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I am so fucking mad right now.

They have made a most foolish decision.

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…[Mat] saw Egwene coming out of the village, with two dozen or more Aes Sedai, most wearing fringed shawls. Or rather she came, and they followed. Head held high, she looked straight ahead, that striped stole hanging about her neck. The others strolled along behind her in little clumps…but they were all talking among themselves, ignoring the woman they had named Amyrlin. Egwene might as well have been alone; she looked alone. Knowing her, she was trying very hard to be what they had named her, and they let her walk alone, with everybody watching.

To the Pit of Doom with them if they think they can treat a Two Rivers woman that way, he thought grimly.

Striding to meet Egwene, he swept off his hat and bowed, making the best leg he knew how, and he could flourish with the best if he had to. “Good morning, Mother, and the Light shine on you,�� he said, loud enough to be heard in the village. Kneeling, he seized her right hand and kissed her Great Serpent Ring. A quick glare and a grimace directed at Talmanes and the others, and hidden by Egwene and those behind her, had them scrambling to kneel and call out, “The Light illumine you, Mother,” or some variation. Even Thom and Juilin.

Egwene looked startled at first, though she hid it quickly. Then she smiled, and said softly, “Thank you, Mat.”

Genuinely, this is in my top five Mat moments. Mat is so annoyed with all of his female friends right now, but he sees that Egwene is hurting (both in social standing and personally) and he doesn’t hesitate to step in and support her.

This is now one of the scenes that I will genuinely mourn if it gets cut from the show. Seeing Donal Finn do this would be just fantastic.

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J IS SO SAD

BSKY SIDES WITH PEDO TRANSPHOBE

J NEEDS SOMEWHERE FOR ZIR THOUGHTS

ah this is a fucking bad day after another bad day and I hate it

[theoraclej]

Oh boy, I'm excited/nervous to share this - I wrote a song. About Tech Bad Batch.

I just had... so many feelings about him, and how his life/'death' (as an amazing, actually freaking groundbreaking autistic character, done quite dirty by the narrative's conclusion) was handled, the story choices and the fan reaction to them. Feelings of anger, betrayal, loss, utter confusion due to frankly bizarre story structure and simply falling into fog (where we can't see him) -

Anyway. It's been a lot. For a lot of us. 💚

So this is me processing... All That. And coming to the conclusion that even if aspects of it hurt me, ultimately, stories and the people in them belong to all of us, and our feelings about them are ours and real, even if the characters aren't. Much love to this show and fandom, always. And yes, I feel better now. This was therapy.

(Obligatory: this isn't an invitation for debate or discourse. It's an expression of art, and arguments/drags will be futile. Nice words, however are very welcome. 💜 Also, this song is on Bandcamp, and probably elsewhere soon!)

Lyrics under the cut!

Never thought I'd catch a glimpse of someone like you

Sees the universe and life the way that I do

And best of all, they let you shine

Galaxies illuminate in your rare mind

And you think like me

I knew that you feel like me

When I ran the numbers they all told me you'd stay

Logical conclusions pointing only one way

I never could take much on faith

Always needed evidence no one could shake

But I believed in you

I let myself believe in you

But now you're gone

The story's all wrong

I feel like such a fool!

They told me you would come back

Always supposed to come home

Even waiting for you seemed like a game

Waiting just to see your face

I'd see your shadow every day

But fate gets twisted

And I can't see you.

Playing back the memories time after time

Every place they told me I misread the signs

And every time they'd hint and tease

I laughed along, but the joke's on me

If you had to go,

Why am I the last to know?

But we lace our boots and pick ourselves off the ground

Standing side by side in the joy we've found

Who cares if stories break my trust

When they belong to all of us?

Can you see us all,

Standing by to break your fall?

We've all been told

How the story unfolds

But rebels live on hope!

Hoping that you'll come back

Waiting till you come home

But even if you never return

I don't regret a thing

You would be so proud to see

How we remember

And we still see you.

[theoraclej]

Story of my life people. You know what’s real ? The struggle.

Happy Pride Month ♥

[theoraclej]

Happy Pride 2024! Have some Weird Queer books, games, and sounds!

Hey y'all, I'm RoAnna Sylver, and I write really queer books and interactive fiction about superheroes and vampires and space wolves and refusing to die - and EVERYTHING of mine is 50% off right now, individually or in a big beautiful bundle!

That's 7 books, 2 games, and my Indie Ink Award finalist audiobook CHAMELEON MOON!

