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i want this rage to stay. i want it to grow and turn to hate. i want it to always remind me of what they did. i don't want to lose it. i don't want it to fade. i don't want to accept things as they are and live normally. i don't want to live in peace like what they've done was okay. i want this rage to stay even if it will kill me. i don't want to forgive them anymore. i'm done forgiving them when they don't even realize what's wrong. i don't want to become like her. they've already taken so much from me. I'm not going to let them take that rage too. i am what you made me. i may have lost the parents i never had to begin with, but you will lose the daughter you had by your side all these years. you will lose me like i lost you and you will regret it. because you deserve nothing but that.

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girls when they're addicted to loneliness and desperation it's the strongest emotion they have ever known so their subconscious tells them it's their destiny

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this body is not a home

jody chan sick (via @geryone) \ edward hopper interior, model reading (1925) \ olivia laing the lonely city (via @soracities) \ joan didion on self-respect (via @girlfictions) \ dion palinckx (2019) \ james tate selected poems (via @heartshop) \ @artofbrianluong​ \ olivia laing the lonely city (via @soracities​) \ edvard munch self-portrait in hell

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“You’re [a] monster. But so am I—which is why I can’t turn away from you.”

— Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous: A Novel

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i don’t understand how i crave and dislike intimacy at the same time

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it absolutely kills me that i'll never get back all those years i lost to mental illness and that there will even be more to add to the tally !!!!! i'll never get to be a teenager again i'll always think abt these years sick to my stomach !!! my mourning will never stop

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Dude I love your blog. I'm a big fan of the cries for help

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reblog if ur rotting right now!!!!

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“I don’t know how many times I’ve survived myself, without telling anyone else.”

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im so scared the rest of my life is gonna feel like this

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“There is nothing quite like that moment you realize you can never turn back.”

— the child you once were is dead

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i don’t understand how i crave and dislike intimacy at the same time