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KINKtober

Yeah you heard me! You’ve heard of Goretober and Inktober, so why not KINKtober! Mainly trying this out because I made a joke and was told I HAD to do it! 

For anyone who wants to try it out, digital, traditional and writing is all acceptable! And feel free to switch/skip anything from the list below that makes you uncomfortable. 

1. Spanking 2. Dirty talk 3. Public 4. Bukakke 5. Humiliation  6. Size Difference 7. Creampie 8. Latex/Leather 9. Asphyxiation 10. Edgeplay 11. Sadism/Masochism 12. Master/Slave 13. Medical play 14. Sensory Deprivation  15. Sounding  16. Waxplay 17. Blood/Gore 18. Daddy 19. Prostitution 20. Pet Play 21. Double (Or more) Penetration 22. Glory hole 23. Shibari 24. Exhibitionism/Voyeurism 25. Boot worship 26. Shotgunning 27. Branding  28. Xenophilia  29. Watersports/Omorashi 30. Toys 31. Any combo of the above

If any of you guy do try it out remember to tag Kinktober or Kinktober2016! And feel free to reblog and share the word to any other sinful trash out there! 

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I just stumbled across that one popular post about Frankenstein’s monster (this one) and it reminded me a lot of Doflamingo. Not everything, but certain parts of it.

I am malicious because I am miserable. 

Am I not shunned and hated by all mankind?  

Shall I respect man when he condemns me?

I have a lot of respect and appreciation for the original Frankenstein novel, and one of the many things that I like about it is how the monster, even in its most villainous moments, can still be understood as a product of its environment. The monster was not born evil, but because of the way it was treated by every human it met, it was never given any chance of ever having a decent, happy life. And because of the unjust misery forced upon it, it retailed with cruelty. That doesn’t make it okay, but it is nonetheless understandable. 

Doflamingo is similar in my opinion, and I’ve always disliked that Oda had Cora state that Doflamingo was simply born evil without explicitly challenging that notion, giving readers an easy and simple reason to ignore all of the environmental factors that shaped Doflamingo into the monster he became, and regard him as yet another 2-dimensional asshole who’s evil just cuz he’s evil and that’s all there is to it. 

I’ve already written an analysis of how I think Doflamingo’s environment left him no choice but to be evil (this post here), but I feel like expanding on it. 

First up, Homing and his wife may have have been nice, but based on what we saw Doflamingo was raised virtually the same as all other Celestial Dragons, and believed and felt the same things that the rest of them did. Homing didn’t raise Doflamingo to believe anything different 

“I will have to educate you anew.” That line indicates that ideas like slavery being wrong was something new to Doflamingo–not something that Homing had consistently taught Doflamingo throughout his life. The idea that they were “human” was something new to Doflamingo when his father announced it to the other Celestial Dragons, and something Doflamingo didn’t understand at all. Cora, on the other hand, was 2 years younger than Doflamingo. He was shown to be much more shy, and constantly clinging to his mother’s side. As such, he was less exposed to the culture and beliefs of the Celestial Dragons, spent less time absorbing it, and was able to be more receptive to new ideas after he was taken in by Sengoku. 

But Doflamingo wasn’t taken in by Sengoku. He was taken in by his future executives, with Trebol being the oldest among the all and seeming to take the frontal position in fostering Doflamingo to be evil

Doflamingo met them before he killed his father. It was Trebol who gave him the gun he used and encouraged Doflamingo to kill. And after Doflamingo killed his father, lost his brother, and was nearly killed by the Celestial Dragons when he tried to return, his executives were all he had left and the ones who entirely took over raising him. 

And I haven’t even gotten to the trauma that Doflamingo endured at the hands of the enraged mobs. 

I found this panel to be interesting because it reminded me of the kind of rejection that Frankenstein’s monster received. It was a kind of scornful, sarcastic claim, but the mob rejected Doflamingo’s humanity as well. The first “humans” that Doflamingo met burned down his home, chased him and his family into the garbage dumps to hide. He watched his mother die in poverty and squalor, and was beaten and tortured by mobs for crimes that he himself never committed–for the crime of the accident of his birth. Sure, Doflamingo was a little shit as a kid, but being an asshole when you’re 8 years old is hardly something that warrants being tortured for. The torture that Doflamingo was subjected to helped shape him into a monster. In part, Doflamingo is the same as the ones who tortured him 

These are people who were cruelly forced to endure nightmarish tragedies at the hands of Celestial Dragons. If these people had lived different lives, would they ever have been people who would torture children? Doflamingo was only 8 and Cora was only 6. They tortured children. These people weren’t born villains, looking to go out and hurt anyone and everyone for their own enjoyment or self advancement or anything like that. They were people whose cruelty and malice was born from suffering. They were able to do horrendous things because of the horrendous things that had been done to them. They took all the misery and malice that had been created in them and gave it to Doflamingo too, so that he could feel the same. 

