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castletown retirement home

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continuing my pursuit of being their biggest advocate

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there's a follow-up now!

got some more fic food for the krusie fans under the cut! (spoilers ahead) cross-posted on ao3, title "pull me from the dark"

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Susie couldn’t stand when people weren’t honest with her. Especially when they didn’t even outright lie, but instead just…kept things from her. Important things. Things that she wish she had known about, so that she could’ve made different choices, or even just so that she would KNOW. Because what’s the point in lying when the truth is gonna come out one way or another?

She thought Kris understood that. She thought Kris was one of the few people who would stick with her. They didn’t talk a lot, but she never thought that was because they were hiding things. 

She had snuck into their house while Toriel was at rehearsal. With everything going on, she just wanted to surprise them. Maybe go by Castle Town again, hang out, get some time to just have fun. 

But she heard some broken voice coming from Kris’s room, a voice that very much was not theirs. It was coming through what sounded like their phone. Telling them ominous things that didn’t really make sense. Things about the fountains. She wished she got there earlier, if only to hear the beginning of the call, maybe it would’ve made more sense then. 

And Kris was silent. Took it in. Said nothing. 

As Susie listened, she realized…how long had Kris been talking to this person? Since the beginning of the week? How long had Kris known things about the fountains and never said a word?

Susie felt a pit in her stomach as she realized. Anger started bubbling up, and she felt her mind going haywire. Who the fuck are they talking to, why did it sound like the person on the other end was speaking another language?

And why didn’t Kris SAY anything about this? Did they not trust her? Did they think she would just…get in their way?

If it was that last one, then maybe they were right. Because when Susie overheard that call from outside Kris’s room, with this unnervingly broken voice starting to say things she could understand, things about sacrifice and promises, Kris’s absolute silence, and eventually the bang of something being knocked over… 

And when she peeked inside the room’s cracked open door, seeing the birdcage on the ground with Kris kneeling over it, their head in their hands and their body heaving, as if they were crying…

She wouldn’t let Kris keep going like this. Not when they clearly hated it. Not when they were in this kind of danger.

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The look on their face was almost enough to make her regret it.

She was surprised at her own restraint, not confronting Kris right then and there, instead waiting until they were at Castle Town. Having asked Ralsei to talk to Kris alone, with both she and Kris insisting that he go up to his room to decorate it with their finds from the church’s dark world, he was too far away to see or hear.

The moment she brought up the phone call, Kris stiffened up, and refused to say a word. Then they ran. 

Susie had to physically stop them from running, but Kris was both shorter and faster than her. They kept out-maneuvering her, she kept reaching out and stopping them, and the cycle repeated.

The Darkners that were in the castle lobby cleared out pretty quickly when they saw this. Susie offhandedly thought about how that made sense, since Darkners had this whole weird purpose thing that made them want to make sure that Lightners were only every happy… maybe Ralsei was the exception to the rule, and no one else would really be able to handle Lightners at their most upset.

The next time Susie got a hold of Kris, she steeled her nerves and did the only thing she could think of. She pulled them into a hug, catching them off guard for just long enough before pulling away so she could look them in the eyes.

“C’mon, Kris, you CAN’T just keep running like this forever. You gotta talk to me. That phone call was…” She didn’t want to let on just how fucking scared she was. “Weird. It sounds like you’re…in with something you shouldn’t be. What’s…what’s going on?”

Her voice slipped, and she almost didn’t recognize the soft, scared tone of her last question. 

If the look on Kris’s face said anything, they felt the same way. It was what she could only describe as some mix of dread, sadness, and fear, creating an expression that Susie never wanted to see them wear ever again. She wanted to see them with a shit-eating grin accompanied by their laughter, or a soft little smile like the one they had given her at the diner. 

But right now, all Susie had from them was this miserable look and silence. She kept looking at them, giving them a moment to speak up.

But Kris looked down, their hair covered their eyes, and the room remained silent. It was deafening. 

She didn’t want to get angry. Not at Kris, not when she knew that something was so wrong, but their silence…after how they had bonded, after how much she had come to trust them…

Something bitter bubbled up to her throat. 

“Heh. Should’ve known I’d never be in the clear.”

Kris shifted at that. Their head was still mostly down, but tilted upwards just slightly. Enough that she could see one of their eyes peeking out of the curtain of their hair. 

Their eyebrows were furrowed in what looked like confusion and a little bit of dread. That was all she could really read from them. Their hands shook, just a little, and for a brief moment, Susie’s mind stopped in its tracks. She wasn’t so sure, all of a sudden, about what she was gonna say. 

