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I don't understand why you're so concerned for me and my misfortunes, or at the very least why I don't happen to have a smile on my face. We're not exactly friends.

Then I won't lie to you. Yes, we have.

Life’s unfortunate that way Nicholas, and I am truly sorry for all that you’re dealing with right now. I would never wish that kind of misfortune on anyone. I didn’t mean to intrude, I just, when you notice someones smile has disappear the least you can do is ask why.

In all honesty, yes, yes I do.

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I-- I wasn't trying to be an asshole.. I-- bye, Gale.

I was accepted to Princeton.

I thought it meant that you didn’t want to get away from me so badly that you would lie to me and then go off to get yourself killed. Guess we were both wrong.

I don’t want this fucking argument again, either. I said I was sorry and that’s all I meant to take it. I wish you weren’t being such an asshole about me wanting to work out my head, but whatever. Bye, Nix.

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Excuse me for thinking that when you're in a relationship with someone that you take them as they are, including all their faults. That I thought that meant that I could count on you when I needed you to be there for me and to understand that one thing.

Look, I'm not having this fucking argument again. It doesn't even matter anymore. You want time to yourself, Gale? To figure everything out.. You've got it.

I was accepted to Princeton.

You asked for understanding about something that was going to get you killed. I’m not killing myself or anyone else with this. Don’t tell me to ignore the context, Nix. There’s no comparison.

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Okay.

Forget about the context, the point is that you're still asking me to be understanding, to be supportive in the way that you need. Why should I give you that when you couldn't do the same for me?

I was accepted to Princeton.

I don’t know. I want to say yes, though.

Don’t compare our situations. They’re nothing alike, Nix.

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You won't ask me, but do you want me to?

You.. you are asking me to understand? To be understanding of something that you're going through, that you have to deal with? That's quite the request coming from you.

I was accepted to Princeton.

I won’t ask you to wait for me or whatever… But I’m just asking you to understand.

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Okay.

Good luck with that.

I was accepted to Princeton.

I want… I don’t know what I want. I know it wasn’t just a phase or whatever, but I’m… I’m still in a weird place, Nix. I’m eighteen. I’m trying to figure myself out or whatever, but I know I’m gay. And I do like you. But nothing is in stone yet, I’m just… Taking it a day at a time.

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You should be listening to me, Vincent! Trusting me! We have been friends for years now, I would think that should count for something. You know me better than almost anyone.

People can be so useless at times.

Who would you believe if you were in my position?

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Just tell me, whose word are you taking over mine?

People can be so useless at times.

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You said that before your head wasn't on straight, I'm assuming that means you believe you've straightened yourself out now. Be honest with yourself and with me, just tell me what you want.

I was accepted to Princeton.

You’re acting like you want me to say something, but I honestly don’t know what that is. What do you want me to say, Nix?

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I see you're still less than impressed.

People can be so useless at times.

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I can think of a number of things that you could say to me right now. If you really don't have anything else to add, then maybe it's a good thing that you walked away after all. 

I was accepted to Princeton.

Okay. I don’t know what else to say then.

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Knowing that you shouldn't have done it doesn't change the fact that you did. You being sorry doesn't make it better, it doesn't change anything. What's done is done.

I was accepted to Princeton.

I know, okay? I know. I shouldn’t have done it. You can be mad at me all you want, Nix, but I said I was sorry. And I am.

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That's not an excuse! You can't just-- You disregarded everything, and you walked away from me not just once, but twice! I.. I did something with you that I never do with anyone; I fucking let you in and you walked away.

I was accepted to Princeton.

My head wasn’t right. I don’t know what else to do other than say sorry, Nix. That’s all I can do, so I’m trying.

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You're sorry about what happened? Yeah because that fixes everything, Gale. It doesn't even begin to-- No, you know what forget it. 

I was accepted to Princeton.

I’m sure I will… 

Listen, I… I’m really sorry about what happened.

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Congratulations on getting into Princeton, hope you have a fan-fucking-tastic time.

I was accepted to Princeton.

Hi, Nix.

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Surprise, surprise, Gale Cohen is running away.

I was accepted to Princeton.

Goodbye, D.C. Fucking losers.

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Guess it's the latter than. I fail to see how that makes me a crappy person. You forced some weird sense of friendship on me, and I told you more than once that I didn't reciprocate the sentiment. So there was no betrayal of trust between us.  

But what I said before is true, the kid means nothing to me. 

Hmm.