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i  am  raised  by  wolves  and  showing   .         an  independent  multi - muse  blog,     released  by  mowgli.

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i  am  raised  by  wolves  and  showing   .         an  independent  multi - muse  blog,     released  by  mowgli.

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hello friendly reminder to vaccinate ur animals. uwu.

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so i hate to do this but uhhh

khepri [ riegastrung / exaltears / exaltborne / bxstiae ] is racist, ableist, and transphobic. i have written a document detailing the shit he’s said here. 

obviously like, don’t go harassing him or anything, and this isn’t me trying to tell u who you can / can’t interact with, but i think it’s important for people to know. 

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                                                           listen  on  spotify  .

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based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

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wolfkept​:

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         “  this  seemed  more  romantic  in  my  head.  ”   a  thought  that  had  been  pondered  aloud  as  his  eyes  lamely  looked  around  the  at  the  scene  he’d  thought  he’d  beautifully  created.   a  rug  he’d  borrowed from  clothesline  he’d  walked  by  was  thrown  on  the  ground,   two  cushions  he’d  made  from  some  pillow  cases  &  stray  appa  hair  also  joined  the  fray  along  with  a  basket  of  food  he’d  managed  to  scrounge  from  various  places  around  the  city.  sokka  had  always  heard  of  people  going  on  picnics,  never  seen  it  done  in  practise.  he  thought  this  would  have  been  some  grand  romantic  gesture,  letting  yue  know  just  how  much he  cared  for  her  but…  it  just  looked  like  a  rug  on  the  ground  and  a  poor  attempt  at  upholstering.

      “  sorry  princess.  probably  not  the  standard  you’re  used  to.  ”   downtrodden,  sokka  let  his  head  &  and  shoulders  fall. “  don’t  really  know  what  a  picnic  is  meant  to  be  but  i  feel  like  this  isn’t  quite right.  ”    however  always  the  optimist  that  he  tried  to  be,  sokka  perked  himself  up  &  held  his  hand  out  to  her  with  a  smile  softer  than  it  should  have  been. “   can’t  blame  a  dude  for  trying  though!   care  to  join  me?  ”

her  chest  swells.        warmth  swirling  up  her  frame  until  it  settles  on  her  cheeks  in  a  flush.         expectations  could  be  deadly,      a  lesson  she’d  learned  quickly   -   and  as  such,      the  princess  had  learned  to  temper  her  own.        never  wanting  for  more  than  what  she  was  given,      never  expecting  the  extra  mile.        but  everything  sokka  did  exceeded  them,      no  matter  how  tattered  or  worn  the  scene  may  have  looked.        

oh,     how  could  she  possibly  be  disappointed  when  the  effort  is  there,     resting  on  a  borrowed  rug  and  carved  into  the  curve  of  his  smile?        "      it  may  not  be  right,      but  it's   . . .      "        more  than  hahn  had  ever  cared  for  doing,      in  all  the  time  that  they’d  known  each  other.        a  mitten  covered  hand  slips  free  from  her  fur  lined  sleeve,      reaching  out  and  clasping  onto  sokka’s  hand  as  she  steps  onto  the  rug.        “      wonderful,      and  sweet.      ”        much  like  he  was,      there  was  no  denying  the  way  goodness  radiated  off  of  him   -   filled  the  air  around  him  with  a  gentle  hum  of  benevolence.        yue  had  thought  her  future  fated  already,      deigned  herself  to  the  life  her  father  had  chosen  for  her   . . .   but  sokka  made  it  hard  to  want  that;      when  adventure  and  spark  rested  just  on  the  tips  of  her  fingers.        “      what’s  on  the  menu  for  this  romantic  picnic,      anyway?      ”   

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me  reading  the  theory  about  yue  being  the  next  avatar  if  aang  hadn’t  been  refrigerated  for  a  hundred  years  ?? 

