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Galapagos Islands, Ecuador:

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ok random griswold iowa grizzy gris whatever cult tomorrow. ok early deposit. ok making up for food insecurity making me broke. ok we get 1 weight not 2 ok pull-up bar postponed until september. mcr gets august. sketch ass flights. someone’s dad gifted me $70 2024 microsoft plane sim on steam. plane this plane that. no drinking!!! sobriety going only grief and cry and dance . ok had enough for 2/3 ethnobotanicals they on their way to my apt pls save my life. old faces around me now old faces no teeth old times euthanasia last may that was fucked up. loss loss loss. where’s that creek bed again with the cretaceous mud stone. is siouxsie going to make it back home tonight for dinner on the porch. will there be bugs again another migration here will i see my breath this winter inside my home. will i get my door handle back tomorrow lolll why did I take those online courses. why does she go on med transpo van vacas. flood anniversary. they didnt have cameras at witt. no putting metal in the dryer or it’s going to be an altercation. ok biofreeze 1 jolly rancher 1 lorazepam 3 melatonin cal mag stack. disconnected goodnight and actually fuck me for the last 3 years of my life. how bout wish u away instead and the end etc doing all that shit out there wearing diapers in different cities while i cried my fucking eyes out to roku thunderstorm channel and ate your half air ice cream and diet sludge sodas hoping to find you anywhere. not tonight!!!

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Harold Edgerton, Milk-Drop Coronet Splash, 1936, gelatin silver print. 17-15/16 x 14-5/16 inches

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Split-twig figurines from the Archaic Period of southwest North America

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the amount of women out here theorycrafting heinously pseudoscientific and delusional copes for why the men they date act like they don’t give a fuck about her makes me want to tear my hair out. i lose 6 months off my life every time i hear about “anxious attachment.” please get real

he ignores you for days at a time because he doesn’t care. he ghosts after sex because that is all he wanted from you. he strings you along but refuses an exclusive relationship because he does not want to date you. he won’t introduce you to his friends because you are not one of his friends. he doesn’t do his share of the housework because he thinks you should do it. he acts inconsiderate because he does not think about you. his words don’t match his actions because the words are lies.

postulating about his “attachment style” and his “unhealed trauma” and his “neurodivergence” and the deep conflicting reasons for his behavior is a waste of your fucking time. he acts like he doesn’t like you because he does not like you, and because he can get away with it. y’all are making up a whole different man in your head because you so badly want to believe he isn’t a womanhating parasite. you are imagining a soul in the dried up corpse of a roach. you are projecting depth and vulnerability onto a dog shit wedged in your shoe. stop giving losers the benefit of the doubt PLEASE i am on my knees like a dog BEGGING all women

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"The ghost of my lost library still haunts me. Tens of thousands of books that cost me tens of thousands of dollars mean nothing to me in comparison to the knowledge these books provide me with. A large group of scholars with whom I used to spend the most beautiful times. Every book in this library took a great share from my five senses, I look at it and feel joy that I possess its secrets. I hear it and am filled with knowledge. I touch its paper and covers and become ecstatic with its magic. I smell the special perfume of its leaves and I escape from this tiring world. I taste what its authors wrote in it and I find nothing more delicious than it. I write these words while drowning in tears. Will the days bring me back a beautiful era similar to what it was? Will my library return to me? Will my lost paradise return to me?"

_ حمزة مصطفى أبو توهة (@ HamzaAbuToha)

11 December 2023

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~ Eccentric Flint in the Form of a Scorpion.

Place of origin: Belize, Guatemala, Honduras, or Mexico (Mesoamerica)

Culture: Maya

Date: A.D. 600–900

Medium: Stone, Chert

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SAD ANT WITH BINDLE TATTOO

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Mosab Abu Toha, from Things You May Find Hidden in My Ear: Poems from Gaza

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nothing has fucked me up more than knowing the australian white ibis has a near-identical sister species called the african sacred ibis. the african sacred ibis is associated with thoth, ancient god of wisdom and reason. the australian white ibis is most commonly referred to as a “bin chicken”.

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I’m Christian and respect the order of creation as God intended it but I’m not gonna lie if I could take a massive vat of agar and grow an alive shopping mall made out of red blood and meat and feed it living human bodies to make it expand larger with more shops and amenities, Without hesitation, Without question I would do exactly that

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Rare Footage of The Speelunker Cave ride from Six Flags over Texas in the off-season, mid-1970′s. 

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https://www.instagram.com/p/CinPfB7rfWh/

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Photo by Patrick Kinmonth