“Another person who’s not just gonna tell me the fucking truth.”

She wishes her mouth didn’t run faster than her mind. 

Despite feeling just as angry, she regretted those words the instant she said them. She was even more sure that she made a mistake when Kris fully looked down again, stiffening up, their hands shaking even more as they started mumbling.

“trying to…protect…”

Susie was almost too stunned to say anything, but managed to get her question out.

“What did you-“

“I’m trying to PROTECT YOU!”

Suddenly, a switch had flipped. Their head whipped up, both of their eyes fully visible to her and their expression teeming with anger. The fury and clarity in their voice was something that she’d never even imagined.

Despite everything, she couldn’t stop looking at them.

….Had the room turned red while she wasn’t looking?

It felt like it as Kris came up to her and pushed her back, not with nearly enough force to hurt, but enough to make a point. 

“Kris—“

“STOP!” They pushed her again. 

More prepared this time, she recovered quickly, only to be met with another frantic shove. They tried again, and—

“KRIS!” Susie braced herself and grabbed both of their wrists. They thrashed in her grasp, but she held steadfast. 

“Stop it! Just—let me…. stop….”

Their resistance became weaker and weaker until they eventually started slouching. Kris’s hands balled up into weak fists on her chest and their head fell. Their voice became mumbly again, repeating “stop” and “just let me…”

Suddenly, Susie could hear what Noelle was talking about the other day. Kris’s voice was different. 

In any other situation, Susie would be all over the opportunity to say that she didn’t need protection, if anything, Kris and Ralsei needed hers. But the way Kris was talking, and how they were shaking in her arms… 

Something was unbelievably wrong. And she’d be damned if she let Kris face it alone.

“Kris, what’s… seriously, what is going on?” 

She looked down to get a better look at them and saw that their eyes were wide, with…oh, they were crying… 

But they were still quiet. If they really thought they were protecting Susie by not saying anything, then she had a feeling that they would be here forever. She would just keep asking, and Kris would just keep spiraling. She needed to change her strategy. It took a moment before Kris started to let out a weak mumble.

“please, just…let me…”

“Hell no.”

Kris startled, but their tears stopped flowing and they had brought their head up just a little. They were still averting away from her gaze, but she could see their eyes again.

“Look, I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t know who you were on the phone with, or why you were talking to them. And maybe you’ve got a reason you’re not telling me. But something… something’s wrong. And I’m not just gonna watch you deal with it by yourself. Whatever’s got you like this, we’re gonna face it together. You, me, Ralsei, like always. And if you try to stop me…”

In an instinctive act of boldness, she brought a hand to their chin and held their head up so that they were looking at each other in the eyes.

“I’m gonna fight you, too.” 

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Kris couldn’t stop looking at her. Her smile wicked and wide, her eyes burning with determination, her hold on their chin firm. It took all of the willpower they had left to not lean into her hand, to not move closer to her. 

They knew she said that in a half-joking way, but she didn’t realize how likely it actually was. 

So she probably also didn’t realize how desperately they wanted that.

If anyone is going to stop them, if someone is going to cut their strings and most likely cut into Kris’s own flesh in an attempt to do so…

They want it to be her.

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Shining with the light you gave me

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Wow what good friends I sure hope nothing happens to them :)

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kris drawings from flipaflip because flipaclip is the goat

anywayz I beat the knight now im trying it with no mantle and hoping the part of my brain that's cracked at undertale will kick back in

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i wish the tv was louder so i dont have to hear them anymore

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got some more fic food for the krusie fans under the cut! (spoilers ahead) cross-posted on ao3, title "pull me from the dark"

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update- there’s a follow up now! check the reblogs c:

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Susie couldn’t stand when people weren’t honest with her. Especially when they didn’t even outright lie, but instead just…kept things from her. Important things. Things that she wish she had known about, so that she could’ve made different choices, or even just so that she would KNOW. Because what’s the point in lying when the truth is gonna come out one way or another?

She thought Kris understood that. She thought Kris was one of the few people who would stick with her. They didn’t talk a lot, but she never thought that was because they were hiding things. 

She had snuck into their house while Toriel was at rehearsal. With everything going on, she just wanted to surprise them. Maybe go by Castle Town again, hang out, get some time to just have fun. 

But she heard some broken voice coming from Kris’s room, a voice that very much was not theirs. It was coming through what sounded like their phone. Telling them ominous things that didn’t really make sense. Things about the fountains. She wished she got there earlier, if only to hear the beginning of the call, maybe it would’ve made more sense then. 

And Kris was silent. Took it in. Said nothing. 

