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Feedback

1. What your original goal was for this course.

To receive clarity on my current business model.  To refine it and gain more clarity

2. How the goal was met by the course.

By engaging with the assignments, I am able to stay on track.  The accountability is very helpful as life has many distractions. 

3. What you learned from this course.

That this is a simple process.  Not easy, but simple.  I am seeing that the basic steps seem to repeat themselves but it is painstaking to put them into action.

4. How you will apply the material learned in the course personally or professionally.

By not overcomplicating. the idea of “starting a business” .  I will use the lean startuo methodology to prevent stagnation and get real world feedback. 

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Creativity Goals

My original goal for this course was to learn how to generate creative ideas. What I got from the course was actually different. The course appears to work in a very wax on wax off sort of manner. What I mean by this is you don’t even realize that you’re learning. I mean this as a huge compliment.

When I first began to engage with the material I was like, what is this just a bunch of YouTube videos that I have to watch and comment on?

I didn’t realize that I was still caught in the traditional way that schools go about teaching things. I mean what exactly do you need statistics for at the beginning of a master’s business course?

As I’ve engaged with the material more, I’m beginning to see the patterns emerge. For example, the writing that I’m doing in the course has led to me posting on medium and also, I’m reaching out to other influencers on social media. This is happening organically.

One of my favorite things that I’ve learned in this course is how to apply a lean methodology to my thinking. I am no longer afraid to reach out and make connections with others because I understand that the most important thing is to get feedback and to make real world connections instead of just imagining things in my head.

I will apply these things in my life by understanding that it’s not enough to just watch a YouTube video or read an article by writing an article on it or making a video out of it I really get to reflect on it and get it into my bones. In addition, as I’m reading these different things or studying something, I can immediately make content out of it which will allow me to understand the concept on a deeper level. So, I’m not just making contact to gain followers I’m also learning myself while providing value.

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These Are all My Writings

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recover,art,learned Bjork

This is a mood that I find hard to describe

you are more cohesive than I remember

I am proud of you for your recovery from

substances

people

places

things aren't quite the same without you here though

I mean you are more hear

You isten now and wll

I had just learned to hate you

I had just learnd what 14 looks like on a grown man

There is an art to underacheiving

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Its not exactly exact science

it takes rationalizationsgeneralizationscloudedpatterns of thought and behaior

so we come here to the cushion you and I to unravel the knots.

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stories astonishing traffic Clams Casino-Motivation

Its kind of loud in hear. 

So Ive been told is that a purposeful mispelling

I thought it rather clever

I see

Thats always been your problem you know.

What?

You dont feel the stories can carry themselves

look around you they

are

astonishing

there is a woman with her face pressed against the glass

that man has hemorroids and he is so concrned about apperance

this bridge will collapse

and you are afraid of change.

well I assu!re you my boy that change is coming

you can try to fix your mistakes if you want but nothing highlights the hope-less-ness

of your situation like a traffic jamb

door -knob

what are you waiting for

we are sitting here with our mouth open waiting for you to

astonish us.

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high-stakes,comes,high-risk 5 min

You think its funny to just bust a nut in these broads huh?

I turned down the radio. Im not distractednow.  Why dont you repeat what you just said

I meant no offense.

Well thats too fuckin bad because Im

(knock on the door)

theyre requesting Q______ down stairs.

were not quite done here.

The bath boils over

screaming is heard from next door

Your desire to come in all these broads in what brought us to this point.

I see

Therefore you're going to have to play the game

finger, stash, splash

how do we play

1. Finger. You are probably familiar with what this means.

2. Flash-----Sorry I mean stash.  Somewhere in this house there is a package hidden with your fingerprints on it, 

3. Splash.  It has everything to do with the Darryl Hannah movie.  How familiar are you with 80's cinema?

Not very really.

Thats fine... Who really uses their pinky finger anyways?

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12:42

What drives you

Fuck motivation

hunger fear

fuck sabretooth

sit with yourself

change a diaper

speak freely

eat healthy

Ive already lost my point

who am I!

HAH!

HAH!

HAH!

watch.....

there it changes again!

