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Lazy type of th!n$p0 Ive found on Pinterest ⋆˙⟡♡

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Lazy type of th!n$p0 Ive found on Pinterest ⋆˙⟡♡

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Wl is so rewarding and so addictive.

So easily i slip back into it, and it becomes my first priority. It becomes my whole world. My only source of gratification. Sole objective.

Everything else disappears. The good and the bad.

And it's never enough. You need to up the dosage. You lose a little, but the high won't last long. Then the urge to starve comes back, because you need to see the number go down again. And again. And again...

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Okay, before I go to deep into a spiral over what just happened.

I love that I did a long shift today, didn't eat anything because of it and then I was too distracted to remember to eat when I got home lmao.

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I want to cry and scream.

A woman pregnant at 22 WEEKS interacted with one of my posts and followed me. She's active in her 3d again. I blocked her but oh my god...

She has a growing baby inside of her...

She has a baby. Growing inside her.

I don't even know what to do with myself right now.

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TW MENTIONS OF DEATH A S IDEATION

If assisted death was something offered in Australia. I'd take the opportunity.

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These god awful thoughts in my head.

I wish I could reach in there and press a button to shut them all off.

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I ate a bit today. Stayed under my calorie limit and felt okay.

Then I started spiralling and now I regret everything I've eaten today even though it was under a ridiculous calorie limit.

The thought of food makes me feel sick and even angrier than I already am.

Fuck this. Fuck food. Fuck everything. Fuck everyone. I'm never fucking enough for them anyway. They can go and eat shit.

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Fucking hell man.

Why TF is everything so hard?

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I'm so sick of my emotions. My anger.

I'm so fucking tired of being the way I am.

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I regret to inform you all that I have made a goof and injured the fk out of myself.

I will not be able to attend the gym or do much of anything :')

Please send your thoughts and prayers as I navigate my binge urges without being able to exercise.

Stay safe my lovely angels🩷🪽🖤🪽

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was going through some of my health records and some doctor put “dresses oddly” next to my psychotic symptoms. hey fuck you too man

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can you teach me how to dougie

Do all the bitches love you?

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imagine being a little bitch? couldn’t be me cause I’m a huge Cunt

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fuck it's hard not eating at work when you actually need to think and move :')