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Ted Lasso Characters + Carplay

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did anyone order matching breakup paintings?

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i feel like i buried my heart in the sands of her soul, and when we were once a beach, i’m now lost at sea, impossibly apart and far from her

but you see her on instagram and it was never really said that you guys aren’t friends but one day she stopped answering and you stopped texting and it’s not like the wound is a cavern but it is a diagram of what if in red letters. you want to tell her nice lipstick that’s a good color but the last time you spoke it was stilted and awkward 

how do you say goodbye, you know? it’s not an unfriend and block kind of situation. but you watch the people you once loved go on and have a life and you’re outside of it. and it’s bittersweet because of course it’s okay that you’re both thriving. but she used to be who you’d call if you needed to cry. she used to be who’d you’d be binge watching the new series with. you used to be hers, in a way, even if that way wasn’t permanent. and now she’s someone else and so are you and your friendship is clicking heart shapes next to pictures where she smiles next to people you’ve never met. you know where her birthmark is. she knows where you’ve buried your dead.

the poets and the singers and the authors write about romantic love when it ends. but nobody tells you how to get over a friend.

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I wanted to doodle Crowley and I wanted to doodle Trent. So I thought “oh”. And here it’s - a Good omens Ted Lasso au.

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"You idiot... we could have been... us."

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I went through every possible emotion in those last 20 minutes, plus some that I made up on the spot! how are y'all?

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#I am unwell

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this is two of my faves combined and i am in LOVE

Jamie: Hey Coach, are you wearing your running bottoms…and your hoodie?

Isaac: Coach are you going for a run?

Ted: *nods*

Trent: Have fun!

Keeley: Oh my god what is wrong with Ted, Trent?

Rebecca: Yeah, what happened, are you guys okay?

Trent: Ted is going for a run. If anything we should be asking what is right with Ted

Sam: He only goes running if he’s upset

Colin: And he’s wearing his sad hoodie

Zoreaux: and by the looks of it, it’s been washed

Dani: which is bone chilling

Trent: He’s fine, everything’s okay

Beard: I JUST PASSED TED ON THE STREET! RUNNING! ON PURPOSE! OH MY GOD

Trent: Maybe I was wrong

Beard: TED! ARE YOU OKAY?! I SEE YOU!! AND I LOVE YOU

Trent: In my defense, no one here emotes in a normal way

Roy: That’s fair

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i’m so tired. so very tired. and i know, this too shall pass. but what for? it’ll just come back again. what is the point of suffering through this cycle again and again? who am i do it for? certainly not me. i am living for other people. is it fair to them? that i am alive only for them? is it right to burden them with this, knowing their lives might be easier without it? it seems so juvenile, so naïve, so common, to question the meaning of it all. i am every single person in history at this moment in time, and i am every single person there is to be. we just question, and we survive. there’s all there is to it, really.

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sometimes i’m convinced i’m not actually a terrible person and that the mental illness is just making me believe so

and then i waste another day on tiktiok or fucking anything and i realise i am just a fucking waste of space squandering away any potential and chances