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i  am  slowly  dipping  my  toes  back  into  activity,      so   …   this  is  a  call  for  my  overwatch  muses.        i.e.   ashe,   brigitte,   &   d.va  !!        let  me  know  who  you’d  like  a  starter  from   -   and  who  it  should  be  for,   if  you’re  a  multi  as  well  !! 

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i  am  slowly  dipping  my  toes  back  into  activity,      so   . . .   this  is  a  call  for  my  overwatch  muses.        i.e.   ashe,   brigitte,   &   d.va  !!        let  me  know  who  you’d  like  a  starter  from   -   and  who  it  should  be  for,   if  you’re  a  multi  as  well  !! 

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, ohey.

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❛ if it gets too bad , give me a signal ❜ ( neville from hermione )

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“      hermione,      i   -      ”        dunno  if  he  can  do  this.        trembling  fingers  and  hands,      neville’s  form  of  bravery  has  never  been  the  same  as  the  others.        doesn’t  manifest  in  the  great  feats  of  harry,      the  cleverness  of  hermione,      the  sheer  force  of  ron.        he’s  just  neville,      and  the  fact  that  he’s  been  included  this  time  does  little  to  ease  his  worry;      because  what  if  he  can’t  protect  them?        what  if  he’s  the  reason  they  all  end  up  dead?        he’s  not  certain  he  could  ever  forgive  himself  for  being  the  catalyst  for  such  an  ending,      and  that  alone  makes  the  tremors  in  his  hands  grow  worse.        his  gran  would  never  forgive  him  for  the  fear  that’s  set  deep  into  his  heart,      would  never  speak  to  him  again  if  he  did  what  his  head  told  him  and  ran.        so  he  wipes  sweaty  palms  onto  the  denim  of  his  jeans  and  reaffirms  to  grip  his  wand  a  little  tighter,      squeeze  away  the  shakes  as  if  that’s  the  answer  to  all  of  his  problems.

he  inhales  a  deep  breath,      presses  his  mouth  into  a  thin  line  before  he  manages  to  nod      . . .      find  a  question  to  ease  the  ever  growing  tension,      “      what  kind  of  signal?        like   -      ”      a  free  hand  moves  to  touch  a  finger  to  his  nose,      and  then  his  eyes  cross,      tongue  sticking  out  of  his  mouth.        “     that?        or  were  you  thinkin’   somethin’   more  verbal?      like,      oi,     that’s  my  pumpkin  pasty,      you  twit!      ”        there’s  a  smile  on  his  lips,      placed  there  because  it  should  be   -   not  because  he  feels  like  smiling,     not  because  this  is  a  time  for  jokes  and  easy  conversations.        but  because  his  friends  need  him,      and  neville  needs  them  to  believe  he’s  capable  of  the  small  part  he’s  been  handed  in  their  plans.        even  if  he  isn’t  nearly  as  confident  in  himself.

“      you’re  sure  about  this  ??      ”        one  last  hesitation  as  neville  settles  back  against  the  cold  stone  of  the  wall  behind  him.        it’s  all  he  knows,      uncertainty  and  concern  for  the  world  around  him.        because  he’s  seen  first  hand  how  things  can  go,     how  those  he  loves  can  move  so  swiftly  from  alive  and  well  to  alive  and  no  longer  present.        “      just   -   you’re  absolutely  certain?     ”

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this fourth of july think of the indigenous people of america who had their country and land stolen from them with little to no reparations or apologies. land is still being taken. sacred grounds are still being ripped away. there is no “independence” for the people who were here first.

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new  psd   =   pretty  new  doc.        i’m  still  planning  to  do  quite  a  bit  of  writing  tomorrow  so  <3

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i  am  raised  by  wolves  and  showing   .         an  independent  multi - muse  blog,     released  by  mowgli.

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me,     vibin’   and  vibrating  bc  e100  of  cr  is  toNITE  BABEY. 

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Abigail Cowen.