<wew drain ourselves because we believe the fear is real>

we believe the pain is real

we idolize and worship at the throne of comfort and routine.

WAKE UP!

to the nightmare which is your life.

There is nothing free

Kobe has torn knees and more.

We have all found ourselves with our hand on the ppistol we want NEW PROBLEMS.

There is no where to get to

we carry our pain in our stomachs

That is the aklchemy happening

the lead being turned to gold

churning in your guts

the pulse thhrough your skin the elixer

we dont need recognition

just recollection

of who we really are.

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12:31

Im terrified.

Im sitting at home and I'm totally gripped in terror.

Im listening to Bon Iver because I never have before.

I am not anxious.

Im afraid.

They say there is thsi practice that yogis in indis do where they go to a cemetary and  imagine all the blood pouring out of the tops of their heads.

I will write I will write becase the walls are closing in on me 

my girlfriend is fucking some guy who drives a shitty honda she is laughing aat me

my stomack hurts

Im gettingoldr.

Its quiet here as the rest of the world parties on

and Im not missing anything.

Im afraid,

for the first time I reciognize the feeling that drives me out the door night after night,

fear.

I run and run I make plans and compare.

But I cant find piece.

Not here I need you to distract me

Just dont kae me sit hre.  Not at night its too pain ful.

I dont know what it is that comes up 

not from the structure. 

It the quiet.

The emptiness. Its painful to know that its al going to end.

I cant face it.   

What are they all doing outthere while I type on this silly keyboard?

I dont want a cabin in the woods. 

I want an apartment over a 24 hour 7-11 

I cant stand to live with myself. 

My mind races at night. 

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Keys, bottle cap, box

I dont think of you until I'm completely alone.

I prefer distraction . 

I sit and call and you dont answer

are you gone.

yes clearly

no regulation you make me want to lash out

I am trapped in a vicious spin 

I go from feeling to feeling unable to pull myself out of the spin 

tramp, pussywhipped asshole, lover, scamp

Ive seen tribes of people fall for a beter lack of preperation than I possess and still I find it unberable to sit here alone without you even if there is no you , I am pulled out that door every nigth afraid of the spirits to come for me and make me wake up I dont ant to go back to hurting its all so simple now and not is a better way but in a clearer way my sentimental side demands my attntion until you spit and then I swing nviolently back the other way ..  At what point do I get to decide?

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Water, fsace, fourteen

1. This will be the last letter I write to you

2. You drank the last of me

3. That wansnt enough for you

$.  When You came back I was ready

5.  This is stranger for you than it is for me

6. We never really knew each other

7 I used you and made it seem the opposite

8. Im fucking someone else right now

9 . No one will ever read this.

10. You hurt me more that you could ever know.

11.  You cant stand the fact that you're getting older

12.  You try to hide the grey 

13.  You shave your head to hide the thinning.

14.  Im only fourteen. 

1. Karma is a bitch

2. Its hard to be sensitive

3. It hurts to open up

4.  It hurts to open up

5.  It is easier to serve an agenda.

7.  It hurts to feel.

*.  Its scary to open.

9.  Money is easier to chase

10.  I wish I was a robot. 

11.  My feelings are unpredictable.

12. Things trigger me

13.  This is an unlucky number.

14.  I've grown older since we last spoke. 

1.  I learned that things aren't always what they seem.

2.  No one ever slit their wtists iover me.

3.  I've lost more friends that I care to mention.

4.  Im closing down around these words. 

5. I didnt want to get so personal.

6. What good could this possibly do for anyone?

7.  Paint me a businessman, a sociopath, a scientist. 

8. Feelings are beyond messy, they're avoidable. 

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Element, going, casual

So you're the last .  Act new around here it'll make things easier.

I see.  Who are you?   

Dont ask questions it just makes everything more dificult.

Our job is just to dig.

Until.

Until we.......  Hit paydirt

There are a lot of distractions around here.  They are like cigarettes.  I quit smoking in 87 you know

Congrats.  Thanks.  Did it for the old lady.

You what?

Quit smioking for my mom.  She recently passed of leukemia.  I see. 

Are we supposed to do all this work alone?

