vkay89

[vkay89]

My first post.

It’s only started to sink in recently that I, yes, ME! I AM GOING TO BE A DAD.

When my adorable partner and I sat there waiting for the little “Pee-stick of destiny” to determine our future, I had a million thoughts and more running through my head. If it’s positive, will I be happy? Will I be a good dad? Will I be able to handle the responsibility of raising a human being to go off into the world and hopefully contribute to society? Most importantly, Will I be able to give my love unconditionally and provide for my Family?

Now I know, If I wasn’t prepared for this I should have been using protection thoroughly. The weird thing is, I think I am Ready. I can’t think of anyone else I’d rather spend the rest of my life with. To raise a human being with.

My partner is an amazing, thoughtful, caring and very much a “what you see is what you get” type of person. An example if I may, for our first valentines day together, she knew I saved up all the train tickets from the trips back and forth to her place and mine. So she went and got a customized metal train ticket with the destination and price and everything else all customized in to a cute little message. 

There is many other examples, but this one really stands out to me. Shes selfless, constantly putting herself out there to help people that she can (Except her younger brother, sibling loves a hell of a thing).

This is the woman I want to raise my children, to wake up and fall asleep next to everyday.

So yes, I think I am ready. Long winded explanation, I know. But it’s all relevant, and this blog is going to be a long winded story of my Journey to the center of the birth, and Dad-hood.

The journey to the 12 week scan was fun. My partner hasn’t had any pregnancy symptoms yet, except tiredness. Where as someone else we know thats pregnant and a couple weeks behind us is going through the absolute WARS. I do feel sorry for her.

I think that I have experienced cravings. Lasagne. Of all the things I could crave, Chocolate, crisp, anything. It had to be something I barely eat. But sometimes thats the way it goes. And I know what you’re thinking, how do I get pregnancy symptoms when I’m not pregnant myself. And I was very skeptical at first also, but from the limited research I’ve done (Read: Google for 5 minutes) It’s very much a thing. And aparanately when I was inside my mothers womb, my Dad was going through some very heavy morning sickness. Which I think is quite amusing.

At this point in the pregnancy, I have to admit, me and Megan have had one or two disagreements on what she can and can’t eat. This was also due to my very expertly conducted research (Read: Google again, sorry). The whole cheesecake event is something we will always remember when talking about this pregnancy, that’s for sure. Also a quick side note, Antony was the one that brought this up, and had he not said anything, this event wouldn’t have even happened. 

Tip #1: Guys, Don’t google too much stuff during pregnancy, it will cause some heated discussions and moody partners. Trust me, finding out that she could actually eat cheesecake after refunding it and having her “scowl of doom” aimed at me was quite annoying.

On to the first scan.

So, let me start by saying our 12 week scan was an emotional day. The moment that screen started displaying our little “nugget” as she calls it, my eyes started to act as if someone had used an industrial sized cutter to simultaneously chop and dice 5,000 onions. In other words, I teared up a little bit.

Seeing the heart beating. Seeing what I can only describe as overly dramatic hiccups. Seeing the little nuggets arms and legs moving. It truly was a feeling and moment I will absolutely never forget. 

Megan on the other hand was a little upset that she barely got to see anything, and had the nurse tugging her trousers down quite roughly. I think she enjoyed the warmth of the gel though from what I could see.

Everything turned out fine, baby looked healthy. Limbs all in the right places, head nice and round, moving. A relief. I had quite the nerves on the lead up to the first scan. Just wishing that everything was ok, and that it’s all good news on this day thats mean’t to be a joyous occasion.

We found out our due date: January the 12th.

We had 4 pictures of the baby printed off. One to her parents, One to my parents, and one each to show off to whoever we need to. And when Megan reads this, I want her to know that I told a few people, but I really did try to keep it under wraps. I’m Just ExcitttttedDDD!

Since then it’s been quite uneventful. Just what seems like an endless browse and refresh of zoopla looking for a place to move in together. Oh and the mood swings. How could I almost forget about the hormonal mood swings. It’s not her fault, the body goes through changes during pregnancy that us men could never even begin to imagine. I really don’t know how she does it but she’s strong. 

I get it. Trust me, I get it. There is nothing I can do to help her either. I just have to sit there helpless and be patient. It sucks to know you can’t help the woman you love. But it will pass and things will be ok.

This is all I have at the moment, I will check in again soon with an update.