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I HATE MORAL OCD. well i shouldnt say hate thats a strong word. and i dont want to sound like i hate people WITH moral ocd because i dont of course. i just hate having it. but i shouldnt think that, i do like having morals, its just stressful to be thinking about them so constantly and scrutinizing every little thing i do or think. but really thats the least i could do so i should at least try, right? just because i suffer from— no, struggle with moral ocd doesn’t mean i should just stop thinking about things all together, thats not what im saying and i should make that clear, but i

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Ok I'm normal now

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It feels like I can't make plans. I can't get excited for things they just get cancelled. I'm not supposed

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I'm going insane I wanna hit my head against the wall

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I used to watch Markiplier everyday way back when, and I still occasionally watch him, mostly when he's playing a multiplayer game with Wade and Bob, but there was a point I was just so put off by him I literally didn't watch any of his videos for like a year, and the reason was cause when he was playing all those rage games or whatever they're called he was getting so genuinely angry and loud that it scared me. So after that I just associated him with angry scary yelling

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Blue is acting very sus

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Cue me entering a server where im the oldest one there by at least 4 years like: Shit I gotta be the adult now

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The one time I don't show up for a jackbox and it's the one time my friends won't stop talking about how fun it was 😌

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Hey it's me again, back on this blog cause I am so fucking depressed lol

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*gets stupidly nervous over something I really shouldn't be nervous about*

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I wish i could connect to people on the same level they seem to be able to connect with others. I’m not interesting and I don’t have the social know how everyone else learned when they were small children. I can barely even ask my friends to watch something with me cause why would they want to

I wish i felt lovable

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I wish i felt lovable

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Orville Peck for Apple Music

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You are allowed to admit that you do not know what you are going to do with your life yet. You are allowed to admit that you do not know what your passions are yet. It is simply okay if you do not know what you want to do someday. There is no need to feel ashamed if you cannot present a fully structured plan to others if they ask about your future. That does not make you weird and it definitely does not make you a loser, my love. You are allowed to not know - because you really do not have to. You have so much time to explore yourself, to find out what makes your heart happy and to stumble upon a path that you want to walk. It is okay if you have no clue what you want to do in the future, or even right now. It is absolutely okay, darling. Take your time.

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So I watched Klaus, and guess who’s my favorite character-

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