thejourneytofindingmyself

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WHAT IS THE SHAPE OF THIS PROBLEM? VIII of IX — LOUISE BOURGEOIS, 1999 [letterpress & lithograph | 12 × 17" (2)]

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Anaïs Nin, from “The Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1955–1966”

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it's all fun and games until you take a little too long to swallow your medication and you start tasting it

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sound of electronics

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Someone said to me today that it was unfair I was born autistic because I didn’t choose to be born this way. Yes that’s right I didn’t choose to be born autistic, but I don’t find the fact that I was unfair and I am not unhappy about being born with a differently wired brain. That in itself is not a problem and is not unfair, but I’ll tell you exactly what I do find unfair:

I find it unfair that I was born into a world that doesn’t understand me and fears me.

I find it unfair that no one listened to my parents and I went 12 years undiagnosed all because I’m a girl.

I find it unfair that I get treated differently from the people around me.

I find it unfair that I am mocked and laughed at for showing my autistic traits.

I find it unfair that the abuse autistic people face is turned into memes and no one sees a problem with that.

I find it unfair that I am punished for traits I can’t control.

I find it unfair that I am less likely to be given opportunities in life because whenever I mention my autism people become scared of me and don’t want to deal with me.

I find it unfair that I am forced to fit into neurotypical’s standers and I am punished for not doing so.

I find it unfair that I have to live in an ableist society and be treated horribly all because my brain is wired differently.

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One of the worst things I learnt whilst trying to figure out social interaction was that I'm friends with so many people but that doesn't mean they're friends with me.

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“ Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be? ”

— Charles Bukowski (The Post Office)

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THE STRUGGLE ™

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Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena

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autistic culture is never being quite sure whether you were actually being rude/implying things without meaning to, or some asshole is wildly misinterpreting what you say and then getting mad at you for something completely unrelated to what you actually said

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