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a dream, a wish, a moment in time with you

for @zannolin and their fic perchance to dream

@zannolin perchance to dream / Doctor Who, Hell Bent / Clementine von Radics, In a Dream You Saw a Way to Survive / Hemedia / Trista Mateer, Honeybee / The Two Towers (2002) / Noah Kahan, Stick Season / Anne Sexton, A Self-portrait in Letters / Prince Caspian (2008) / Richard Siken, Snow and Dirty Rain / Richard Siken, Crush / George Frederic Watts, Endymion / Sun and Moon (modified) - Mia C. / Fellowship of the Ring (2001) / Francesco Solimena, Aurora Taking Leave of Tithonus/ Doctor Who, Last Christmas gif by @notyoujamie / Return of the King (2003)

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The Rainbow Connection, Kermit the Frog // Rhythm of the East, The Gray Havens // Come Further Up, Sarah Sparks // Rhythm of the East, The Gray Havens // Blue Flower, The Gray Havens // The Far Country, Andrew Peterson // Silver, The Gray Havens // The Rainbow Connection, Kermit the Frog // Come Further Up, Sarah Sparks // The Far Country, Andrew Peterson

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"I asked chatgpt" "i asked grok" yeah well I asked nie huaisang and he doesn't know, he really doesn't know

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*me, drunkenly pressing my face against my 17 year old cats face*: I love you. Do you know that? I hope that somewhere in your brain you can understand that I love you. You have been with me for so long. We have grown up together. I was only eight years old when you came into my life as a kitten. We were both babies. Please understand that I love you more than I can ever say. You are my companion through everything. When you die I will sob and scream and beg for you back, even for a moment. When you rest your paw against my hands there's a connection that passes through time. Humans and animals, bonded since before history began. I love you.

No, you cannot eat my sandwich.

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decentralize and clean up your life!!!

use overdrive, libby, hoopla, cloudlibrary, and kanopy instead of amazon and audible.

use firefox instead of chrome or opera (both are made with chromium, which blocks functionality for ad-blockers. firefox isn't based on chromium).

use mega or proton drive instead of google drive.

get rid of bloatware

use libreoffice instead of microsoft office suite

use vetted sites on r/FREEMEDIAHECKYEAH for free movies, books, games, etc.

use trakt or letterboxd instead of imdb.

use storygraph instead of goodreads.

use darkpatterns to find mobile game with no ads or microtransactions

use ground news to read unbiased news and find blind spots in news stories.

use mediahuman or cobalt to download music, or support your favorite artists directly through bandcamp

make youtube bearable by using mtube, newpipe, or the unhook extension on chrome, firefox, or microsoft edge

use search for a cause or ecosia to support the environment instead of google

use thriftbooks to buy new or used books (they also have manga, textbooks, home goods, CDs, DVDs, and blurays)

use flashpoint to play archived online flash games

find books, movies, games, etc. on the internet archive! for starters, here's a bunch of David Attenborough documentaries and all of the Animorphs books

burn your music onto cds

use pdf24 (available online or as a desktop app) instead of adobe

use unroll.me to clean your email inboxes

use thunderbird, mailfence, countermail, edison mail, tuta, or proton mail instead of gmail

remove bloatware on windows PC, macOS, and iOS X

remove bloatware on samsung X

use pixelfed instead of instagram or meta

use NCH suite for free software like a file converter, image editor, video editors, pdf editor, etc.

feel free to add more alternatives, resources or advice in the reblogs or replies, and i'll add them to the main post <3

last updated: march 18th 2025

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musings on april

Sylvia Plath (Leon Dabo), Edna St. Vincent Millay, E. E. Cummings, Naguib Mahfouz (Edgar Degas), E. E. Cummings (Édouard Manet), Rabindranath Tagore, T. S. Eliot (Edgar Degas), F. Scott Fitzgerald (Alphonse Osbert)

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these days when you close your eyes, what else do you want but to be loved in a warm and permanent way. the open soft hand, the lowered voice, the blanket around your shoulders. you want to be loved like hot chocolate, like spring flowers, like dawn. you want to go to sleep protected and wake up fully rested. you want the wounds in you to matter, you want someone who is patient around your scars.

how greedy. these days when you look around, how many little ways are you assaulted by the notion that it's wrong to need others. individualism! capitalism! bootstraps! every time you try to language it, you need to cover up your desire into a carefully-worded soundbite: of course no single person can fulfill every need and we must invest in communities and i must be responsible for my own mental health and

but the yawning in you doesn't understand logic or sound or reason. it only sees sundays, only sees what you do-not-have, only sees the look others share and that you so desire. sick with dread at it, sick at how it makes you want, how you yearn in no direction.

no matter how many people you take with you to bed, no matter how many hands touch the tattoo you share with your sibling, no matter how many times you kneel with your knees bleeding. always, the ache that never stops chewing, the desperate sick loneliness that never quite abates. it never stops humming, i need i need i need. you burn your inner child for warmth and scatter the ashes into your morning coffee.

so you shut up and you load your life like shotgun shells and you try to make yourself whole in the way that others are whole. you let your father's words spill out of your mouth. you make a quick joke rather than tear your heart open. you sing into the mic and go home with stars in your eyes. your life is beautiful and you're lucky! you have everything a person can need!

but it would be nice, is the thing. to have a love that feels like peace.