Why its your first day and you're tired all ready?

Poor little baby.  Faggot.  Pussy.

Hey man take it easy.

Not really.  The others just haven't arrived yet.

Not really what?

We dont do all the digging alone.  

Who helps then?

We don't meet them till we get further down.

I dont understand.

You can' tget there from here.  Do you understand?

I need direction.

Yes but you don't need directions.

Imagine a layer cake

There is nothing to dig

its symbolic

Oh I see.

So what the fuck are you waiting for

huh?

start digging!

I thought you said it was sym...

We play games to find ourselved

we fuck sleep eat run marathons

clinmb mountains just to come back down

make our beds to lie in them and hang silly pieces of cloth around our necks

you see now right?

Its not all so serious

now dig until your fingers bleed.  

I dont understand.

You stir me up.  You act lik eyou crave freedom but you want me to spoonfeed all the answers to you

Thats true

yOURE A VERY KIND MAN

Thats kind of you to say.  Kindness is a rare trade around here.

No one wants to be criticized.

I suppose thats true. 

You know its true.

You seem calm today given everything thats at stake.

Which is?

There is a door marked a an a door marked b which one do you choose.

Dont ask for details

Dont ask questions

just choose

no one can tell you what to do.

At best 

so you'r e telling m eits all a guess

At best all anyone can do is point a finger.  Its your own personal experience that has to play.

After 7 years I learned how to turn the sun down.

And 

and.

What other tricks.

How to reduce the volume.

How to unravel duality.

How to hunt for my food.

How to side step projections. 

It dosen't matter.

Everything you think you have gained. 

Is not so serious. 

Yes.  We tend to think that what were experiencing is all very serious.

Focus. Pain will focus you like that.

Hold a mirror up huh?  Yoeak its kind of like that.

It will let you see 

So I learned.

 They kind of lean to the left around here.  In a V-8 kind of way.

Thats clever. 

You're showing your age.  Your showing your ape.  

Really.  

Oh that wasn't a political reference. 

Actually it bothers me more to talk about it than just keep it in.

Ahh repression!  

Just come out with it then.

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subliminal zygote, water, bad 100 words

My homie told me  abou tthe subliminal zygote, I old him not to listen to me anymore. Its a fuckin fable I said.  but he insisted now were neck deep.

I assume you just arrived here they say as we sink further into the liquid somehow we can hear them talking.  Its not telepathic, its just like when you scream underwater only crystal clear.  

The bad news is that we don't have gills and air is running out fast.  The good news is that soon every thing will go BLACK.

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Try something new everyday. 

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A post

I promised myself I would be more honest so here it is

I hate typing

I want to do something worth while with my life

I don’t feel I have something to say

I know that anything is possible

But I feel too lazy to try

Maybe I’ve been aiming at the wrong target

I am not those other guys

I cant do what they do

I have to do me

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Origami Paper Tiger

  So the first time I discovered the origami paper tiger I vomited It unfolded itself in my pocket and spoke to me.  I relaxed.  You seem upset it said.  I hate my fucking job I said.  It laughed at me.  It was a guttural laugh like it had smoked too many cigarettes.  I checked my pulse.  I checked my watch the tiger checked his pulse and watch it bounded off down the hallway.  I followed.  I am in a hallway a high school hall way with lockers no Buddy Ravell.  He is waiting outside the tigger consumes him .   We open up locker number 7 there is a poem inside.  Something by Norman Vincent  Peale. I thought this is strange .  The tiger looked up at me and told me to be positive.  He is licking his paws.  I lick one of his claws.   He turns my tongue into silly string.   Play dough spaghetti maker machine.  He pushes my back I squirt forth the pink stuff there is pepto bismol coming out of my gut.  We swim in the muck there are chunks of corn we consume them they form a capsule around us.  We go over the falls.  In a barrel a couple waves next to us they smile and kiss.  Their barrel splits open on the rocks below.  Bones float out.  Chicken.  They climb out still intact.  We walk to a waterfall made of salive.  There is a giant pissing on the water fall.  He is wearing an entire village for a headdress.  We are watching them go about their daily chores apparently unaware. 

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