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Grabbed Bumbling Boatswain's coat. Kinda like this pairing better than Blue Bird Ult. Might be the fill-in for this outfit till I can get Dancing Performer's coat or just a whole different outfit in mind.

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I attended my first concert in Sky today. Aurora Homecoming. An absolutely amazing experience that had me emotionally wrecked the whole time. Trimmed down some recordings and got each song up on youtube too, which lead to making my first playlist on my channel. Go check 'em out if you'd like.

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I do hope you are okay, even if you never see this.

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Another year, another chance for me to wish you happy birthday! Even if it takes you a long time to see this, I hope you're given a lil sprinkle of joy on your birthday. Take care!

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} Honestly don't know if I ever will come back to this...

As much as I've been wanting to write, and ideas have been rattling around in my head, the motivation is just... gone, mostly. The times it comes back it just gets snuffed out practically instantly when I remember how things have been on here. Which also winds up just killing any muse I had in the process too. All together making my mood plummet without fail and feeling like shit the rest of the day.

A part of me wishes I could just say I'll be back sometime in the new year but... I really just don't feel like I can, or that there's any point. Nor do I want to just abandon these characters and try to make new ones again, since the same thing will just happen again with them. Another thing I used to enjoy so much just... snuffed out...

Feel free to unfollow...

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} yeah... still hurts even just opening tumblr

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} Chrysler

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} I'm sorry

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} As much as it hurts, I really should just announce an indefinite hiatus at this point.

I've had next to no muse or motivation whatsoever for weeks, and whenever I've come on here it's always just been an immediate mental and emotional drain. Between seeing stuff from people I wish I could still write with like we used to, but knowing we can't. Never seeing similar support as others have whenever things have been rough. And practically nothing ever being sent my way while essentially everything I've sent out has just been dropped. There's just too many negatives that drain me so damn quickly on here with my already heavily pessimistic mindset and all kinds of self-confidence and self-doubt issues.

After having been like this for the past few weeks... I really don't know when I'll be able to return, let alone if I ever will. I don't want to just drop this blog and these characters either, though, cause like I've said before I've never been more happy with the characters I've written in the past as I have been with these ones. Which is why everything that's happened and just gotten worse and worse throughout the year for most of them has hit so damn hard.

That and I'm really tired of trying to start again from scratch only for the same cycle to repeat itself. This whole thing has just happened again and again on every single blog I've had for the past decade. Which makes it hard to believe it'll ever change honestly.

Gonna do a little bit of cleanup on discord too, try and just narrow things down to the people I actually still talk to. If you've read this far, have me on discord, and we've not talked in a while but you still want to keep me on there, just send a message my way on there.

If I post anything else after this, I'll be trying to keep it to my personal, which is a side-blog, so things might wind up on here from time-to-time cause of Tumblr's dumb system.

I'm sorry.

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} really wanting to write and do rps again

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} this really fucking sucks cause I have things rattling around in my mind, ideas to write down, a story post in mind, and changes to things for muses

I just can't find the motivation to do any of it and the times I look at the dash when the mood's at the very least somewhat present, it just winds up dying out as I scroll

I want to be more present on here, to keep writing, to enjoy roleplaying again so badly

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} still around, if anyone was wondering

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Kyuushi has a Tattoo on her back, think Yakuza Family style kinda thing, but the way I currently have it right now is that it's a sorta messy, unclear amalgamation of different things from her travels and experiences in other Realms with some aspects of it in invisible ink that can only be seen in blacklight/Foxfire light

like I said before, of all the things to come to mind character-wise this entire week cause of getting to see Vi's tattoo better, I kinda wanna change it

The only real thought for it I currently have right now is that the Grand Tori would be a prominent aspect, it's pillars spanning the height of her back and it's top crossing her shoulders, with all the other bits fit within and around it, likely still with the invisible ink additions, just no idea what beyond that

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} of all the things that could've been the first thing to come to mind muse-wise in this entire damned week is thoughts on changing Kyuushi's Tattoo on her back

all cause we got to see Vi's back tattoo more clearly in Arcane Season 2 Act 3