trustonlymoon

[trustonlymoon]

My body confesses to you all the time: with eyes that soften when you are near, with hands that twitch with the greedy need to keep you close, with lips that smile a little too wide and laugh a little too loud.

[trustonlymoon]

Chi cheng : "Stop being cute."

Weiwei : "Stop being grumpy."

Forever shipping the grumpy x sunshine duo to get together.

[trustonlymoon]

Tell me if you ever cared, if a single thought for me was spared.

Tell me when you lie in bed, do you think of something I once said.

Tell me if you hurt at all, when someone says my name with yours.

It may have been so long ago, but I would give the world to know. ( Chi cheng's pov ).

Chi Cheng breaking down hit so hard because he's not the type to cry. He's headstrong, always composed, always holding it in. So for him to sob like that? You know the trauma ate him alive. That scene shattered me.

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You like to drive me crazy and I like to drive you wild. There isn't a button you haven't pushed and no provocation I've left unanswered no matter how mild. This tension between us - it's impossible to miss. We could cut it with a knife, but wouldn't you rather do it with a kiss?

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thank you to the ancient plants that turned into coal which powered the electricity that lit up the room where his parents first locked eyes and unknowingly triggered the prequel to the boombayah level event that was his birth..

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When they said, "I love you," but Chi Cheng never gave up on Da bao. He killed his favorite snake to save Da bao. He sold his expensive car to Da Bao at a low price. He bought new beddings for Da Bao when he noticed he needed it. he bought dabao lots of fine fabricated underwears by himself. He yearned for Da Bao's cookies. When Da Bao got scammed, Chi Cheng helped him get his money back. He gave his credit card to Da Bao to fund his business ideas. He changed his bad behaviors for Da Bao. He always sent gifts to Da Bao's mom without Da bao knowing. When Da Bao said the cigarettes were good, Chi Cheng bought him more cartons. He even quit smoking in front of Da Bao to prove how much he loved and cherished him.

[trustonlymoon]

You don't truly love someone until they've hurt you and you still think of them as the greatest person in the world.

Love is the most violent act.

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and when he kissed me I realised I had been numb my whole life just waiting for the touch of warmth in the midst of an endless winter thawing just enough to feel this could finally be the start of springtime ~

[trustonlymoon]

"He had not touched me. He did not need to. His presence had affected me in such a way that I felt as if he had caressed me for a long time."

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~ It wasn't about anything so shallow as physical desire. They wanted each other in the way of flesh wanting to knit itself together over a wound.

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~ in loving me you hold a knife at my throat. in loving you I tell you exactly where to cut.

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Why so many grievances about the dried flowers on my stone,

when the entire cemetery is mine?

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Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace."

(The Bell Jar)

[trustonlymoon]

making sure no one was left out only to realise I was the one being left out. Making sure evryone is comfortable only to realise I was the one who was uncomfortable all this time. Making sure evryone is valued only to realise I was the one who was taken for granted. Making sure evryone was heard only to realise I had nothing to say when it was my turn to talk .

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In your whole life nobody has ever abused you more than you have abused yourself. And the limit of your self-abuse is exactly the limit that you will tolerate from someone else. If someone abuses you a little more than you abuse yourself, you will probably walk away from that person. But if someone abuses you a little less than you abuse yourself, you will probably stay in the rela- tionship and tolerate it endlessly.

- Don Miguel Ruiz, Janet Mills The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom

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"As long as this exists," I thought,

"this sunshine and this cloudless sky,

and as long as I can enjoy it, how can I be sad?"

- Anne Frank// the diary of a young girl

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"I wasn't heroic. I wasn't simple. I was difficult.

An emotionally challenging puzzle he wasn't up

for solving."

- Verity// Collen Hoover