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yungbludz · 5 years ago

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What we used to be / Vinnie Hacker

Author: had this idea and decided i needed to write about it

Summary: in which you and Vinnie used to date and now you’re with Troy

Warnings: blood warning, smut and angst, like prepare yourself because im gonna break your heart

Song recommendations: when i was your man - bruno mars and anything sad from this man, you got it girl, put your records on, thinking out loud, stay - rihanna, photograph - ed sheeran, anything sad from adele

“Nono! I’m gonna fall off, I-” before you could even say anything you found yourself with your ass on the ground. You glared at your current boyfriend of two and a half months. He simply bursted into laughed and helped you getting up from the ground. You pushed him down with you and he almost fell on top of you, both of you laughing your asses off. He thought it was a good idea to skate holding hands, but he didn’t realize that it would have messed up your balance so you were sitting down on the cement. Most of his friends noticed the scene and laughed, yelling at you two to move so that they could skate. You slowly stood up and he grabbed you by the back of your neck to kiss you sweetly.

“I’m sorry, baby, are you okay?” he asked you, concern in his eyes but you reassured him that you were just fine. You grabbed your skateboards and moved from the center of the track. His hand around your waist supported you as you walked but only afterwards he acknoledged the stain of blood on your knee, you were wearing shorts so it didn’t bleed through your pants thankfully. “Shit, you’re bleeding, y/n.” he told you worried pointing at your wound, you lowered your gaze and saw the blood dripping down your leg. You gasped and sat down, it didn’t hurt at all but you still had disenfect it.

“Aaron, do you still have those bandages in the car?” He asked as you cleaned the cut with simple water. You had been skating for awhile so you knew what it meant to get hurt, you got used to it. Aaron skated his way towards the car to take the gauze as you attempted to see if there was any foreign object inside of your knee, and half of a small splinter was stuck in it. “Shit, it looks bad, bro.” Aaron commented when he took a look it, you sighed as he helped you medicating it. Meanwhile the others had gathered around you, curious to know what had happened. You whined when Shane attempted to pull it out of you, holding tight onto your boyfriend’s hand as you scrinched your nose due to the pain.

“Stop, stop, stop! Fuck...” you groaned, you didn’t think such a small chip could hurt so bad. You took a deep breath, preparing yourself again and hoping this time Shane would’ve managed to pull it out. You cursed under your breath when they poured more water on it. Whereas you writhed in pain, Vinnie stormed in. He had noticed his friends gather around and wondered what was happening, asking to Jeffrey he told him you had gotten hurt after falling off your skateboard. As soon as he glanced at your wound he got scared, it was pretty bad and whatever Shane was trying to do was useless.

“What the fuck happened here? How did you fall down? Let me do it, I’ve done it several times, bro.” he stepped in, throwing his skate to the ground and kneeling in front of you as Shane moved away to give him space to see the cut. You gulped and sighed. Vinnie was the one who had taught you how to skate two years prior, he had medicated most of your wounds, dried your tears and bought you the majority of your skateboards. All because you were together. Yea, you dated for a whole year, if you don’t consider the last week when everything went to shit.

“Uhm... It’s my fault, I wanted to try something out and she fell.” Troy stepped in and took the blame. The idea was his but you still agreed to it. To answer your questions, yes, you were currently dating Troy, yes one of Vinnie’s best friends. It was pretty wild to think you actually ended up with him. The word awkward wasn’t enough to explain your ‘love triangle’. The first few weeks you decided not to tell Vinnie, although you knew no matter how much time you’d let pass by, he would’ve never taken it the right way. And that was exactly what happened: Vinnie and you had broken up three months prior, you barely talked to each other anymore, you hadn’t seen him in weeks and it was for the best. You were slowly healing, the break up had destroyed the both of you and you needed to move on and get over him. That was when Troy stepped in, he was much closer to Vinnie, in fact, he only knew you because of him, when he introduced you to his friends as his girlfriend. Back then you had only Vinnie in your mind, as you should have. But then Troy saw you struggling, grasping, holding onto anything and he stretched out his arm for you, he became the shoulder you could rely on and one who would’ve dried your tears. He didn’t have the intention to date you, he just wanted to be there for you as a friend, nothing more. After all Vinnie was still one of his best mates, he couldn’t do that to him, and you also weren’t ready to welcome love back in your life.

