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fun ghoul ruining his pants. NOW.

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i sit alone at lunch, every fucking day. why? because i still barely know anybody. everyone is just normal people that would humiliate/bully me because of my stupid fucking interests.

im tired of this. im tired of being so "im gonna be myself this year!" already. i want to change. change and become normal. i just want to feel normal so bad. if i could change one thing when i was born, it was make sure i didnt end up this way.

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i dont get it. i really dont. was i just meant to get so obsessed over fictional characters like i do? was i meant to not fucking understand my feelings like i do?

everyday, at school, i force myself to act nornal. no talking about fictional characters that i love, only slightly mentioning mcr, and just. acting normal. or how i think normal people act. because normal people dont get insane fixations on things. normal people dont make shitty posts like this.

i dont think im real.

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everyone around me is falling in love, yet i just....i dont get it.

two of my friends are talking about how they have someone in mind, but me? i dont think i was meant to feel that way, like ever. i feel like im forcing myself to like/have crushes on people, and when steps are taken, it freaks me out and makes me feel all funny and make the forced feeling come.

i dont think im meant for people. but im not using fucking ai to replace people, becsuse thats really pathetic.

it just hurts.

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all my irls are developijg crushes for people and i dont get it 🙁 crushes really mess with me ans my mind so maybe thats why but still

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maama🙁

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iwant to be held by mamapartypoison does anyknr want tk be my mama party poisonPlease🙁🙁🙁wnat mama

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Waaaaaaahhhhahaahhhhhhhh🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁

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i hate feeling horny now goddamn i always feel gross after🙁

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Eeermmmmm i lowkey feel disgusting now

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groans

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i still feel like lowkey horny Ermmmmmm whos a good boy.... Meeee!😂😂😂😂😂

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ill wiggle my pickle later at night bc Holay Molay i need it!

how embarrassing is it for me to say that earlier i was reading fanfic and it was so good it made me............Wet. like literally i could feel it and i was like getting rlly excited Eerm

DO NOT LET ME READ FANFIC

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how embarrassing is it for me to say that earlier i was reading fanfic and it was so good it made me............Wet. like literally i could feel it and i was like getting rlly excited Eerm

DO NOT LET ME READ FANFIC

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fun ghoul is so loser like even when its not about me joking and saying like bow bad i want him no hrs just a loser But thats okay i loove him for that

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no literally she was my fave when i first learned about ddlc... i remember trying to draw her on a plastic bin but failing too!!!!!

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i remember when i first saw that tiktok it had such an insane grip on me i laid down in bed and just Reflected on it. fun ghoul im gonna wiggle my pickle to you, okay?