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When I see this pic, I think back to the first season, as it appeares to look as if Spock had more makeup on the first episodes than later on. Here he is serving blush, eyeshadow and a lil bit lips. Later on he just uses his eyeshadow. U might think “so what? We already know that, nerd” I wrote this because I’m kinda high, and I can hear so clearly the noise my fingers make when I type ,it’s so loud and gigantic. Anyways, this is the only thing I can think about bc my mind is hyper focused now. The creen keeps getting bigger and bigger. I don’t think I’m getting closer tithe phone, it’s just getting bigger. Anyhow, Spock and make up am I right?

I just love it when in star trek spock is not actively talking/participating in the moment but they just put him in screen just to serve face and vulcunt

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taking star trek scenes out of context is my favorite hobby (not that it’s usually even necessary)

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I’m doing it guys, I’m doing it. You can’t stop me now.

I’m writing spirk for the first time, and no one can stop it from happening.

I’m gonna write Mirror Kirk propositioning poor Spock. Mayhaps it’ll turn into smut. We’ll see where this takes me

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Been pouring spirk content in my ears to keep my heart healthy.

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Started to tear up bc I made a hypothetical scenario in my head where someone gave me a pill that would kill me immediately with no pain and told me I could only take the pill right now, not save it for later, and I would only have this opportunity once in my life and I decided I would not take the pill and that made me kinda happy bc I know there has been points where I would take the pill, no regrets, but now I want to live life. With everything that comes with it. The bad, the good and the ugly. I wanna experience all of it, and get better because of it

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Excerpt of Deleted Scene from Star Trek (2009)

SPOCK PRIME: This was a gift to me. Representing… a dream. One we were unable to fulfill. The way you can now…

Their eyes hold. Spock turns, disappearing into the corridor. Young Spock stares at the empty doorway a beat, his mind a jumble of thoughts. He looks to the pendant… and realizes it’s a holo-emitter. After considering a beat, he hits an activation button and a moving holigraphic message materializes before him.

KIRK/SHATNER: (Singing) Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you…

(stops, grins) I know I know, it’s illogical to celebrate something you had nothing to do with, but I haven’t had the chance to congratulate you on your appointment to the ambassadorship so I thought I’d seize the occasion… Bravo, Spock — they tell  me your first mission may take you away for awhile, so I’ll be the first to wish you luck… and to say…

I miss you, old friend.

I suppose I’d always imagined us… outgrowing Starfleet together. Watching life swing us into our Emeritus years…

I look around at the new cadets now and can’t help thinking… has it really been so long? Wasn’t it only yesterday we stepped onto the Enterprise as boys? That I had to prove to the crew I deserved command… and their respect?

I know what you’d say — ‘It’s their turn now, Jim…’And of course you’re  right… but it got me thinking:

Who’s to say we can’t go one more round? By the last tally, only twenty five percent of the galaxy’s been chartered… I’d call that negligent. Criminal even — an invitation. You once said being a starship captain was my first, best destiny… if that’s true, then yours is to be by my side. If there’s any true logic to the universe… we’ll end up on that bridge again someday.

Admit it, Spock. For people like us, the journey itself… is home.

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SPOCK: REGRET

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If humans aren’t capable of change, what’s the point of anything? If we believe adults are unchangeble, what’s the point of living? Even old dogs can learn new tricks. And I truly, 100% believe in that

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(4+1) 4 times Grayson has almost died and one time he actually did🗣️

This looked cooler in my head ngl, and you can tell I lost motivation time to time.

All of these moments are canon but slightly made more dramatic:

Forever evil #1

Nightwing (2016) #40

Grayson #5

Nightwing (2016) #25

Forever evil #6

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sam winchester + sophie lewis: abolish the family: a manifesto for care and liberation, 2022

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YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

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i actually cannot get over them ever

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Love how tumblr has its own folk stories. Yeah the God of Arepo we’ve all heard the story and we all still cry about it. Yeah that one about the woman locked up for centuries finally getting free. That one about the witch who would marry anyone who could get her house key from her cat and it’s revealed she IS the cat after the narrator befriends the cat.

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Sam and Dean’s individual relationships to John are so fascinating, and his abuse of them was so complex and different for each of them, and each thinks he loves the other more because they didn’t receive the personalized abuse he doled out to the other. Dean was the “good child”, obedient, the peacemaker, doing whatever his father asked of him, and so he didn’t receive the negative attention that Sam did, which Dean viewed as more care. Because his father was paying more attention to Sam because Sam put up a fight. Dean would receive praise, but he wouldn’t receive the love and affection that he truly craved. He felt ignored and uncared for.

Meanwhile, Sam received John’s negative attention, the brunt of his ire because he fought back and didn’t acquiesce the way Dean did. He and John screamed at one another, got into fights, and thus he received more attention than Dean did. But at his core, Sam wanted that love that he thought Dean was getting. It’s just that when he did his job, he still felt neglected. Because he realized that that praise wasn’t really love. But even though he realized this, he was still unable to distinguish that this was also what Dean was receiving, not some form of praise or higher love.

Add to that that fundamentally, Sam and Dean were just such different people with completely different early life experiences that formed them. Dean could remember life before hunting, Sam couldn’t. Dean feels Mary’s loss and the loss of normalcy, Sam doesn’t remember her and craves the thing he has never experienced. And to top it all off, there is John blaming Sam for Mary’s death and fearing his potential monstrosity which makes him incapable of viewing Sam the same way he does Dean, even if Sam did completely what he was told. Sam was there when Mary died. Dean was outside the room, ready to follow his orders.

TLDR John Winchester didn’t have a favorite son: he had a soldier and he had a scapegoat and he loved them both the same, but in completely different ways.