“Okay... Shane, pass me the water. This is gonna hurt so hold m- he stopped looking at your hand holding Troy’s tightly- his hand, might help with the pain. One, two, three...” he quickly removed the splinter from your knee as you cried out of pain, then he cleaned it with water, reassuring you it was all over. He wrapped the gauze around your knee, making sure not to leave any part exposed. He looked up at you, Troy pecking your cheek sweetly and soothed you with reassuring words, you smiled still a bit shaken. Vinnie cleared his throat and stood up. He couldn’t believe how irresponsible Troy had been, if it wasn’t for him probably you would’ve had a really bad infection.

“Hey, Vin- you called him before he could leave. You didn’t see how his eyes sparkled with hope for a short second- Thank you.” you smiled as you stood up with Troy’s help. He faked a smile and mumbled a ‘no problem’, picking his skate from the ground, walking away as he heard you laughing with whom he thought he would’ve been best friends for life. It was a sunny Sunday when you broke the news to him. He was making TikToks with Jordan and Maddy, one of the few times he managed to smile and feel happy in a long time. You knocked on the door and Jeffrey opened up, his smile slowly fading away as soon as he took notice of your hands intertwined together. He already suspected something, after all it was visible to anyone that love was in the air whenever you and Troy were together.

“Do you really need to tell him today? He hasn’t been this happy in weeks...” he begged you letting you in. You knew if you didn’t seize the opportunity he would’ve found out about it himself and that was definetely worse. You tightened the grip on Troy’s hand as Jeffrey showed you the way. He walked in first in the room where they usually worked out. Before you could follow him inside, Troy held you back so you turned around, wondering if he wasn’t feeling ready. At the end he was the one risking more out of the two of you. “No matter what he says I’ll be with you, okay?” he told you and you nodded. He pulled in for a small peck on the lips but the timing couldn’t be worse. The door opened and Vinnie exited the room, he was still laughing at Jordan’s joke, ignoring Jeffrey who asked him to wait. When he turned around his smile disappeared seeing you and Troy kissing, his best friend and ex girlfriend.

“What the fuck?!” he couldn’t hold it back and you instantly pulled away scared. There he was standing in front of you, heart shattered and mouth agape as he tried to understand what was happening right in front of him. He couldn’t believe it. Sure he expected you to move on and get with someone else, but he had never thought that someone would have a friend of his. You gulped and attempted to find the right words.

“We were going to tell you, I just-” you explained panicked and sorry, you never meant to let him see you two kissing, not even after telling him you were dating. Vinnie’s eyes watered spontaneously, he didn’t want to cry in front of you, but he had never felt such pain in his life. Not even when you two broke up, probably because although you weren’t together anymore, part of him knew, hoped you still loved him. This was the proof that you had moved on, unlike him.

“Are you serious? Bro, she’s my fucking ex! You knew I wasn’t over her yet, why the hell did you do that? You’re two fucking assholes!” he exploded pointing his finger at you two, Troy pushed you behind him, afraid he might’ve laid a finger on you, but no matter how angry Vinnie could get, he would have never touched you. Jordan and Jeffrey stepped in before things could get out of hand. You started blabbing random words, trying to explain but Vinnie didn’t want to listen to how he had let you get so close, how he was now the one you looked at with heart eyes. Troy attempted to make him reason but there was no way.

“Fuck you, the both of you. You’re dead to me.” he stormed off, Jordan chasing after him. You wanted to follow him but little J stopped you, telling you it was better if you had let him calm down, that the blondie would’ve talked some sense into him. But you heard the hate, the venom, the spite in his voice and how could you blame him? He had every right to get angry, it didn’t matter if you had no interest in hurting him, you still did and you felt extremely guilty for it. Troy wrapped his arms around you and tried to calm you, but you knew it was your time to be there for him. Vinnie was your ex boyfriend, but also his best friend. Troy was risking it all for you, to be with you, no matter how high the prize was.

“Everything is going to be alright, okay? He needs time, anyone would’ve reacted the same way.” you whispered into his ear, he needed you to comfort him like he did when you were at your worst. You could have never forgotten how he carefully and patiently picked up the pieces of your broken heart, he didn’t take advantage of you, he put his feelings aside for weeks before you finally realized that wasn’t just friendship. He wanted you to be fully over Vinnie before engaging in a relationship with you, he accepted your insecurities, your doubts, never lost his temper. Then you opened your eyes and kissed him, he was afraid you were only trying to use him as a rebounce, but you proved wrong. He sighed and kissed your forehead as he waited news from Jordan.