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i hate it when people are writing a long ass thing and start a parenthetical aside and forget to close parentheses it makes me feel like i cant escape from the sentence

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a lot of stories treat romance like it makes the relationship between two characters self explanatory and to be honest it doesn’t

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bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

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this is what it means to be human

Everything, Mary Oliver

The Breathing, Denise Levertov

A Prayer by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski

Like a Small Café, That’s Love by Mahmoud Darwish (translated by Mohammad Shaheen)

Having a Coke with You by Frank O’Hara

Eating Together by Li-Young Lee

The Orange by Wendy Cope

The Quiet Machine, Ada Limón

To Go Mad, Paruyr Sevak

Our Beautiful Life When It’s Filled with Shrieks by Christopher Citro

Hammond B3 Organ Cistern, Gabrielle Calvocoressi

Peace XVIII, Khalil Gibran

Your Unripe Love, Paruyr Sevak (from “Anthology of Armenian poetry")

Here and Now by Peter Balakian

Ich finde dich (I find you) by Rainer Maria Rilke

The Thing Is by Ellen Bass

One Art by Elizabeth Bishop

Miss you. Would like to take a walk with you. by Gabrielle Calvocoressi

I Want to Write Something So Simply by Mary Oliver

What's Not to Love by Brendan Constantine

Where does such tenderness come from? by Marina Tsvetaeva

You Are Tired (I Think) by E. E. Cummings

Living With the News by W.S.Merwin

What the Living Do by Marie Howe

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I’m emotional and can’t stop thinking so, the indomitable human spirit. What is it?

This is a form of philosophy, actually, but it’s also a meme right now and that’s just so fascinating to me!

It is the embodiment of hope that you as a human being have. The hope to get up in the morning, smile, laugh, or hope for the days in which you see those things once again. And in a world in which you are surrounded by drought, corrupt politicians, food shortages, and a recession, hope can be the only thing you have sometimes. Everyone wants to make the world a better place, it’s in our nature. Everyone wants to be a hero.

And this meme? Shows that. It shows that we will always be fighting. THESE KIDS?

They will do the very same.

The indomitable human spirit will prevail over the nihilism we often surround ourselves in. It’s a story, it will forever reflect reality just as reality will always reflect a story. They are two halves of the same coin; a story will change and grow just as much as you will.

One of my favorite quotes about the human experience is from Steven Universe. As Rose says, “But you, you’re supposed to change! You’re never the same, even moment to moment. You’re allowed and expected to… INVENT who you are! What an incredible power.”

It is able to completely encompass that you? Yes you, are allowed and expected and are SUPPOSED to change! Change yourself, change the world. You can choose to be nihilistic or hopeful, naive or wise, you are allowed to be anything and that’s what makes being human and being alive so incredible.

I don’t live out of spite for others, I live in hope for a better future for those to come. And that’s a CHOICE. A choice I made, and a choice I will continue to make. Whether that makes me naive or wise doesn’t matter because the line can become so blurred. The nativity of a child can be a lesson you learn as you grow old. Or the wise knowledge you once knew can become naive because it stops you from thinking of anything different.

The perspective of hope becoming something to cherish on the internet, to be the norm is something I have always wanted. I hate tragedy, I always have and always will. I choose to believe in hope for the future.

I choose to believe that someway, somehow, an lgbt male main character in a shonen can happen. That there is still time for us to stop global warming from baking us alive. That the corruption in my own country can make a turn for something better.

The corruption and power imbalance in the world survives bc we do not hope for a better future. Because we feel all too helpless in the inevitability of death and sorrow. When in reality, our life and meaning is about what we want it to be. What we choose it to be about. Making the world a better place or putting ourselves in the position of power, it’s all a choice. Just as you, my friend, the one reading this post are thinking that you can’t do anything compared to the entire system; you’re right. You can’t. Not individually. However we have always been good at socializing, and working, and being better people. We are able to grow and learn together, stop those things together. Because trying to take on the world alone, like a hero, like Izuku, will only mean the downfall of our hope. We are human, we have gotten as far as we have because we have worked together.

We choose to hope. We choose our indomitable human spirit.

Edit to this lol: the most beautiful part about this meme? It was born out of a trend about the cruelty of the world. The darkest, shittiest, and most slimiest parts of what we as humans and the universe has to offer. It became a counter trend, something to spike hope in people. It is exactly like the protagonist in a story who sees the evil in the world, an antagonist, and learns to grow and defeat that antagonist. For the trend, the antagonist is the world itself. And the current arc is the one following the protagonists darkest moments. What a beautiful thing to happen right after Katsuki coming back to life?