As Susie listened, she realized…how long had Kris been talking to this person? Since the beginning of the week? How long had Kris known things about the fountains and never said a word?

Susie felt a pit in her stomach as she realized. Anger started bubbling up, and she felt her mind going haywire. Who the fuck are they talking to, why did it sound like the person on the other end was speaking another language?

And why didn’t Kris SAY anything about this? Did they not trust her? Did they think she would just…get in their way?

If it was that last one, then maybe they were right. Because when Susie overheard that call from outside Kris’s room, with this unnervingly broken voice starting to say things she could understand, things about sacrifice and promises, Kris’s absolute silence, and eventually the bang of something being knocked over… 

And when she peeked inside the room’s cracked open door, seeing the birdcage on the ground with Kris kneeling over it, their head in their hands and their body heaving, as if they were crying…

She wouldn’t let Kris keep going like this. Not when they clearly hated it. Not when they were in this kind of danger.

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The look on their face was almost enough to make her regret it.

She was surprised at her own restraint, not confronting Kris right then and there, instead waiting until they were at Castle Town. Having asked Ralsei to talk to Kris alone, with both she and Kris insisting that he go up to his room to decorate it with their finds from the church’s dark world, he was too far away to see or hear.

The moment she brought up the phone call, Kris stiffened up, and refused to say a word. Then they ran. 

Susie had to physically stop them from running, but Kris was both shorter and faster than her. They kept out-maneuvering her, she kept reaching out and stopping them, and the cycle repeated.

The Darkners that were in the castle lobby cleared out pretty quickly when they saw this. Susie offhandedly thought about how that made sense, since Darkners had this whole weird purpose thing that made them want to make sure that Lightners were only every happy… maybe Ralsei was the exception to the rule, and no one else would really be able to handle Lightners at their most upset.

The next time Susie got a hold of Kris, she steeled her nerves and did the only thing she could think of. She pulled them into a hug, catching them off guard for just long enough before pulling away so she could look them in the eyes.

“C’mon, Kris, you CAN’T just keep running like this forever. You gotta talk to me. That phone call was…” She didn’t want to let on just how fucking scared she was. “Weird. It sounds like you’re…in with something you shouldn’t be. What’s…what’s going on?”

Her voice slipped, and she almost didn’t recognize the soft, scared tone of her last question. 

If the look on Kris’s face said anything, they felt the same way. It was what she could only describe as some mix of dread, sadness, and fear, creating an expression that Susie never wanted to see them wear ever again. She wanted to see them with a shit-eating grin accompanied by their laughter, or a soft little smile like the one they had given her at the diner. 

But right now, all Susie had from them was this miserable look and silence. She kept looking at them, giving them a moment to speak up.

But Kris looked down, their hair covered their eyes, and the room remained silent. It was deafening. 

She didn’t want to get angry. Not at Kris, not when she knew that something was so wrong, but their silence…after how they had bonded, after how much she had come to trust them…

Something bitter bubbled up to her throat. 

“Heh. Should’ve known I’d never be in the clear.”

Kris shifted at that. Their head was still mostly down, but tilted upwards just slightly. Enough that she could see one of their eyes peeking out of the curtain of their hair. 

Their eyebrows were furrowed in what looked like confusion and a little bit of dread. That was all she could really read from them. Their hands shook, just a little, and for a brief moment, Susie’s mind stopped in its tracks. She wasn’t so sure, all of a sudden, about what she was gonna say. 

“Another person who’s not just gonna tell me the fucking truth.”

She wishes her mouth didn’t run faster than her mind. 

Despite feeling just as angry, she regretted those words the instant she said them. She was even more sure that she made a mistake when Kris fully looked down again, stiffening up, their hands shaking even more as they started mumbling.

“trying to…protect…”

Susie was almost too stunned to say anything, but managed to get her question out.

“What did you-“

“I’m trying to PROTECT YOU!”

Suddenly, a switch had flipped. Their head whipped up, both of their eyes fully visible to her and their expression teeming with anger. The fury and clarity in their voice was something that she’d never even imagined.

Despite everything, she couldn’t stop looking at them.

….Had the room turned red while she wasn’t looking?

It felt like it as Kris came up to her and pushed her back, not with nearly enough force to hurt, but enough to make a point. 

“Kris—“

“STOP!” They pushed her again. 

More prepared this time, she recovered quickly, only to be met with another frantic shove. They tried again, and—

“KRIS!” Susie braced herself and grabbed both of their wrists. They thrashed in her grasp, but she held steadfast. 

“Stop it! Just—let me…. stop….”