It’s not just any one of these things. It’s all of these things, together, that made the Doflamingo we know today–not a human, not a Celestial Dragon, but a monster. Doflamingo’s birth as a Celestial Dragon in Mariejois was a seed that was planted in rich soil. The hardship and torture he was subjected to at the hands of angry mobs was water and sunlight. The executives who took him in and raised him with their beliefs were gardeners, clipping away dead leaves and making sure that nothing deterred his growth. The end result was one gigantic, cruel, twisted tree. 

None of this excuses what Doflamingo has done. This doesn’t change that Doflamingo is evil and deserves to rot in hell. But as a fictional character, it makes him interesting and understandable. Doflamingo wasn’t forced to kill people. Doflamingo made choices, and he chose to do evil things. However, with his history, why would he ever choose to not be evil? Think about Frankenstein’s monster–the monster was shunned by everyone and everyone. It was subjected to cruelty and rejection and hatred and pain. Its own creator hated it and wanted it destroyed. It was not human. Why should a monster, hated and rejected by humans, respect the laws and wishes of humans? Why should it submit itself to humans and let itself be destroyed? Doflamingo found himself in a similar boat. Who rules the world of One Piece? The Celestial Dragons. And who populates the world of One Piece? Humans (along with a few other things). But before Doflamingo was even close to an adult, when he was still a young child, he found himself rejected by both the rulers of the world and its people. The Celestial Dragons rejected him, and the common people rejected him. Why should someone who was rejected, hated, hunted, and tortured for crimes that he had not even committed, someone was always being taught that he wasn’t human, respect the society of those inflicting this unjust misery on him? 

Doflamingo is one of the only villains in all of One Piece who actually has a well explored story behind him. Not a single other villain even comes close to the amount of attention that Doflamingo’s history received. And he was given a story precisely because we were supposed to listen to it. To regard Doflamingo as being born evil and that he was destined to be evil no matter how he was raised is to ignore his entire story. Again, it doesn’t change the fact that Doflamingo is evil. It doesn’t mean that it’s okay that he’s murdered so many people and caused so much suffering. Doflamingo sure as hell isn’t anything like “the real victim here.” You don’t have to sympathize with him, forgive him, or anything else. And you’re certainly welcome to hate him. But you can still understand him–understand that he never really had a chance. Not because he was born evil, but because he was molded into evil by the evil around him. Born into an evil society that taught him selfishness and arrogance, baptized in the evil of pain and hate by those who were in pain and filled with hate themselves, and fostered by people who encouraged Doflamingo to embrace and embody evil. Almost every part of Doflamingo’s young life soaked him in evil, and the drops of good he received from his kind parents were downed out by the torrential downpour of evil that constantly surrounded him from the moment of his birth. 

Regarding Doflamingo as being born evil is an easy way out–a way to reject Doflamingo’s humanity in the same way that everyone else did, and justify the evil inflicted upon him by the mobs. If Doflamingo was born evil, then why shouldn’t he be evil? Should a tiger decide to not be a tiger? If Doflamingo was born to be cruel, then why would anyone expect him not to be cruel? But I think that’s BS. Just like how the human mobs were once good people, ordinary neutral people at worst, turned cruel by the evil inflicted on them, Doflamingo was made evil as well. He’s the embodiment of so much evil in the world. The evil of the culture and oppression of the Celestial Dragons, the evil of pain and hate and revenge, the evil of selfishness and greed–Doflamingo was exposed to it all, and he absorbed it all. Doflamingo took in all the evils he was exposed to, and then turn it back upon the world. And that makes him an interesting, well developed character. We got to see how he was made. Doflamingo’s history showed us the making of a monster. 

(And I’ve expanded on this post here, mainly discussing how Law as a child showed us how he too became exactly like Doflamingo as a result of immense suffering.)

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I'm curious, would any of us villain fans actually be interested in a sequel series? (Read some old posts from when there were talk that there might be one)

Because I certainly ain't, the only thing I would be interested in is seeing Endeavor dying a miserable pathetic death and that sure as fuck ain't happening to one of Hori's precious baby boys (read: popular abusers).

I hate Deku now, so I don't want to read about him. Canon Hawks can fuck a cactus. Bakugou is my version of Caillou. Uraraka was promising in the final arc only for it to be ruined in the epilogue for the sake of convenience (ending the story as quickly as possible). I find Shoto overrated, though that's mostly from me being a Dabi Stan and anything Todo fam being oversaturated with him, but I'm pretty sure most of his appeal is gone as well. I don't want to see how they either fuck over the villains they didn't kill even more, or bastardize their characters.

Is there anything at all we would be interested in reading

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Someone called Doffy a "child that needed a smack on the face to right his wrongs"

And I'm like.

