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IM PISSED

The d0ctor is making me gain 10 £ in 4 weeks. I was so fucking excited, so happy with my we1ght... I got myself d0wn to 95 £!!!!! 95!!!!! But now shes being an idiot and insisting I have to g41n we1ght. Km$

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I really wanna km$ so fucking bad...

I cvt myself today, on my face. I drew a big line from my cheek to right below my eyebrow (through my eye) with a r4zor. I don't know why I did it. But I'm already so fucking hideous that I might as well make it worse. I'm so ugly that it actually hurts to look in the mirror, I can't stand my own revolting face... I just wanna d1e so fucking bad. The only reason I'm not de4d is because my cat would become homeless...

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I wanna kill myself. I wanna kill myself so bad just to see what happens. I wanna kill myself and turn into a ghost and see what everyone's reactions will be

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Me minus the hungry

Just feeling suicidal and hungry for snacks 😔😔

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i havent posted in a few days so hi again

i have exciting news! im getting invisalign! that means that when i eat I have to take the invisalign out and its a hassle. this is really gonna help me with fasting and limiting myself from eating! ill also have an excuse for not eating to the people around me!

this is pretty good news but everything else is not. im still struggling with fasting because im a stupid fat pig who doesnt know how to stop herself. im so disappointed in myself for being such a stupid fat idiot who cant even do anything right.

i really hate how fat and gross i am and how ugly i look in every picture ever. the ortho took a picture of me and i had to hold back how much i wanted to puke uncontrollably...

hopefully the invisalign will help me...

xoxo irene

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i wrote out an entire post and accidently exited. it didnt save. im gonna cry..

the gist of the post was that i hate my life and i hate everything and i also might have to get another job soon to pay for my nose job this summer (hopefully).

all that plus my collage application and essay is stressing me out.

not to mention i hate myself. my stomach is disgusting and my thighs are fat and gross. i wanna go to bed all day and wake up to being beutiful...

i dont have the energy to add tags...

xoxo irene

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today is halloween.. halloween means candy and sweets and everything that makes me fat and ugly.. my first class today was my ap art where we had a halloween party and i ate an entire cupcake and half a cookie.

i didn't eat breakfast this morning, i was doing so good. i wanna cry. i have no control over myself and its disgusting. i need to get myself to wake up..

everyone wore costumes to school today and so did i, my outfit has tights and its so repulsive how my thighs ooze out the top. my body is so gross, no one could love me like this...

im promising myselft right now that if i fast for the rest of the day ill reward myself with a nice bath or something

hopefully tomorrow is better

xoxo irene

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hiii!! my name is irene and this is my first post!! yay!

this is the beginning of my web diary~ im gonna try really hard to post every day! im trying this as a method to make me stick to my fasting!

the reason i made this account is because i went to the doctor today for an allergy test and they weighed me... i was so disgusted in my weight that i almost cried. i hadnt eaten anything yet that day either.. that was my "morning skinny".. with this account as motivation hopefully i can lose weight!!

xoxo irene