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Life update...

Hi tumblr! What's up? It's been a while since I last visited you. A lot has happened since then. A lot has literally changed, like changed drastically but not in a bad way, I guess??

I want to tell you everything but I don't know where and how to start. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed that I get lost in my sea of thoughts.

All I know is that I am at my happiest season of my life right now. Yes, I am still way too far in achieving all my dreams and goals in life, but I already took the risk and started to take a leap of faith and started anew. It's not easy, I still get a lot of emotional breakdowns and anxiety. I still doubt my self but a little less compared than before.

At this moment, what didn't change is that I am still that little girl who dreams of achieving the life that I always dreamed of. I am still that girl working and striving hard to get the happiness and contentment that I always wanted. I am still the same person who believes that there is always hope even when you break and fall a lot of times. I am still that person who never gives up even if things get harder and harder each day. I am still a believer and I am still that faithful little girl who believes that God will never forsaken me in hard and trying times.

Sometimes I can't help but think about the things that I did in the past. I know I made a big mistake and a lot of wrong decisions in life that up until now I still feel so bad and guilty about. I don't know how to make things right but I am trying my best to make up with my mistakes. I just still can't believe that I was given a chance to correct it and for that I am so thankful!! I know I do not deserve to have a second chance but still I was given the chance to make things right.

Because of that, I realized that as long as we live, there is always a chance to redeem ourselves especially when we have hurt the people that we love. It's just a matter of time, understanding and faith that the person will forgive you after everything. I believe that LOVE really saves a certain relationship and you can always hold unto LOVE when things go wrong. Just make sure that you won't waste the chance that was given to you!!

Making a mistake is inevitable, we are only humans and we are not perfect. But making a mistake twice or more than what you were sorry for is not fvckng normal anymore!! If you keep on hurting and hurting the person that you love then it's not love anymore!

Anyway, I am at this era where I am no longer afraid to do the things that I love. I believe that life is too short to limit yourself in doing the things that make you happy. I know I am no expert in life. I still fall, I break, I fail but I try to get back up again and face the challenges in life with faith that everything will fall perfectly into place in God's perfect time.

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yusuf dikeç and his cat selfies

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I see these ghosts and I feel so identified with not fitting in anywhere. By Katherine Blower Illustrator Designer.

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I 'm in a constant battle of finding what I really love and enjoy doing.

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So this is where our story ends...

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@lizzie.bear

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Are you just a dream to fade away?

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Cheers to the people who love and accept us even at our worse. 🥂

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Is this a sign?

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I am so damn tired.

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You deserve it!🤎

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dear self,

i know you are scared, i know you are worried. i know you are doing the best you can, but know that i believe in you. you’ve got this.

love,

me

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Another day in hell.