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concept playlist IX; of heartaches, heartbreaks, reminiscing in memories and summer skies

list of my other playlists here

vague reminiscing and nostalgia from your memories: you've probably heard a song from a cheesy romance movie you watched as a kid, or from a cd that you've forgotten and misplaced by now. you can't remember what memory it's from, but it brings you to a simpler time and there's a part of you that misses it all.

to seeking comfort quietly and giving your melancholy self a tight hug: for the thoughts you don't want to share, where you find you don't quite fit in the world right now, where you want to disappear, to fade away for just a moment. but you're trying, you're still trying, and that's something (and i'm here for you).

travelling to a destination of sunny skies and infinite ocean blues: it's the freedom of not having anything holding you back as you have the world at your fingertips. this is the moment you come to realize that for all the bad days you have, it's given you a newfound love for all the days that are good.

learning to be okay with only half your soul: your life is made of memories, of souls sharing pieces of each other. but no one has ever told you of what happens after, when you are left with only half your soul and wishing for something you'll never get back. maybe one day you can look at your past fondly without it hurting so much.

the heartachingly splendor of a queer summer: to the summer with moments where you are freely shouting song lyrics while pretending not to care. you're enjoying them as they are, loving life as it is and having fun even with all the heart breaks and heart aches along the way

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concept playlist IX; of heartaches, heartbreaks, reminiscing in memories and summer skies

list of my other playlists here

vague reminiscing and nostalgia from your memories: you've probably heard a song from a cheesy romance movie you watched as a kid, or from a cd that you've forgotten and misplaced by now. you can't remember what memory it's from, but it brings you to a simpler time and there's a part of you that misses it all.

to seeking comfort quietly and giving your melancholy self a tight hug: for the thoughts you don't want to share, where you find you don't quite fit in the world right now, where you want to disappear, to fade away for just a moment. but you're trying, you're still trying, and that's something (and i'm here for you).

travelling to a destination of sunny skies and infinite ocean blues: it's the freedom of not having anything holding you back as you have the world at your fingertips. this is the moment you come to realize that for all the bad days you have, it's given you a newfound love for all the days that are good.

learning to be okay with only half your soul: your life is made of memories, of souls sharing pieces of each other. but no one has ever told you of what happens after, when you are left with only half your soul and wishing for something you'll never get back. maybe one day you can look at your past fondly without it hurting so much.

the heartachingly splendor of a queer summer: to the summer with moments where you are freely shouting song lyrics while pretending not to care. you're enjoying them as they are, loving life as it is and having fun even with all the heart breaks and heart aches along the way

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Photo taken by m.aquarium_love This is Hama-Chan getting all dressed up! Doesn't she look cute? She lives at Kyoto Aquarium in Japan. ( ᵔꈊᵔ )

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love pinning discord messages its like hanging them on the fridge

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Writing advice from my uni teachers:

If your dialog feels flat, rewrite the scene pretending the characters cannot at any cost say exactly what they mean. No one says “I’m mad” but they can say it in 100 other ways.

Wrote a chapter but you dislike it? Rewrite it again from memory. That way you’re only remembering the main parts and can fill in extra details. My teacher who was a playwright literally writes every single script twice because of this.

Don’t overuse metaphors, or they lose their potency. Limit yourself.

Before you write your novel, write a page of anything from your characters POV so you can get their voice right. Do this for every main character introduced.

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concept playlist VIII; of lost love and jumping into the unknown, of a heartbroken love before it's even begun

list of my other playlists here

overlooking the city cast in a warm summer glow: sitting on the roof of a building in the neighbourhood you grew up in, you speak of nothing and everything with your close friend, showing them the new you, the real you. maybe this time you'll say something, or… maybe not right now, not when you're both not ready to face each other's feelings.

travelling down to the underworld to bring them back: you sing to the gods of your loving sorrow, of their untimely demise as they weep about your truth. given a second chance, you lead them back to the surface but as you hear their broken yearning, you are compelled to look back, to prove your love, only for them to be taken by the abyss once more.

wanting to give your love but it's not meant to be: it is unfortunate circumstances, it is the way the pieces fall, of feelings that do not match, of the way your lines converge with theirs once only to never touch again. they already have your love, but they will never know that. it is the hard lesson of learning that you will never be together.

building a broken bridge on haunted sorrows and fears to be together: you have your demons, they have theirs. and yet despite all of it, there is a connection you hold onto, even as their sword digs into your skin, even as you are bled dry by them. you will always go back to them, because they are your solace and your heartache, a mirror of the love you can only give.

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gotta pay respects to one of my og mullet guys

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his fav cone

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Definitely one of the Top Images of all time I gotta say

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some pdfs are dusty. this is a fact despite their lack of physicality. you understand

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Italian currasier’s close helmet, circa 1620.

from Hermann Historica

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i avoid printers at all costs but deep down i think i should've been a printer. life so easy. i sit there all squarelike and when someone has a minor task for me i goFUCK YOU

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Spheal on the beach, what will they do??

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My mom's boyfriend built a little bluetooth/AM converter for me and now I can make my beautiful 1937 Truetone play any music I want

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Kaeya's new outfit Sailwind Shadow