Weeks went by and there wasn’t a time when he didn’t check his phone to see if there were any good news and he was left disappointed every day for the following two months. On the other hand Vinnie like going through your break up all over again, just ten times worse. There were days when he didn’t have the strenght to get off the bed and the boys took turns to keep him company, but the worst time always came along with the night, when everyone was asleep and he couldn’t stop thinking about you, about the kiss, the scene repeating itself over and over in his head, driving him insane. Sometimes he’d walk around the house aimlessly, barely eating and drinking. The only thing that kept his mind off you was skating, he’d skate for hours, by himself or with others. But he stopped talking as much as he used to, he seldom spoke, nobody knew what was going through his mind. One day he was at the groceries with Anthony when he saw you from behind. He wished his heart didn’t fill with joy at the sight of you, but then he also saw you being spun around by someone and there he was: Troy kissing you, taking your breath away. His heart dropped and he wished he had simply stayed home.

“Hey man, you okay? What are you looking at?” Anthony asked him, trying to figure out what had caught his attention. He looked away for a second but then when he looked back you were gone. Was he hallucinating? He sighed in disbelief and shrugged his shoulders, fixing the mask over his nose. You then began to appear more and more until he couldn’t tell apart what was reality and what was just his imagination. Memories of you haunting his dreams and he always woke sweaty and screaming. He even went back to Washington for a few days, to take his mind off you. His family trying to support him as much as possible, but no matter where he was, you followed him around as if you were his own shadow. His mom, dad and brother would run to his room when hearing him screaming in pain in the middle of the night. He was losing himself, just like he had lost you.

Once he got back to Los Angeles, after realizing nowhere would have been enough far away from you, the boys had set him up for a couple of dates, thinking that meaningless sex could ease his mind, but nothing worked. Only time slowly healed his wounds and after another month he went back to slighlty smiling, but he knew the ultimate litmus test was seeing you. So one day Troy finally woke up to Jordan’s text, where he asked him to hang out by the skate park, implying that Vinnie would have been there. You hadn’t seen him this happy in a long time. You decided it was best to take things slow so you didn’t come along and, as he then told you, it all went good. Vinnie didn’t speak to him but he didn’t even glare at him. As the days went by everything went back to normal, well sort of. Troy showed you again his most valuable skill: patience. He never asked Vinnie more than he could offer him, accepting his silence as the most beautiful gift. Then he slowly spoke to him again, he knew they would have never gone back to what they were but it was for him. Then you started to show up, at first it was hard, really hard for Vinnie but then he got used to it, to you. You tried your best not to be too much touchy around him and although he never admitted he was really thankful for that.

It had been awhile since you and Troy came out publicly to all of your friends, at least seven months. Vinnie was still dealing with it, but he was almost himself again. You were in Kio’s room, hanging out with Troy, Vinnie was visiting his family he shouldn’t have come back in another couple hours. You knew Kio would have killed you two if he caught you in his bed, but you couldn’t stay in Vinnie’s room, that would have been a low blow. Troy pushed your hair out of your face, looking at you in the eyes, you blushed and kissed him. Things got heated pretty quickly, you straddled his lap as you made out. The Weeknd playing in the background, you knew going further was risky but keeping your hands off each other was nearly impossible. Your top and bra were quickly discarded on the floor along with his shirt and pants.

“Shit... Come here...” he whispered pulling you closer by the neck. You felt butterflies flying in your stomach as he pushed your panties to the side and his fingers came in touch with your sensitive bud, collecting your arousal and moaning at how ready you were for him, like always. You rolled your hips against his, creating some friction. “Are you going to fuck me or not?” you bit his earlobe as he kept teasing you, he chuckled and ripped your panties apart. You freed him of his boxers and looked for a condom in Kio’s drawer, finding none. Does this guy never fuck or is he an idiot? Troy almost gave up when a devilish idea popped into his mind. He topped you and started to kiss down your body as you squirmed under him. He licked and blew hot air on your skin until he reached your core, marking up your thighs that closed around his head.

