technicallycrispywitch

[technicallycrispywitch]

I'm back! june 10th

hey! its been a while. I've been sick. And tomorrow I'm going on a trip for my uni course. I'm scared of the people and getting to know people. I would rather stay home wrapped in a blanket. But thats not where life happens.

I feel so lost atm. The world spins, my friends keep on achieving, my roommates get degrees, my boyfriend goes to work and I'm really glad he does and that its fun. I'm proud of them all. I just feel stuck. I put myself in a cage and theres no way out. I stand still while my friends run past me towards the goal.

I want to get out but this world isn't made for me. It's not designed for my way of thinking. I want so much. I want a job but i need one that doesn't make me want to kill myself. I want to be better at art. I want to be less of a mess.

I want to run besides my friends not staying behind.

but first i have to pack my stuff for the scary trip. See you in 4 days. Hope I don't get killed in the woods (it's a forest camp trip idk)

[technicallycrispywitch]

First of June 2025

this is not a home, this is a cosplay i always am a different person when I'm here, maybe more confident idk

my lovely boyfriend visited and we went to a family party. It was so exhausting but also a little fun. It's just not for me. My boyfriend really supported me and that was so nice of him. I'm so happy that I drive home tomorrow. I miss my room and my stuff. It was really nice with my family. I enjoyed the time. It's just not my home anymore. I'm thankful to have such a beautiful place to visit though.

I hope you have a place that feels like home and that you love. If not you'll find it someday <3

[technicallycrispywitch]

family home

haven't posted much since I arrived

it's been a lot. I love my family. My mum and I have a great time! We went shopping yesterday and I'm really proud of me that I didn't buy much. Bought a present for my dad. My mum bought me new shoes. Was a hard day but we had a lot of fun.

I still have a lot to do for university.

I want to go out and go find herbs in the woods.

I really enjoy the nature and that the sun is still out even at 10pm

[technicallycrispywitch]

being alone

I'm really bad at being alone but who is? I think I'm just lonely too fast thats why i could never live alone.

had a rough weekend :D

buut i also had pancakes for breakfast that was really amazing!

and now I'm watching winx club and getting ready to pack my stuff.

Next week I'll visit my parents and I'm not excited.

Make the best out of your day! <3 Tomorrow might change

[technicallycrispywitch]

May 24 2025

what a mediocre week to start a blog :D it was rough

but now I'm distracting myself with playing the sims 4

drawing and making art makes me angry atm i hate everything i create

anyways my sim catched fire today and opened up a witch shop. So thats not that bad

I cleaned my room and did some chores so I'm still proud of myself

its the small things sometimes

<3

[technicallycrispywitch]

May 22 2025

I'm so glad to know so many lovely people that heal me bit by bit with their kindness.

being loved and loving people is the best feeling in the world.

making my friends happy is the best

today was an emotional day, my one eye is annoying me with twitching and I had an important talk with a friend. I feel better now.

I finished my Die Drei ??? Hoodie today and I love it so much! It's not perfect. The embroidery is crooked but i still love it and I'm so proud.

never stop creating <3

I have some doctors appointments to schedule tomorrow for my adhd. I'm not excited

[technicallycrispywitch]

yesterday was a day where i failed a lot, i baked something that got burned and cooked something that tasted bad.

today was much better. i'm trying to get my life back together.

Really want to paint my walls green!!

Also I watched practical magic again today and I just love it so much!! It's all I want.

I can feel a storm coming or just rain

Next week I'm with my family and I really want to connect with my mum and nature

Love you whoever reads this

Next time you wake up it might be a better day <3

[technicallycrispywitch]

May 19 2025

some days just feel off and thats okay

i wish i could be kinder sometimes. I snap sometimes and i feel bad doing that. I don't wanna be annoyed.

I drew a lot today and I'm really proud. It's good to make ugly art! I didn't let myself make ugly art and thats why i stopped evolving.

Make Ugly Art!

Have a great day! Maybe someday won't feel off

Anyways I'm off now, going to bake some granola bars!

[technicallycrispywitch]

May 18th 2025

I'm a failed artist. I'm drawing since i'm twelve and I make art since I've existed. I didn't get any better at it. I don't know anatomy and I still haven't mastered placing shadows and color theory.

Yesterday I was on the phone with a good friend of mine who lives a few hours apart from me and we don't see each other a lot. A few years ago I went to school with him, we both made art and went on to get degrees in that field. I went on a media design route and he went to a real art school where he paints in his studio and he's really good at it. His paintings are loved and he gets a lot of money for it. I'm really happy for him.

So on the phone he told me about how he applied to 2 art scholarships and he won both!! thats amazing! I was happy for him and really proud. But then it hit me like a bullet in the back. What am I doing with my life? My friends are wonderful artists or getting their degrees and I just exist.

The good thing is that it motivates me to achieve something.

To actually get better and improve.

Maybe I just need more time and thats okay.

if theres anyone that feels the same way i'm sending love to you! I don't think we failed. We achieved different goals in our life <3

Sorry for such a depressing first update. today didn't happened much. Just a bit of cleaning and drawing.

[technicallycrispywitch]

dear diary

hello dear reader i initially wanted to use this blog to post my poems and thoughts and i'm still gonna do that. Someone inspired me to make a diary out of this and share my life. I don't know if its worth caring about or if anyone will ever read this but its worth a try c:

So hey I'm crispy, i'm 24years old and i like drawing, gaming, strawberries, nature, reading and the stars. Currently I'm studying communication design in germany. Oh and i have adhd :D

I'll try to update every day at 8pm or later! thanks for reading

[technicallycrispywitch]

Go piss girl