Their resistance became weaker and weaker until they eventually started slouching. Kris’s hands balled up into weak fists on her chest and their head fell. Their voice became mumbly again, repeating “stop” and “just let me…”

Suddenly, Susie could hear what Noelle was talking about the other day. Kris’s voice was different. 

In any other situation, Susie would be all over the opportunity to say that she didn’t need protection, if anything, Kris and Ralsei needed hers. But the way Kris was talking, and how they were shaking in her arms… 

Something was unbelievably wrong. And she’d be damned if she let Kris face it alone.

“Kris, what’s… seriously, what is going on?” 

She looked down to get a better look at them and saw that their eyes were wide, with…oh, they were crying… 

But they were still quiet. If they really thought they were protecting Susie by not saying anything, then she had a feeling that they would be here forever. She would just keep asking, and Kris would just keep spiraling. She needed to change her strategy. It took a moment before Kris started to let out a weak mumble.

“please, just…let me…”

“Hell no.”

Kris startled, but their tears stopped flowing and they had brought their head up just a little. They were still averting away from her gaze, but she could see their eyes again.

“Look, I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t know who you were on the phone with, or why you were talking to them. And maybe you’ve got a reason you’re not telling me. But something… something’s wrong. And I’m not just gonna watch you deal with it by yourself. Whatever’s got you like this, we’re gonna face it together. You, me, Ralsei, like always. And if you try to stop me…”

In an instinctive act of boldness, she brought a hand to their chin and held their head up so that they were looking at each other in the eyes.

“I’m gonna fight you, too.” 

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Kris couldn’t stop looking at her. Her smile wicked and wide, her eyes burning with determination, her hold on their chin firm. It took all of the willpower they had left to not lean into her hand, to not move closer to her. 

They knew she said that in a half-joking way, but she didn’t realize how likely it actually was. 

So she probably also didn’t realize how desperately they wanted that.

If anyone is going to stop them, if someone is going to cut their strings and most likely cut into Kris’s own flesh in an attempt to do so…

They want it to be her.

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i wanted to try drawing something with a kindof comforting feeling Dont think i really succeeded but it was fun to experiment...bleeghh...krusie heart..

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Tenner

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got to the deltarune chapter 3 ‘secret’ boss and what the fuck

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I understand now my eyes have been opened✨

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Mike…?

I found this scene really funny

^^^ uncalled for….

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you two are so goddamn weird you deserve the world

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finished the new deltarune chapters and i'm losing my mind. i've hyperfixated on a couple details and wrote a little kris/susie ficlet in response. minor spoilers for chapter 4 specifically! crossposted on ao3 (title "when the light shines")

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Susie’s smile was a powerful thing.

On their own, Kris didn’t always feel like much of a person. Maybe at one point they had. Maybe before things had gone wrong and they still wandered the world with a glint of naive hope in their eye, right next to the mischievous glint that they would always carry with them.

But when they were pulled by another planet’s will with no choice but to orbit them, and with the little control they once had having long since spiraled out of their hands, Kris had given up a lot of that hope.

Next to Susie, though, Kris allowed themself to wonder what their own life might look like. When her light shined, it made them feel like they could be powerful enough to break away, too. 

In the mirror, next to her, everything felt okay.

Looking at their reflection, a tentative vision scraped at the edge of their mind. Sitting at the piano, a breeze from the window washing over them, Susie coming up behind them. She puts her jacket around their shoulders and runs a hand through their disheveled hair as Kris holds her other hand. Looking at a mirror, sitting on the edge between two realities, and seeing themselves. Those old church clothes swapped out for baggy old shirts and sweatpants accompanied by worn, warm smiles. With a full heart, souls be damned. A tad older, a lot more drained, but despite everything, so deeply the same.

“Huh? What was I thinking?”

…. Nothing.”

In that pause, the two of them saw a future. Looking in that mirror together, seeing themselves for all they were, all they could be. For all the fun they will have, when sorrow chips at the edges, these small patches of time lift them up. Maybe all the sorrows are why they come to appreciate these moments of quiet intimacy, where they see everything they can be in the crinkles underneath her eyes, in the folds of their hair, in the worn leather of the bench they sit on, in the smudges on the mirror. All illuminated by the dazzling light of her smile, bringing out something in them that they had forgotten was there. 

Looking into that mirror…for just a moment, the red glow faded into a soft pink hue, lit from the sunset, and they were content.

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i finished playing new deltarune chapters. can i just say.

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See you tomorrow... Deltarune tomorrow. Friend Design By - @sillyzlaurr

On an extra note, I fully meant to make this a video. (evident via ralsei gif) But given a few sobs during the editing venture I sure hope you dont mind this version!