torchiesbestie

[torchiesbestie]

Desmond, my beloved. <3

It's been a little while since I've posted anything selfshippy here and even longer since I've spoken about Des.

I still love him. He's such a comfort and— just look at hiiiiiim

< Him 3

[torchiesbestie]

i've just had a light bulb moment and thought of this one! 💡

clancyships --> torchiesbestie

does anyone have username ideas for this blog of mine ? :,3

i'd really appreciate some help with deciding on a new name for this one.

[torchiesbestie]

does anyone have username ideas for this blog of mine ? :,3

i'd really appreciate some help with deciding on a new name for this one.

[torchiesbestie]

[torchiesbestie]

Spooky Jim !?

We'd probably end up just talking it out.

[torchiesbestie]

Trying not to get thinking horrible thoughts like "People dont like me. I'm not good enough. Why do I struggle with talking to people? Why cant I make and keep online friends?" But its so difficult.

[torchiesbestie]

Ok, I've been blocked by that blogger now for their comfort. I feel sickly.

There's nothing I can do, so that's that. But it doesn't stop me from feeling guilty and sort of upset.

[torchiesbestie]

Gah! I feel anxious. My throat feels weird when I get anxious.

[torchiesbestie]

Hi, I've decided it's best that I'm honest with my few followers here and say that I'm considering selfshipping with The Torchbearer. And maybe Clancy sometimes. Sometimes I feel I am Torchbearer and then feel like Clancy is significant in a platonic or maybe even romantic way to me, and then other times I feel like I'm Clancy and feel like Torch is significant to me in those ways I've said above.

With this next part of the post, I don't intend this to be a vague post or however you say it. I am not trying to throw shade.

I am considering selfshipping with Torch and sometimes Clancy somehow, and I know there's at least one well-known blogger who is non-sharing with these two. I don't want to unfollow them, or dare I say block them (if they want me to), but I don't want trouble or to make them upset either. I'm also worried that my mutuals will have to unfollow or block me because they follow that other blog. I'm so conflicted.

I really love their blog and amazing artwork and nice attitude. And I really like my mutuals too and appreciate them so so much and I wish I could talk to them all more but I struggle. This post might ruin the opportunity to connect with people who I like online, and it's making me sad.

[torchiesbestie]

🐈‍⬛ Clanky banging out the toons 🎹

[torchiesbestie]

Reblog to hug prev

Please

[torchiesbestie]

no task that can’t be improved by imagining your f/o doing it with you!!!

[torchiesbestie]

✦ F/O IMAGINE ✦

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

[torchiesbestie]

What I feel like I look like when I tell people that I'm fictionkin

[torchiesbestie]

so. bad news. we have to keep going tomorrow. good news is that I’ll keep going with you

[torchiesbestie]

Update: I never got a chance to. But my therapist read my poetry I brought into therapy. She said she loved them and liked how I word them so well, and that they're so full of emotion.

I was going to bring up the Forest fic to my therapist tomorrow, but I'm deciding it's prooobably not a great idea.