thecalsdidit

[thecalsdidit]

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why does one need to binge bro. what the fuck is wrong with me?!? how does one even eat that much like.. yes i had a bad eating day and then proceeded to eat my life away rotting in bed like ew.. thats not giving.

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[thecalsdidit]

ive never heard anything so real

i'm not listening to my body anymore she's a fat bitch

[thecalsdidit]

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do i tell her about my problems and that im struggling again or not because shes struggling??? i cant help but feel like ill be a burden in her life.

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does anyone else watch a movie and then become really upset?? like i just watched thirteen and now i wanna relapse like.. sometimes it happens when i watch to the bone to i just like become the charcter in it its weird.

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i don’t think i’ve ever been so scared to cvt? im always terrified that my parents will check me randomly and find them. i hate lying to my gf too because how am i meant to tell her i’ve not ate in 36hrs and thats why i have a headache? not because i didn’t sleep well last night?

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have you ever just looked in the mirror and thought ‘well damn look at my hourglass!!’ and then turn to the side and ur like ‘well damn im fat…’

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[thecalsdidit]

how i feel after doing 50 sit ups in the morning and another 50 before bed

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my god why are my thighs so fat?! its the way ill look at photos of me standing and ill be like ‘yes skinny legs!!’ and then i sit down and its like oh…. i don’t understand it, i do 100 sit ups every day, leg work-outs and still they’re so fat?! i just need to lock in look at how fat they are you pig.

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is it just me that hates the feeling of food? like when i eat anything i can feel it like in my stomach it makes me sick. knowing that its gonna show on the scales like, i cant get over the fact that what i just ate will have consequences. its not even food either, when i drink and i can feel it in my stomach god, i know that water weights gonna kill me.

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when everyone’s new years resolution is to have less screen time while mines to get skinnier and loose weight!! also im sat here sobbing about what i ate while people are partying like..

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i actually hate my life so much. i keep going over my cals because its christmas time and i see family (my family wont let you leave unless your dying full of food). i hate it, only my parents know about my ana but they could at least step in?! my auntie was telling me like how skinny i was and how i look like a ghost and my mum just stood there like come on. im also having really bad $h urges recently and idk what to do.

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“why are you doing this to your self?!”

maybe because ever since i was a child i was known as the skinny family member? the one who was a picky eater who never ate? the one who you said never gained weight no matter what she ate? the way you comment on every single thing i eat?

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[thecalsdidit]

light pink th1nspø ♥︎

[thecalsdidit]

hii ^^ welcome to my blog

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a bit about me is !!

- i go by isla ♡︎♡︎

- my parents know about my ana

- i want to loose in my thighs + face

- im 14, 90.4lbs and 5’4

- gw - 60lbs

- $h user ^^

- dni if in recovery

- comfort movie is to the bone

- i have a gf !! (how i don’t know)

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