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Strangers on the internet being more understanding caring and respectful of who I am than my own family shouldn’t make me cry this much but here we are

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i just wanna not be so dysphoric all the time

like i just wanna look how i feel?

like i want people to look at me and think “boy”

like i just want to be called “he” without having correct people

i dont even care if i have to go through surgeries and stab myself in the leg each week i just need it to h a p p e n already

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It's me!!! Ya boi!!! I do taekwondo and i participated in a tournament a while back!!! I came in second place and i got my ass handed to me but it was really fun and nerve wrecking! I was apart of The "Titans" group.

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The first nightwing is from a couple weeks ago, second nightwing is from ✨yesterday✨ I had to color it sooooooo here ya go

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A portrait for my amazing friend!!!!! @jasonsthunderthighs

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Fros-East Side Rendezvous is such a good fucking song and it gave me this idea and i had to draw it obviously kdjdhsjsjs. @jasonsthunderthighs

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“The years, no doubt, have changed me….”

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Trans things™ that probably shouldn’t be relatable 

Anxiety rolling through your stomach when you go to introduce yourself to somebody

That feel when your little sibling calls you by your name more than your actual parent does

Hanging back in each class on the first couple days of school to ask your teacher to call you by /your/ name instead of by /deadname/ 

Wanting to date somebody but they don’t know that you’re trans

When somebody is actively flirting with you but you can’t tell because why would they flirt with a trans person/you’re probably not passing to them so when you tell them your gender they’ll be disgusted so what’s the fuckin point

The crippling panic you feel if you can’t find clothing good enough to make you pass in the way you’re comfortable with

wanting to “defy gender roles” and wear something you think you would be cute in, but you’re too scared to be misgendered to do it

Wearing something vaguely not aligned with your gender and getting the “I thought you were a (guy/girl)” in that annoying accusing tone

When people judge your gender based off of your voice even though a lot of cis men have high voices and a lot of cis woman have low voices

Wanting that full body self love but looking at the parts that don’t align with your gender and just :///////

Not going to the bathroom in public,,,,, like,,,,, ever,,,,,

Trying not to cry when somebody correctly genders you

the gut-wrenching feeling when you’re misgendered to a stranger and you can’t correct them

The constant fantasies of what life may be like for you one day as you face transphobia constantly in the current moment

Being called some type of derogatory name by your parent as a cop-out for not calling you by your name or deadname (i.e., middle child for myself :) )

Feel free to add to these with ones that are like this or even ones that pertain to a certain gender

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my journey continues

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I can't wait to be free

honestly? i can’t wait to live. 

i can’t wait to live on my own and see a new recipe online and get some ingredients and just make it. i can’t wait to buy funny patterned blankets to leave around my house because they make me smile. i can’t wait to watch the sunset from my yard while blasting whatever music i want. i can’t wait to go to CVS at midnight and buy some scissors and hair dye and facetime my friend at 1 am while i do some weird shit to my hair that i’ll regret in the morning. i can’t wait to go to a bar and do something stupid because i’m drunk and wake up with a massive headache but still happy. i can’t wait to do some super sappy shit because i’m a hopeless romantic at heart  i can’t wait to loudly sing a dumb song i made up on the spot. 

i can’t wait to live as me and be happy. 

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For Transmasc Allies: Alternatives to ‘Handsome’

I made this list because, for a lot of trans guys, 'handsome’ makes up 90% of the compliments we get, and can become overused and lose its meaning for us, even if it comes from a genuine place. don’t get me wrong, handsome is a lovely word (and I personally like it a lot), but there are plenty more validating masculine complimentary words out there you can use for your transmasc friends/relatives/partners !!

Instead of just 'handsome’, try also using:

- dashing

- distinguished

- dreamy

- spiffy

- sharp

- charming

- sleek

- sunny

- chipper

- suave

- dapper

- grand

- regal / kingly / princely / knightly

(and some silly ones:)

- hunky

- macho

- boyfriend material / husband material

- fiery / Flamin’ Hot (be careful with “flaming” tho - can be used as a gay slur)

(note: ofc these terms can be used for anyone regardless of gender, I just included them if I felt they seemed more masculine or had a traditionally masculine usage. feel free to add or correct!)

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Future books written by myself.

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Dysphoria sucks.

But you don’t.

You are valid.

Your chest is not as big as you think.

It is okay to not have facial hair, cis men have this problem too.

Your small feet and hands are fine, and they don’t make you less of a man.

It is okay if you are short - you are small and kick ass!

It is okay if you are pre-t and don’t pass.

It is okay if you are on T and you don’t pass.

You are handsome and strong. You can go through it.

You will get the body and voice you want.

You are loved. Remember it.

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Some of us are brave enough to do it twice!

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i enjoy the simple things in life. for example: jason todd’s thighs.