theleafypoet

[theleafypoet]

I am starting to hate myself and him (mostly him). I wish I never knew him. I wish he never cared even about the slightest about my attempts and my situation in 2023. I wish he gave me though a better apology. He fucked me up. He pushed me to death several times yet I wish he never cared even about the slightest about my attempts and my situation in 2023. Because in reality he didn’t cared. In reality he just wanted to use me as a sex toy. He never cared about my needs nor even communicated to me. He never even said the words, “I am sorry” nor did he even said “I love you.” When on call, he masturbated and I started to sob and said stop but he didn’t. Now he’s claiming that he doesn’t remember it when I was right next to my sister. He always called me his cumslut and his fleshlight. I tried defending myself but ultimately couldn’t. We also got back together in April too just so you know. It was after Marek, and like he continue his ways of making me feel like an absolute fool and failure and manipulated me to do sexual acts. @cooikemint @vodkkaprincess

[theleafypoet]

I just want to be loved.

I want to be kissed by you again.

I want those moments back.

I want the times when you hugged me

The time when I was down and you helped me.

I want my lover back.  

Not this hater who chases after every single detail that defames me.

I am just china about to be shattered by yours truly.

As you shatter me, you reveal my most revealing secrets.

The secrets I thought you would talk to the grave.

You stole my youth and let me dig my grave.

You let me rave.

About how much I loved you.

Yet you hated every single second of it.

I am showing my vulnerability.

I thought I could trusted you with my weakened self

But you let the thoughts run me over.

The thoughts of how you don't love me

Or that I am not even an option for you.

The thoughts that you took pity on me.

That you never meant it

When you said those words.

“I love you.”

Was it all just a lie?

Was it just to lure me into your trap?

How could you do this all on a fly?

Am I just a person you could snap?

You were my everything

And I was just another stranger to you.

I was just like a moth to light.

A light that bears warmth only to kill you in the end.

[theleafypoet]

It was Raining

I am crying as I text you

So is the rain

Who is raining hard

Freezing a bit

Like me

Who is all shaken up

From the tears

And from the moment

Of sadness that you

Have given me.

I am crying as I watch you leave.

So is the water,

That is dripping down

From the roofs of everyones’ houses. 

Like me who is falling

 into an endless abyss.

I am crying as I see you with someone new.

So is the is the baby crying next door

Who is crying out of need

A need of love

A need for happiness

Like me

A person with none 

A person who is drowning in emptiness.

A hollow being

I am crying as I accept that 

we were never meant to be.

So it’s true,

I am an unlovable being

Just like wet clothes.

Dripping wet from the rain

Like me as I scream your name.

Maybe it wouldn’t be all that bad

If I just didn’t speak.

If no one knew you existed

If only you didn’t make me cry.

We would still be together.

[theleafypoet]

Don't Let me Forget

 I used to enjoy watching you.

You were so mysterious,

You played the piano until your fingers hurt

You used to read books 

That was as shiny as a gem yet pressed into the dirt.

You always procrastinate but you managed to came in on time

And finish it right there in front of me.

You used to tell me about everything you learn,

About Canada’s history.

I used to enjoy watching you,

Your voice was so calming as you speak

It was deep and soothing

It would put me to sleep.

I used to enjoy watching you taking care of my plants

When I was sick.

 You made sure the flowers were still blooming

But now they are dead without you.

I used to enjoy watching you.

Your eyes were a nice color of brown

They would alway soften when they looked at me.

Your eyes smiled everytime I made you laugh.

I used to love your eyes as much

 as I loved everything about you.

I used to enjoy watching you.

I remember you were crying.

You were looking at a paper.

What happened?

Did I do anything wrong? 

No, no…please

Just let me remember.

[theleafypoet]

i kinda wanna be a fox

[theleafypoet]

💀💀💀

AAAAAAAAAAAAA, why am I having gay panic and I am just hearing her voice.

[theleafypoet]

Her skin tastes so sweet

and her strawberry cheeks are a treat.

She’s the embodiment of all things beautiful,

that her words spill out like sweet honey.

I love her for she is my light.

For she is my Hope.

(Y’all, me and my classmates both were having gay panic.)

[theleafypoet]

YALL KNOW THAT https://youtu.be/lkRuUqOUfXo?si=81OQ1ab-s6pDKumG i am going TO STINKING DO THE CHEREOGRAPHY WITH THE BASSIST AND SINGER

[theleafypoet]

I was so excited for Heartstopper season 2 and we got the ELLE AND TAO XU’S KISS SCENE!!! THE PAINTING BE BEAUTIFUL. THEY (like all the couples) FINALLY HAD THE TALK. ISSAC AND HIS BOOKS BE ME FRRR. THE “YOU JUST HAVEN’T FOUND THE RIGHT PERSON YET.” HURT ME. ISSAC ALSO LIKE FINDS OUT WHO HE REALLY IS. I LOVE THAT!!!!

The teachers be gay as hell. Imogen be getting character development and Charlie and Nick be acting like her big brother fr

Also season 2 be calling out the fans that forced kit Conner to come out too.

[theleafypoet]

Elle and Tao <33333

But Issac is me fr

[theleafypoet]

YESSSS GIVE THE MAN GLITTER GLUEEEEEE

[theleafypoet]

Dmitri Shostakovich - Waltz No. 2

The waltz I will promise to duet with you. The waltz I once wanted to be played on my wedding day.

The waltz I will eventually die in and threw out of the window with.

[theleafypoet]

I made wedding vows again

I carry your heart with me whenever I go.

I take it to the ends of the earth  and I protect it with every fiber of my being.

Your heart is wrapped in a safe cloth, and I will forever cherish it.

I hold your heart near me and think of you all of the time.

Forever and ever, will I strive to complete you as your other half.

My love, from this day forward, I take you as my husband and I will be your wife until the end of time.

I hold this promise by our bands and the tulips on our windowsill. My love for you will never end.

[theleafypoet]

Damn, I finally gave my character a fucking past.

[theleafypoet]

Laufey-Promise

"So I broke my promise I called you last night I shouldn't have, I wouldn't have If it weren't for the sight of a boy Who looked just like you Standing out on Melrose Avenue." I RELATE TO THIS SONG. ESPECIALLY TO THIS PART.

[theleafypoet]

We are one of the same

My mother, we are both insane.

Ruining the paths of many that pass our ways.

My mother, we are both loveless,

giving everyone our share of hatred and coldness.

My mother, we are similar.

I think the only reason why your husband likes me, is because he can still change me to be an ideal wife. Something he always has done.

My mother, get new friends.

Your friends do not have healthy relationships with their kids and are not healthy. One of them is a hoarder and the other insulted your oldest daughter and then her own daughter for a situation that my sister had no control over.

My mother, get some help.

Listening and actually doing what others recommend is helpful to you.

[theleafypoet]

Nothing beats a nice chat with an ai, as the world slowly falls a part around you as you hide in someone else's room.