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I’ve been losing a lot of weight recently. I can’t remember how or why. I’ve been eating so much. I’ve been devouring everything I get my hands on like a wild animal, but I keep getting thinner. I’m losing my muscle definition. If this keeps up, I’ll freeze to death this winter. I think I might have to track down a friend of mine, see what they think I should do. I haven’t done anything to piss It off, so it can’t be that. At least, I don’t remember doing anything to piss It off. I don’t remember doing anything though, so who knows?

It’s been years since I’ve had this much reason for concern. Things have been going so smoothly since I aged out of my teens. Why are things suddenly downturning? It makes no sense. Nosebleeds, migraines, forgetfulness, it all comes with the territory, but my body condition should stay the same if not improve. If It’s allowing for or intentionally trying to get my body to starve itself until I’m too weak to work, then something’s wrong. I’m still in my prime. I’m still useful. This shouldn’t be happening. My friend will know what to do. They’ve been at this for forever. They have the answer for everything.

I’ll update when I remember to, if for no one else, at least for my peace of mind.

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"Just make gains and maybe you'll do better at this."

Broski we are living through an economic crisis with a job that doesn't pay or care about our health. Look me in my bloodshot eyes and tell me how my malnourished and broke ass is supposed to gain muscle. I could eat you and not ingest a single gram of protein. GET OUT

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Didn't realize it wasn't the full eclipse yet. This is pretty cool actually. A lot more red in person.

Lunar eclipse pictures since I'm already out here doing stuff.

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Lunar eclipse pictures since I'm already out here doing stuff.

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The feeling of a new tattoo can't be replicated, especially ones that take hours. I get to push my body without being in any real danger. Headaches, nausea, fatigue, it's all good for once. I just have to eat some candy and distract myself with conversation. I usually don't have time or money for one, but I've been lucky with assignments recently. I think It's getting tired as we get into the colder months.

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Snow is still on the ground. Not as much as in these pictures from a few days ago, but it's on the shady slopes. Not the best conditions for my work, but it's something to look at during slow periods.

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Work photos. Pretty nice hike. Lots of people though.

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Why did someone try explaining "boot theory" to me at the dollar store? I have a theory that my boot will curb stomp you if you don't leave me the fuck alone. Let me get my dollar-twenty-five mac-n-cheese in peace.

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Merry Christmas

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Some photos from the last few days. The boots are shit quality in my opinion, but they're easy to clean and have thick soles so good enough. I go through boots way too quickly to complain.

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Roaches are a constant in life. Mice can be exterminated, birds and squirrels kept out of the attic, but roaches can and will always find their way in. They live in your kitchen just as much as they live in the pine needles on the ground outside and under the skin of a swollen carcass.

I pray to become more like them every day.

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It's November.

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Hate the weather this time of year. I need a coat in the mornings, but a long sleeve shirt in the afternoon will give me heat stroke. In summer I'm always sweating and in winter if I don't have a coat on I'll get hypothermia, but at least it's consistent and I won't be carrying around a jacket I don't need for half the day.

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Today feels like a holiday for some reason. Am I forgetting something?

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Day trips are rare for me, so I’m enjoying this.