“Please T-Troy... Oh fuck!” you raised your voice a bit too much when he wrapped his lips around your clit and sucked on it. He pinched the skin of your thigh to warn you, you had to keep it quiet if you didn’t want any of the boys to walk in on you so you slammed a hand over your mouth as his tongue worked magic on you. You felt him lap up your slit, a flood of profanities escaping your sealed lips as silently as possible. He swirled his tongue around your clit, his eyes staring into yours which you kept shutting whenever he hit a special spot. His hands held your legs apart as some of his locks tickled your inner thighs.

“So pretty for me, baby...” he moaned against your wet and hot flesh as he easily slipped a finger inside of you, your walls immediately clenching around it. He started off slow and then picked up the pace, adding a couple more fingers. You felt a knot in your stomach starting to form. He then went back to devouring you, his nose pressed against your clit. You chased your release as if your whole life depended on it, your hand tugged at the roots of his brown hair, which only turned him on more, low grunts falling off his lips, adding pleasure.

“I can feel you’re close, darling...” he whispered in a graspy voice as his fingers kept fucking you, you wished it was something else rearranging your guts but Kio decided to take a vow of chastity and there was no way you asked the boys for a condom. His teeth slighlty bit your little bud of nerves which caused you to roll your eyes to the back of your head. As much you wished it could last forever, you felt on the verge of coming undone, you cried out his name a couple of times, your voice broken as you bit down your bottom lip.

“Let go, pretty... Lemme fully taste you.” that was all it took for you to cum all over his tongue and he took it as if it was the most delicious nectar in the world, which to him it was. He cleaned you up, giving your sensitive bud a couple more of kitty licks and then pulled away. You kept panting as you looked down between your legs, seeing him smiling softly at you. You grabbed him by the necklace and pulled him in for a kiss, you didn’t care that you could still taste yourself off his lips. He pulled away to let you catch your breath since you were still coming down your high as you kept mantaining the eye contact he licked clean his fingers, one by one. Your eyes filled with lust again, you tried to straddle his lap to return the favor.

“We can’t, pretty. The others are surely wondering what happened to us...” he declined unwillingly the offer and you pouted, getting off of him and putting your shorts back on. Your panties lied on the bed half ruined, you glared at him and mimed a ‘you owe me one’ and he simply winked at you, putting what was left of them in his back pocket. You exited the room and walked downstairs, looking for the others.

“Yo Kio, you really got it on with that girl, uh.” You heard Jeffrey joke and giving Kio a pat on his shoulder. He frowned in confusion, your cheeks reddened right away as you realized that the others had heard you. Jordan looked at you stepping outside along with Troy. As little J tried to explain what he was talking about to Kio, Troy left your side to pet the little doberman of the house when a red ripped pair of panties slipped out of his back pocket. You would’ve rathered die in tha moment than see that scene. Jeffrey mumbled a ‘oh shit’ as he understood his mistake, but it was more than just embarassment. Kio turned around still confused and looked at the item on the ground and then at you and Troy. It didn’t take the three of them too much to do the math as Troy’s hair was pretty ruffled and so was yours. Silence fell upon the five of you.

“Did you fuck in my room?!” Kio’s high pitched voice covered someone else’s. Vinnie had just come back from his three days in Washington, he wanted to surpirse his friends but once again the timing couldn’t be worse. He stepped outside the garden and heard Kio’s last sentence, he looked around and saw you standing a few feet away from Troy, who simply scratched the back of his head in embarassment. His eyes fell on the red item and it took him two seconds to recognize your underwear, then he connected the dots. His sight went blurry as you all realized he was standing there and he had heard everything. You gasped. Vinnie’s fists clenched on his sides as he tried to push the thought of you two having sex away. He was still getting over you. But then the thought of you writhing beneath him, moaning his name pushed him over the edge and before any of you could stop him, he was punching Troy in the face.

“Vinnie!” you screamed as he fell on top of Troy who caught off guard took the fist right in his face. You tried to push him off of the brown haired boy as he threw one fist after another, aiming at his face. It took the three boys and Troy’s help to get him away. You looked down at him and he had blood coming out of his nose, lot of it. The look on Vinnie’s face was unrecognizable, pure anger, fear, hatred as he was held back with strenght by Kio and Jeffrey and Jordan talked to him. However his eyes were on you, you were scared for a second, not recognizing the man in front of you.