Also, this philosophy is actually born out of religion! Forgot to mention that. It is a belief that god gave you the indomitable human spirit so that you could prevail even in the darkest moments. The thing that makes you unique. And I love that. I love that it’s a philosophy that was made into a meme. It’s something I haven’t had a word for but have followed for a very long time, even when I saw my parents or peers around me loose themselves to nihilism. My mom, specifically. Don’t let yourself stop hoping. Continue to live for a better future, if there’s nothing left then we can build it back brick by broken brick.

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Hey yall. Honest post here. You guys matter. The dreams you're trying to accomplish? Worth every drop of effort. All the effort you put in? Can I tell you a secret? Psst. You do that because you love yourself. You care about you. You can deny it, hey! I never said the voice wasn't a little...quiet. Tender. But it's true. Please have some compassion for yourself. Life is hard enough, and none of you deserve the added walloping of your own expectations, guilt, self-doubt, or judgment levied against yourself. You're just a person. You wanna go one step deeper? You're just an animal. Get some sleep. Re-read something that means a lot to you when you get the chance, or listen to something that means a lot to you. Act it out in whatever medium or art form you're a little bit in love with. Whatever you do with it, is magic. I love that magic. I love inhabiting a world inhabited by you, stranger, friend, bound by whatever eyes see this across time and space that for a brief moment, of all the words you could be reading, you're reading this one. I love you. Don't take your eyes off. I love you. Okay? You matter. You mean a lot. You're beautiful. I don't mean aesthetically, though I'm sure you're a snack, right? Hehe. You're beautiful because you've got a little flickering flame in your chest and it means you're capable of creation, of art, of limitless growth, of love, of change, of power, of grief too, of sadness too, of fear too, but ultimately of something indomitable. Something invincible. You ever heard that Camus quote? "In the midst of winter, I learned there lay within me an invincible summer!" Yeah, that's in you. I know you warm the hearts of people around you because you're honest. You're good. You try your best. I know you do. This stranger over here is proud of you and I know it's easy to shrug off, but if you've ever been proud of a best friend, that's how it is. I don't have to know ya to know that you're still alive if you're reading this, hmm? That's worth celebrating every damn day! If there were ever any times you questioned that, you deserve a pat on the back, my warrior friend. Every step you take is hallowed, because it's upon an earth gifted with you being here, that you fought to know your place on, and that will always accept you with open arms, you know that? Even if some are cruel. There is still a lot of warmth. Keep that little flame inside you lit, and keep doing what you do best and giving it your all. You're burning bright, and I'm proud of you. You'll be alright.

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Writing with Colors

A list of resources to help you describe different colors in your writing.

The Color Thesaurus A collection of infographics that show various shades of different colors, each shade/color labeled by name.

Color Reference Chart Another collection of infographics that show various shades of different colors, each shade/color labeled by name.

Hair Color Reference Chart A collection of infographics that show various shades of different hair colors, each shade/color labeled by name.

Eye Color Reference Chart A collection of infographics that show various shades of blue, brown, and green eye colors, each shade/color labeled by name.

Different Ways to Describe Hazel Eyes A list of ideas and suggestions for describing hazel eyes. Can be used as prompts or for brainstorming.

Different Ways to Describe Green Eyes A list of ideas and suggestions for describing green eyes. Can be used as prompts or for brainstorming.

Different Ways to Describe Blue Eyes A list of ideas and suggestions for describing blue eyes. Can be used as prompts or for brainstorming.

Different Ways to Describe Brown Eyes A list of ideas and suggestions for describing brown eyes. Can be used as prompts or for brainstorming.

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"For women, only one standard of female beauty is sanctioned: the girl. The great advantage men have is that our culture allows two standards of male beauty: the boy and the man. The beauty of a boy resembles the beauty of a girl. In both sexes it is a fragile kind of beauty and flourishes naturally only in the early part of the life-cycle. Happily, men are able to accept themselves under another standard of good looks — heavier, rougher, more thickly built. A man does not grieve when he loses the smooth, unlined, hairless skin of a boy. For he has only exchanged one form of attractiveness for another: the darker skin of a man’s face, roughened by daily shaving, showing the marks of emotion and the normal lines of age. There is no equivalent of this second standard for women. The single standard of beauty for women dictates that they must go on having clear skin. Every wrinkle, every line, every gray hair, is a defeat. No wonder that no boy minds becoming a man, while even the passage from girlhood to early womanhood is experienced by many women as their downfall, for all women are trained to want to continue looking like girls." — Excerpt from Susan Sontag's 1978 essay The Double Standard of Aging

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What, the forest-dwelling entities with imperfect human mimicry who insinuate themselves into groups of hikers? Yeah, we had one of those. Clocked it immediately, of course. Honestly it kind of fell in that so-inept-it's-kind-of-charming range. We just played along until it'd had it's fill of marshmallows and shambled back into the treeline. We might have been violating some kind of killjoy wildlife contact best practices but what the hell, can't plan around every little thing. Why, what happened to you guys

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yes i have a thing for self-loathing fictional characters being loved and in the process learning to love themselves and no that does not imply anything about me personally as a person i swear