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So here's the situation.

I'm overwhelmed, I keep forgetting about Ty and I feel so bad about that. So, I am moving Tyler to my oc multi which I really want to get up and running again @burymeinprettylies. I am currently re-doing his border to match that blog over there.

If you would still like to follow me you can see me that-away

[traumadriven]

So here's the situation.

I'm overwhelmed, I keep forgetting about Ty and I feel so bad about that. So, I am moving Tyler to my oc multi which I really want to get up and running again @burymeinprettylies. I am currently re-doing his border to match that blog over there.

If you would still like to follow me you can see me that-away

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❝ It happens to the best of us, Abrams.❞ he pats his shoulder with a smile. ❝ But no, you can't quiet. You can't quit until it's a five year old telling you how to do your job.❞

OPEN STARTER: 𝐃𝐑. 𝐒𝐀𝐌 𝐀𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐒 ⸻  mutuals only !

❛ so it seems I have met my match in the form of a twelve year old middle schooler. ❜ sam said as he closed his tablet. ❛ so excited. can I quit now? ❜

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𝐘𝐞𝐬, 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬, but truly as much as he loves his family he knows how they are. Asking about when is he going to start dating again, settle down and what not. True he's had his share of love affairs though they were more along the lines of flings since he's been back, but it's not like he's lacking. He's just not looking right now. He's trying to get himself established at work first and then maybe, possibly, he'll get lucky and find love. But for now he just needs them off his back for one night and he's here begging Cass. Not begging, asking with urgency. There, that's better.

❝ Yes, yes, and yes...❞ he replies, smiling as sweetly and as charmingly as he can hoping that she would agree to such an ask. ❝ Even if it's awkward, we can just say this is still very new to both of us and they'd be none-the-wiser. I just need them to not ask about me and my love life this holiday. My brother is coming with his wife, my sister has a boyfriend -- I will even do anything you ask of me. A favor for a favor. ❞ he clasps his hands together as though he's about to pray.

❝ Please, Cass, I will get on my knees if I have too...❞ it's a big ask, and he can ask any one other of his friends for this but he's asking Cass because he does like her and he trusts her. ❝ Nothing will be off limits for what you ask of me, how can you say no to that ? ❞

✎‿𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 @traumadriven

“ᴡɪʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ᴘᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ’ ᴅɪɴɴᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴍʏ ᴘᴀʀᴛɴᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴɪɴɢ? ɪ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʜᴏᴡ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴀꜱᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱʜɪᴘ ꜱᴛᴀᴛᴜꜱ.”

SHE'S STANDING just inside her hotel room, the faint glow of the fairy lights she had strung along the window reflecting off the glass. She had put them up in a weak attempt to bring some Christmas cheer to the space, though they only seemed to highlight how lonely it felt spending the holidays far from home. Cassandra blinks at him, her hand still resting on the door handle after letting him in, the quiet hum of the heater filling the space, but his request leaves her unsure what to say. What she thought would be a quick visit▬▬maybe a chat or some holiday well-wishing▬▬has turned into something completely unexpected. She watches him, trying to process, her mind spinning between surprise and the odd sense that this moment is somehow familiar.

❝ Pardon ? ❞ she says, her French accent curling around the word as she studies him, as though she hasn’t quite heard him right. It feels strangely familiar, almost like déjà vu, as she thinks back to the first time they met. That night in Chicago, when she was being followed, Tyler had stepped in without a second thought. He had acted so naturally, casual, pretending to know her as if they were old friends catching up. His easy smile and calm demeanor had been convincing enough to make the man trailing her vanish into the night▬▬whether the threat had been real or just her imagination running wild didn’t matter. ❝ A dinner, your parents, pretending…to be your ▬ ? ❞ she repeats slowly, her brow furrowing before she shakes her head, her fingers instinctively brush against her neck. Her cheeks warm, a soft pink rising to the surface and lets out a soft, nervous laugh. ❝ Tyler, I would gladleeh 'elp you, but I▬I really don’t know 'ow believable I will be at...such a thing. ❞

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Also making another brother for Ty, who is a half brother, because if my characters are happy and leading happy lives ... then I've done something so wrong.

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I need energy. Someone give me energy. Someone give me strength! Someone, compel my writing ability home from the war!

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𝐇𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐉𝐨𝐡𝐧 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭, but he doesn't want to break the trust of Elyse. It's her story -- not his. But this isn't a matter of personal but it's professional. There is a child in this situation who needs help and she can't get that if those who are meant to help are at odds.

❝ Elyse...Everything she's accusing the parents of doing to this kid? Her parents did to her. ❞ Does he feel like he's betraying her trust? Yes, one hundred percent, but he doesn't believe the same thing is happening with the girl that she and Frost are trying to treat. He can understand how it triggered the past, but the accusations flying were too much for the family and if it's not the case the last thing he wants is to get DCFS involved. Because once that ball gets rolling there is no stopping it. And they've done that more than once in this hospital. Always a mess.

