered couch tweet here... the world needs to know...

Warning: pics of gross shit happening on the couches

I'll do you one better and include the STORY! So, I, Vanna (note: Yasha mostly does the Tumblr and I mostly do the Twitter,) was smoking enough weed to knock out a large horse or put a very tiny dent in my constant back and shoulder pain, as one does when when they're a middle-aged Registered Nurse in the year 2023. (I'm 39 but it's an old 39, lmao.)

Scrolling through Twitter, I stumble on a fanart of Suletta from Witch of Mercury sitting goofily on a white couch. Now I haven't seen this show yet, but the white couch....looked familiar, and I know the show is very much a descendent of Utena in terms of creative teams. For those that don't know, the series is written by Ichirō Ōkouchi, who also wrote the two Revolutionary Girl Utena novelizations...which if you didn't know about before, you know about now, and can read translated on our site here! (Warning: Touga and Miki uh, in the novels...)

Anyways, so I hop onto my own website and start downloading the images that will constitute receipts, before realizing 1. these images are all on multiple computers feet away from me, 2. the couch isn't an identical match, 3. that'd have been weird anyway, and most importantly, 4:

AKIO'S COUCHES DON'T LOOK RIGHT. OBSERVE:

The edges of the armrests have sloppier upholstery than the blanket I have covering my computer desk. I took the time to tuck seams at least. What is this??

Now it could absolutely be leather, I thought. It would absolutely track. But leather upholstery doesn't look like this. It doesn't wrinkle quite this way. It would have cleaner seams.

No. No that's too shiny for leather. So here I am, presented with this strangeness I'd never really considered in how Akio's couch is drawn, and having spent the last few months learning about my Italian-American family history, my chemically altered ass came to the only reasonable conclusion:

Akio Ohtori has plastic coverings on his white couches, like he's a depression era American in poverty.

Fuck yeah, I though, A HIT TWEET, there, at the end of all Tweeting things. (Yeah I'm working on that, stay tuned, lmao. I of all people know when to bail on stupid men with stupid power.) Because I am me, I framed it as semi serious by pulling a context to explain it out of my ass:

I was joking.

But the replies? They were not. And then I thought about it some more. And I've kept thinking about it. Do I seriously think Ikuhara and Co literally are intentionally drawing a plastic covered couch? Doesn't that feel, Vanna, like a bit of a stretch, even for Utena meta?

Listen to that CRONCH when Akio sits down in episode 31, before Anthy is seen by Nanami. Look, the buttons on the back rest don't quite fit, but the rest? Yeah it kinda does. I was high, but not wrong!?

Akio *does* surround himself with a bizarre hodgepodge of Americana as an aesthetic. The arm garters. The piping and cut of his cowboy-ass shirt. His American car. His mullet. His miniature fucking golf. Why not the plastic covered couch? It's a trope of American poverty that would absolutely have fallen neatly into the diet of American pop culture that influenced Ikuhara. (He makes references to E.T. and The Godfather and Suspiria and all kinds of things in his other work, Utena itself is a little less obvious with individual references but inherits HUGE amounts of vibes from the same content--Ikuhara and Co watched Lost Highway in theaters during the production of the Akio Arc and I will not be convinced otherwise.)

So yeah. That's the story, and that's the theory. Do I seriously believe it was deliberate? Maybe. Probably. Possibly. But it fits so well it's headcanon for me, and in the Utena fandom, pretty much all canon is kind of headcanon so enjoy this one.

What an asshole.