“Oh jesus, here let me help you.” you kneeled and looked for a tissue to stop the blood from coming out of his nose but only found your ripped underwear, desperate times call for desperate measures. Troy grabbed them and chuckled, you were amazed by the fact that, although he had just gotten punched in the face multiple times, he still managed to smile.

“Told you they’d be useful.” he joked and cracked a smile, relaxing since you knew he was okay. As he kept your panties pressed against his nose you helped him standing up and guiding him into the bathroom. You met Vinnie’s gaze, he looked calmer as he listened to Jordan’s words. You shook your head and walked away, he had pushed it too far. That very day Anthony insisted that you stayed, saying that Vinnie had calmed down and that there was no way he’d beat Troy up. You let him decide, since he was the one who got punched and he agreed. You knew his guilt and loyalty were going to become toxic for him but you didn’t say anything. After finishing up your dinner you put the plate in the sink, you were sitting on the couch between Troy and Shane. You felt a presence behind you and you didn’t need to turn around to know who was it. “C-can we talk?” he asked you, his head hung low probably ashamed of the previous events.

“Don’t know, will you punch me if we don’t?” you spat out, just because Troy was okay with being treated like shit by him it didn’t mean you thought the same way. It was a low blow but he didn’t say anything, so you nodded and went in the backyard. The only lightening coming from the the streetlights, you sat down on the grass where no one could see you, you didn’t want any interruption. He plopped down next to you. Your eyes stared at the stars up in the dark sky as you waited for him to start speaking.

“I’m sorry for what I did, I have no excuses for it but when I realized what had happened it went all blurry and I-... I’m sorry.- he looked at you but you didn’t dare to turn which hurt him but he deserved it- Listen y/n, I am really trying to get over this whole situation, I swear. But it’s really hard. I always knew you’d get with someone else I just didn’t expect them to be my best friend. I promise you I’ll behave... I just need you to tell me one thing.” he looked at you and you finally looked back at him. His heart skipped a few beats, having you this close to him was a dream coming true. But you were so close but so far away for him. You nodded, asking him to speak. He took a moment to look at you properly one last time. All the memories you had shared together during your relationship, every smile, laugh, cry, fight, embarassment, adventure. He knew he would have had those moments back with you and he had to let you go for good.

“Does he make you happy?” he asked you, his eyes staring deep inside of yours as if he was looking for a sincere answer in them. You expected him to ask you anything but not this. “Yes, Vinnie. Very much.” you replied and you could see the disappointment in his eyes. You had wanted your relationship with Vinnie to work out so bad, you both tried your best but it wasn’t enough, because you weren’t meant to be. It hurt you for a long time, the realization he wasn’t the one destroyed every other certainty of yours. You couldn’t believe the man that swept you off your feet the first you had made eye contact wasn’t the one who would have been there for you forever. You had broken each other’s hearts so many times, it was pointless to keep trying, you didn’t match. You were destined to other people.

“That’s good...” he mumbled looking away and you nodded and looked down at your hands. Then you felt one of his hands grabbing your face, his lips inches away from yours as you sat there like this. “I loved you, Vinnie, for a very long time and part of me always will. You’re my first love and I’m never going to forget all the love and joy you brought into my life. It’s time for us to take different paths, I’m always going to be here for you, just not in the way we tought we would...- your hand stroke his left cheeks, you never had a real closure and this was it. No looking back. Vinnie didn’t reply but there was no need because nothing would’ve changed your mind.- Take care, Vin.” you pecked sweetly his cheek as you stood up, you saw a tear slipping out of his eyes. Walking away you felt a weight getting off your chest, you needed that, Vinnie only held you back to your past but you had to live in the present. You walked back in the house, Vinnie coming in a few minutes later.

“Wanna go?” Troy asked you and you nodded, holding his hand as you waved goodbye to your friends. Vinnie raised his eyes once to look at you and you gave him a small smile which he returned. You walked out of the house hugging another man. It hurt him but it was for the best. Everyone looked at him but he simply shrugged his shoulders and gave them a little smile. There was always going to be part of you that belonged to him and vice versa, you had been part of your pasts and would have been surely part of your futures, one way or another.