❝ She is a good nurse, great nurse, I just don't think anyone prepares for a glimpse of their own past coming through those doors.❞ he sighs, going through the charts that Frost offers him a glance at.

❝ It seems like it's a possibility. It wouldn't hurt to test for it.. ❞ Maggie being with the family is a good thing, but he knows he should go and speak to them himself to let them know that Elyse didn't mean to overstep, hoping they don't want to file any formal complaint about her.

❝ I'll talk to the family, then get ahold of Elyse...❞ he tells Frost. ❝ You do what you need to do to help this patient. Go with your gut. Unless you ate the cafeteria meatloaf, then ignore your gut and take a pepto.❞ if he doesn't make light, even a little, he'll go into his serious place.

He's insufferable in his serious place.

something personal. now he can't deny that he has issues of his own, so john doesn't want to be that person that judges. but this was just crazy. he kept on replaying it in his head and it was one of the rare times he immediately wanted to defend the girls parents, instead of what he usually does, fail to blindly trust. it was clear to him that they wanted the best for their daughter. 

john walked a few steps closer to tyler, joining him at the table. he shrugged his shoulder. ❛ is this something you can tell me to help understand, or does elyse need to tell me herself? ❜ he asked, knowing that tyler knew. how could he not? only seconds passed before he dismissed his question with a wave of his hand. maybe he was better off not knowing. ❛ just forget I asked that. she is just a good nurse. it is just hard to comprehend whatever that was. ❜

when tyler suggested he can go talk to the family, the resident nodded his head. could help, or it could make things worse. it was a gamble. ❛ maggie is with them now, they seemed pretty set in their ways about wanting to formally complain. but I guess if you want protect her record, it wouldn't hurt. you have a personal connection to her. ❜ tyler would know the right thing to say. 

at tylers next question, john handed him the ipad. while he was trauma, tyler was still an attending and he was involved now, whether he liked it or not liked it or not. ❛ after you dragged elyse out of the room, I started to do a full workup on her. i was minutes from paging doctor hadler for cardio when her mom mentioned that one time last week Stephanie was complaining about blood appearing when she was brushing her teeth. So I looked inside her mouth, and she had bleeding gums, which could be a symptom of aplastic anemia. ❜

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𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 -- 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐨𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬. It's like he's being scolded by his mother -- or by a nun. Or both ... He's sure there's some connection there but he isn't going for the details here.

Though there's something about how she's talking to him that isn't just a scolding for messing around, there's something else there. Something weighing on her that's more than this. He's seen it a lot in his time in the Army. His head titled, he speaks light.

❝I don't mean to pry, Ms. Goodwin, but is there something else going on other than Will and me being...well, me and Will? ❞ he asks with caution. ❝ I don't want to overstep but I've gotten decent at reading some things...and something is telling me there's more to this than my unprofessionalism.❞

INBOX: 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐍 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃𝐖𝐈𝐍 ⸻  @traumadriven [ tyler brendan ] ❛ the only thing tyler and will halstead are allowed to take care of together. ❜ *holds up a rock*

❛ is this some kind of joke, doctor brendan? ❜ sharon questioned as she sits at her desk, looking up at the man. surgeons. some of them can be so childlike and she really didn't know how to respond. tyler was a great surgeon and was an asset to the trauma team. when it came to will, sure will has caused some headaches . . . bad ones over the years, but she can't deny that the red head was also an asset too. ❛ i don't need this right now. either work together when you are assigned to the same patient, or get your resume ready. ❜ she said matter of factly, shrugging. with the death threat on her life, the drama between archer and lenox, she didn't know how much longer she could take.

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𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 , where the workload is a lot, and lives are simply lost at the best attempts to save them. Today Tyler managed to lose two patients on the table. He replays the situations over and over in his mind as he sits at Molly's, drowning sorrows into the glasses in front of him of a dark colored liquid. The more he drinks, the less he thinks. That's the way he prefers it right now. Because no matter how he can replay it, nothing changes. The outcomes are the same. That would tell him that it's not his fault -- but as a doctor , a surgeon, you can't help but wonder sometimes.

He almost didn't see Cass come along and sit next to him, but when he notices he gives a tipsy smile and a nod. There is a sadness in his eyes for sure but he tries his best to hide it. Maybe he should stop drinking, so with a glass that isn't finished he pushes it away.

❝ I shouldn't have anymore...❞ he says with a sigh. ❝ They know me and jack daniels got a history...❞

My Favorite Songs of 2024 : @ladamereveuse asked for #17. Shaboozy " A Bar Song "

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𝐇𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫 where everything is colored in dull colors with a soft breeze that could chill anyone's nose. It's not exactly the winters of Chicago which he's grateful for. Sure, he misses the snow up to his knees sometimes, but he can do without it. He prefers how it is here, and Christmas is celebrated the same-ish around the states. Lights, trees, decorations everywhere. Here is no different - even with a bit of a touch he's placed himself.

❝ Hey, Julie...❞ he motions her over. ❝ Come here...❞ and when she's close enough he looks up and points. ❝ Do you know what this is? ❞ he asks as though he's clueless to the mistletoe hanging from the ceiling beam. But before she can answer he leans in and kisses Julie softly on the corner of her lips with a big grin.