You don't think being tortured and homeless and starved was enough?

You think his parents should have hit him, too?

You think hitting children makes them good people?

You think Doffy being abused by his parents would have made him a better person?

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Someone called Doffy a "child that needed a smack on the face to right his wrongs"

And I'm like.

You don't think being tortured and homeless and starved was enough?

You think his parents should have hit him, too?

You think hitting children makes them good people?

You think Doffy being abused by his parents would have made him a better person?

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I don’t like how on top of giving the bitch his phone number, Fuyumi also updated Endeavor on Shoto’s relationship with Rei without their consent

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I know it didn't happen that way, but Jeremiah would have done the same thing as Scar did. I am 100 % sure.

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I’ve been on a quiz making kick lately so have this absolute disaster that also serves as a scale for how much therapy you need

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the history book on the shelf is always repeating itself

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One Piece final battle

poorly drawn extra:

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Heavy spoilers for Joker: Folie à Deux beneath the cut.

Joker 2019 is a movie that is often misunderstood, and one that means a lot to me.  It doesn’t quite manage to nudge out some of my childhood animated favorites like The Last Unicorn and Watership Down, but Joker is definitely in my top three favorite live action movies.  It got me back into writing fanfic after a long dry spell.

I didn’t think it needed a sequel.  Most people didn’t.  The first movie told the story it needed to tell.  I was wary going into this.  After hearing that it was a musical (and with Gaga as Harley?), I didn’t know what to expect but I thought that even if it was bad, even if it completely misfired, it would at least be an entertaining and funny trainwreck. 

Turns out, it’s not funny at all.  This movie gutted me.

I wish it didn’t exist.  The experience of watching it was…I’m still processing it, but I think I can say at this point that it was an unpleasant experience, but also a captivating one.  I hate it but I also weirdly have a higher opinion of it than most people seem to.  I feel like it was tonally true to the first movie.  I think Phoenix and Gaga both breathed life into their roles.  The musical numbers didn’t seem strictly necessary but they also didn’t detract from the experience for me. Music was an important element of the first movie as well.

I also think the central premise is an interesting one.  Arthur, incarcerated in Arkham, is facing the possibility that he’ll be sentenced to death for the murders he committed in the first movie.  His lawyer is aiming for an insanity defense and tries to convince the jury that the Joker is a separate personality—that Joker, not Arthur, killed those people.  In order to save his own life, Arthur needs to convince the jury that he’s not Joker…or he can take a different path. He can say "fuck it," fully embrace the Joker persona and live whatever time is left laughing and watching everything burn.  This is what Harley "Lee" Quinzel, who admires Joker and the chaos he represents, wants him to do.

In the end, he does neither.

After being forced to sit in silence for days and listen to a defense that both infantilizes and dehumanizes him, reducing him to a set of symptoms, stripping him bare and putting all his pain and humiliation on display, Arthur can’t take it anymore.  He fires his lawyer (who represents his best hope of survival) and elects to represent himself.  Initially he tries to represent himself as Joker, to lean into that persona, but he’s not feeling it anymore…especially after the confrontation with Gary Puddles, the guy who was probably his only true friend before he became Joker.  In the first movie, Arthur spared Gary’s life but left him deeply traumatized after he witnessed the death of Randall, the coworker who bullied Arthur.  This conversation with Gary was one of the most riveting parts of the movie for me.  There is a nakedness and rawness to it. Arthur tries to say "fuck it," but ultimately, he can't. Not in the face of Gary's pleading and pain.

After this, some horrible things happen to Arthur in Arkham.  The guards beat him and brutally assault him.  They kill his fellow inmate who tries to offer him support, because the system is still ruthless and still failing vulnerable people.  Arthur is left broken, helpless. Again. Some people have interpreted this scene as the reason he ultimately sheds his Joker persona, but I think it would have shaken out differently if not for that earlier conversation with Gary.  Because Gary is possibly the only person who truly cared about Arthur, when he was only Arthur—a fellow outcast, and the only guy who never made fun of him. 

Joker makes fun of Gary, because Joker makes fun of everything.  And Arthur realizes that he’s not—doesn’t want to be Joker. At his core, he's sick of pain and violence, both his own and other people's. He wants to try to break the cycle.

In the end, Arthur stands before everyone not as Joker but as Arthur Fleck—he stands alone and naked, shattered, traumatized, with no remaining allies, and he takes responsibility.  He says that he did those things.  He did them because he was having a mental breakdown, yes, because he was wounded and wronged by an unjust world, but he regrets it, now.  He hurt some bad people, but he also hurt some people who didn’t deserve it.  He’s tired of being the clown.  He just wants to live.  That was all he ever wanted, really.  Just a little bit of kindness and respect.

This is his truth:  Joker is a part of him, but a part that was born out of pain.  His deepest self is Arthur. In admitting that, he lays it all on the line, in that moment. And this is, in my opinion, the bravest thing he could have done.  I had my hand over my heart for this whole scene. 