Every single one of my books are also 99 cents on Amazon - And more importantly, every other book vendor I can reach!

Thank you so much for reading, whether my books or just this post. Thank you for still being here. I'm glad you are.

And to all of you:

Happy (defiant, quiet, introspective, angry, mourning, joyful) Pride!

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Must admit that one thing that changed the way I see fandom discourse is realizing that a lot of fandom is just… playing with dolls. We're playing with dolls. Shipping? Playing with dolls. AUs? Dolls. Darkfic? Dolls.

Lotta people very agitated about the other kids playing with dolls wrong.

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👀

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If this was 2016 we would already be flooded with He Protec He Attac but most importantly He Snac Laios DungeonMeshi memes

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gotta admit from the pit of my suffering that THIS IS TRUE

but I'm admitting from a red puffy tear-streaked furyface and also my fists are balled up

You know i may bitch about how the bad batch ended but having 46/47 episodes that I enjoy is not the worst outcome for a favorite show, it's not like it got canceled for predicting 9/11 or anything.

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Earlier today, talking about queer community security, I said, "Well, you know the saying about butches and bears," and the person I was talking to said "... no?"

So:

No "see answers" option, pick an answer or stay curious.

I don't have enough answers options to add location, so put your location stuff in tags & please reblog to satisfy my curiosity. Thank youuuuu.

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My friend asked me how many people on tumblr really watch Star Trek on a regular basis.

Reblog for Star Trek.

Ignore for a soul-crushing sense of being alone in the universe.

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well, that was bitterly disappointing to the depths of my soul.

yes, I'm talking about Tech.

he deserved better. the BATCH deserved better. OMEGA deserved better.

I don't like the way they basically just erased any and all grief for Tech except for a couple of fucking off-hand mentions that barely whetted the appetite for more of the only character I really identified with

because I'm the info dumping autistic guy in my irl groups

and to see him shuffled off in the manner they used was a fucking insult

and to be teased about it by the show creators

or worse, harassed by the bad lot of Star Wars fans

and to kill off their autistic guy who DEFINITELY had chemistry and the first hints of flirty bonding with a Black woman is a bad look, v bad look

imo they botched the whole finale, not just the Tech thing because like look:

I guess this zillo beast is just gonna live on that planet now, instead of getting involved in the story they had it fuck off to the jungle - what

CX-2? who was he? too bad we'll never know because he was dropped before he was identified

it was shot so dark, everything was hard to see, and mind you my television set is especially tuned for it to NOT be dark because I hate that shit, I am going to be forced to watch it again despite not wanting to so I can listen to the audio descriptions and better understand the fights

they totally dropped Omega's force sensitivity stuff, like I wanted to know more about that, and about the other kids, will they even be safe? cause we know the empire keeps stealing force sensitive kids

speaking of those kids, what even was the point? the research was destroyed yet we know project necromancer is eventually successful or maybe they're retconning that too, who knows, all the rules are off the table and nothing matters

writing was inconsistent for an episode meant to be important

Crosshair did not deserve to have his hand cut off. I know prosthetics are "easier" and "more accessible" in this universe but also I don't give a fuck, just insult to injury and more, this man has suffered enough from the moment they jacked his chip up to 11

back to Tech: they spent so much time being cute little shits about him that his return seemed inevitable, as I watched the season I kept counting down time left for him to show up, and I had hopes all the way through until the first fade to black, only to be bitterly reminded of his death with the goggles in Omega's ship

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two highlights I did enjoy - Omega and Hunter at the end, making me wonder if there will be a show about Omega set during the rebellion or if she'll show up in The Mandalorian or Ahsoka

Nala Se killing the shit out of rampart as she herself died, thank you Nala Se

but overall UGH, I will be tender from this one for awhile, I almost want to cancel Disney+ until I feel able to watch Star Wars stuff again

might write some fix-it fic, I'm too hurt right now tho

I'm commiserating with the rest of you who seem to have much the same reaction to this disaster of a finale

so yeah, we all deserved better, fictional folks and real folks and zillo beasts alike

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I know it’s not hard to point out reactionaries hypocrisy when it comes to like safe spaces or hug boxes or whatever but genuinely how much of an echo chamber do you have to exist in for you to think this is a reasonable thing to say

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every person can feel freddie’s presence in their souls when they sing MAMAAAAAA UUHHHH, I DONT WANNA DIE, I SOMETIMES I WISH I’VE NEVER BEEN BORN AT ALL with all the air in their lungs i’m not joking

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MOIRAINE AND SIUAN + touch