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freaking out like wdym a moot of a friend of my abuser is in a server with me!! oh ok!! i genuinely feel dizzy and sick.

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Things I remember from my canon !!

It was fairly accurate to the source, other than some bits and pieces.

I was not cisgender nor straight. This contributed to me being labelled as gloomy - but my parents didn't really mind that I was queer. They let me present the way I preferred, but they did occasionally try to use that during complaints about my avoidance of people and 'depressing attitude'.

I actually didn't mind Louis at first. I thought it was creepy, and. kind of unsettling that my father would go out of his way for that... but it only became an issue as that thing took up more and more of my place within the home.

On the topic of Louis, I actually tried to break it a few times but my father would lose his mind over it. I gave up on trying to get rid of it for a very long time.

Louis ruined puppet making for me. Genuinely. I enjoyed puppets and the art of ventriloquism for a period of my life, but that thing made me genuinely terrified of both.

In my canon, the purgatory manor was a very real thing. Even if you won, you'd only find yourself back at the manor's doorsteps.

I know I was in a relationship with a few different people during my time there - messy breakups did happen, which caused some level of conflict between myself and other survivors. I just don't remember names or faces. Mostly emotions and sensations.

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daily reminder that someone believing they are a fictional character, whether they are an adult or a minor, does not affect you negatively in any way.

whether you are fictionkin, psychotic, or part of a system, this applies to all of you <3

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recent

tw slight gore!! please be careful

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It's just a prank bro

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i just redrew the essence poster art of him init

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can’t wait for the new survivor~

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Convolvulus arvensis

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KICK BACK

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People only care about what you appear to be.

𝘼 𝘽𝙞𝙩 𝘼𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙈𝙚 … !

Please just call me Matthias, I don't like nicknames.

I'm 22 years old.

I use they/them, it/its, and/or he/him pronouns.

AroAce Spectrum , Nonbinary

I am a selfshipper, but that is not the focus of this blog.

I am spiritual fictionkin.

𝘽𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙄𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩 ...

The odds of me interacting with other Identity V kin are quite low, simply because I selfship with quite a few. If I don't interact, please don't take it personally.

I do have Borderline Personality Disorder. If this is upsetting to you, please don't bother. If you hear BPD and think "ohh like, yandere?" you're also not welcome here. People with BPD are not yandere, we're mentally ill and often times afraid.

I do support people with BPD reclaiming yandere in fiction. I do not support calling yourself a yandere for what I would hope are... obvious reasons? At that point you're feeding into the stereotypes.

I am not interested in engaging with system discourse. I've been watching it happen for seven years now, and it's never going to end. I would not say I'm neutral, but I would not say I'm particularly one or the other. I just don't want to talk about it at all.

𝘿𝙤 𝙉𝙤𝙩 𝙄𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩 ...

Proshippers, Darkshippers, and those who romanticize abuse

Republicans, terfs, "lgb" supporters [those who exclude the T]

If you think you're me or you yume/selfship with me. It's nothing personal, I would just prefer to keep distance.

If you kin, are a fictive, or selfship with the following Identity V characters: Luca, Ada, Emil, Frederick, or Richard.

𝙏𝙖𝙜𝙨

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