And for this small, fragile act of courage, he is utterly forsaken by the world.  Lee—the one person who he has a connection with—is in love with Joker, not Arthur.  She walks out of the courtroom.  She abandons him in his moment of greatest need—not out of malice, but out of weakness. Because she wants to live in a fantasy world and she can't handle the reality of who he is:  not an embodiment of chaos and power, not a symbol, but a man, a vulnerable man who is full of regrets but who is trying, in his own confused way, to be better.

The first movie was bleak but it offered a glimpse of a twisted kind of hope at the end with Arthur finding inner peace even as he’s condemned to a life in psychiatric incarceration for his actions.  This movie takes that bit of hope and grinds it into the dust.  It’s a tragedy, through and through.

Arthur’s random, pointless death at the end feels almost redundant because it’s made clear by that point that his spirit has already been slain.  His connection with Lee was all he had, and when it’s revealed to be an illusion, that’s it.  He can no longer exist as the Joker but he can’t exist as Arthur, either.  He tried his best and was rejected for it.  It didn’t work.  He’s done. 

There are a lot of takes about how this movie should have gone, and honestly, most of them sound terrible to me.  I think this is the only way a sequel could have gone while remaining honest, which is why I didn’t want a sequel.

You can’t hear me, Arthur, but I love you, and I’m proud of you for standing before the world as yourself, and you didn’t deserve to die the way you did. 

This world is fucking cruel.

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there's no point, there's no explanation

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🖤Part 1👌🏼

This isn’t canon this is fanmade lol

Art made by @inkyariel

Part 2

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Doflamingo and the Donquixote Pirates: Does he love them?

Doflamingo and the Donquixote Pirates are one of the most complex dynamics in One Piece, and fans are often split on whether Doflamingo truly loves his family. My take? He does, but it’s incredibly complicated.

From a young age, Doflamingo was raised by people who drilled into him the idea that their lives were expendable for his ambitions.

All the Donquixote Pirates grew up starving on the streets, seeing Doflamingo as their savior. Their journey began as street urchins, struggling to survive in a harsh world. To get by, they turned to a life of crime, driven by desperation and hunger. This life was all they knew until they encountered Doflamingo, a boy with incredible power.

To these people, Doflamingo was a ticket out of their miserable existence. They saw in him a potential leader who could offer them protection, purpose, and a chance to rise above their circumstances. In their eyes, he was a savior who could change their fate.

In turn, they fed Doflamingo toxic ideologies, reinforcing his already warped sense of self-worth and destiny. They told him he was destined for greatness and that their lives were a small price to pay for his ascent to power. This constant reinforcement shaped Doflamingo's mindset, making him believe that true loyalty meant being willing to die for one's leader.

As they followed him, the bond between Doflamingo and his crew grew more complex and entangled. His followers' unwavering loyalty and willingness to sacrifice themselves bolstered his belief in his own superiority and right to rule. He saw their sacrifices as proof of their devotion, not realizing that he was perpetuating a cycle of manipulation and exploitation.

This twisted form of loyalty is evident in many ways, such as Monet willingly sacrificing herself for him to save Caesar. It’s clear that his crew’s dedication feeds into his toxic mindset.

Take Baby 5, for instance. Doflamingo killed her predatory fiancés, but he never had a heartfelt conversation about stranger danger with her . He’s too damaged to provide that kind of emotional guidance.

When Law held Giolla captive and Doflamingo hesitated in his attack on the Sunny, Giolla later expressed she’d happily die for him. This reinforced his skewed perception of loyalty.

He has moments that show genuine care, like getting angry when Law used his powers on Buffalo and Baby 5 or insisting that no one laugh at Pica’s voice. He compliments Diamante, likely to get him off his ass and do his job.

Doflamingo’s care for Caesar Clown is another intriguing aspect. Ensuring Caesar’s safety would keep him safe from Kaido’s wrath, but he also calls Caesar his “cute subordinate” in the original Japanese, indicating some level of affection.

The complexity deepens with Corazon. Doflamingo only hinted at wanting Corazon to use the Op-Op Fruit to grant him immortality after Corazon left and the Navy was conveniently off their tails. He suspected his brother of being a spy and may have wanted to hurt him out of betrayal. Though I might be grasping at straws with this one.

In his own twisted way, Doflamingo tries to “help” by taking kids off the street and giving them powers to fight against the oppressive society they were born into . However, this is a mirror of his own upbringing, where Trebol groomed him to be a criminal and surrounded him with people who would die for him. Intentionally or not, Doflamingo perpetuates this cycle with his subordinates.

Ultimately, Doflamingo’s love for his family is there, but it’s marred by a lifetime of manipulation, violence, and a deeply ingrained toxic mindset.