Then he shrugs , being cute. ❝ It told me to do it, I swear.❞

Send '🌿' to meet my muse under the mistletoe @wachtraeumen ft. Julie

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𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 ; 𝐯𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐛𝐞. For some it's joyous, for others it's hectic, for most it's quiet, and for the very few it's just a time of year. Here at Gaffney it's a mix of all of those except for one. They never say that word because it's going to cause a cascade of problems. Tonight is one of those nights where no one mentions it but they welcome the slow pace of the night.

However -- he hasn't really had a moment with Elyse. True, it's mostly on him. Not only is he working, he's plotting and planning. Going up and down the halls he's humming the song 'Even a Miracle Needs a Hand' from one of his favorite animated holiday films. Just so nonchalant, happy, lost in his own mind.

But he's been missing his girl, so when he passes by her he stops and takes steps back. ❝ Hey, hey...❞ he takes her hand and pulls her close. ❝ Come here. ❞ he pulls her along to a spot and wraps his arms around her. ❝ I'm sorry I haven't stopped by to say hi today. ❞ he doesn't give an explanation. ❝ But something demands I make it up to you. ❞ he points upward and smiles to the mistletoe. Then, he leans in and kisses Elyse softly.

❝ Forgive me? ❞

Send '🌿' to meet my muse under the mistletoe @traumabraved

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Welcome to 2025 ! send me a 🎤 + a number (between 1-200) or just 🎤 for random, and I will make a random starter from My Favorites of 2024 playlist on Spotify !

It's like Wrapped, but I actually chose the songs that'd go on it :D

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I'm cleaning out my folders, and I figured I'd upload the tattoo that Tyler has, which is this lovely tattoo, it's on his left bicep.

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T'was the night before Christmas And all through Gaffney The interns were stirring Some patients? Asleep The hallways were decked With stockings and lights But between all the halls it was too (we don't say that word ) It felt like something wasn't quiet right.

Doctor Brendan paced A little lost in thought Burning a hole in his pocket A gift he bought.

He waited for the moment As right as could be And when the time came He'd nod to Maggie. ---

He had been planning this, which is why he's now avoiding his girlfriend, Elyse. Of course he knew he couldn't do so all night, but if he saw her he might cave and every moment of perfect planning would be thrown out the window. And yes, it's the cheesiest thing he's ever done, but it's done with feeling.

Glancing at Maggie as everyone seems to now be gathered close by, and then notices Elyse walking in he gives her the go ahead. Maggie then nods to someone else. And then, music fills the air. Starts off with Taylor Swift's "Lover". And it's not just music playing. It's people acting, dancing, singing. There are those who are not participating in this which it doesn't take a genius to know who isn't, but for the most part anyone asked is involved.

From the song Lover, to Love Story, Paper Rings. People dancing extravagantly to each one. Even with some singing off key along to Taylor's vocals. The songs were playing over loud speakers that brought some patients -- especially kids -- down to see what was going on. It ends with the song you're in love. In which Tyler walks over to Elyse to offer his hand and he pulls her in. A dance in front of everyone, slow as he has his hand on the small of her back, the other cupping her hand as they sway to the melody. A slow turn of her before pulling her back in.

As the song come to the bridge, Tyler stops the dancing and reaches into his pocket. Onto one knee he falls as he looks up at Elyse. The ever cocky and confident doctor at everything in his life clearly has the look of excitement and uncertainty on his face as he looks to the woman he loves, opening the box he holds in his hand. Coated in velvet, the inside with silk. Within, a token of his love and adoration for the nurse who had gone from friend to lover, to someone he simply cannot live without.

❝ Elyse Brooks ... I know you probably could have done without this display, but I wanted to make this as fun as possible, and I wanted everyone here involved. For a long time I thought love was just a game. That I'd probably never find the real thing which is why I never looked. I had no idea that coming back to Chicago it'd find me. You're someone who calls me out on my shit, the first to comfort me when I hit a low, the first to congratulate me or celebrate with me a high. And you never questioned my goofy...❞ he chuckles a bit. ❝ as a trauma surgeon, I hate accidents...except when we went from friends to this...❞ okay yeah he had to quote some Taylor in here somewhere, right? ❝ I know I can be a lot to handle, but I think I finally found someone who doesn't tolerate me, but can handle me and love me. At my best, at my worst , and I hope for the rest of my life.

Will you marry me ? ❞

@traumabraved

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❝ Put me in the back of your car and we'll start a verbal flirtation. I'm doing tax fraud and arson so take me down to your station.❞

@traumabraved sent 🎁 and the number 1 for Elyse Song: Daddy Cop Artist : Zander Hawley

( I can't believe you did this to me XD )

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❝ I'm just a sucker for pain. ❞ no explanation, and yet it seems something very Tyler to say in the moment.

@gravdefy sent 🎁 for Kelly Song: Sucker for Pain Artist : Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa, Imagine Dragons