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cleaning my room when suddenly i want to cry, everything is overstimulating, i want to explode, i want to be held, i don’t want anyone to touch me, i want to be reassured, i don’t want to be reassured

what is going on

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The weirdest proof that the world is just uniquely cruel to people with trauma is the fact that I've met so many chronically ill people who relate to the notion that it was once they started fixing their mental illnesses and improving as a person that they suddenly developed their chronic illnesses that set them back permanently

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sometimes i feel like a coward while bruising myself because im scared i'll break a bone.

i mean it always sounds alluring BUT THATS THE HAND I DRAW WITH, I CANT BREAK THAT

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I love bruising myself so much. They don't have as immediate results but nobody EVER questions it. Maybe "oh how'd your get that bruise" but that's it. I can do it so easy, just punch myself hard enough, or hit my arm on something hard enough. Other times I can just hit a heavy spoon on me or something, it's so easy, easy to hide, easier to do, lasts a decent amount of time, doesn't scar, can do it almost anywhere on your body, can be done in any place, plus it's that good kinda pain.

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I can’t fucking emotionally regulate right now and rubbing my bruises aren’t fucking helping. I’m gonna fucking scream.

I need to feel more pain in order to calm the fuck down before i lose my god damn shit.

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wanna relapse so fucking bad

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"well your blood work looks fine" WELL THERES STILL SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME??

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sure

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I needed this meme to exist for reasons.

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A doodle one of us made as a visual aid to help compare with another system how it feels like it works

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“who’s the evil alter” about to be me if you don’t shut yo ass up

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DID IS NOT RARE DID IS NOT RARE DID IS NOT RARE DID IS NOT RARE DID IS NOT-

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Oh Wow!! My symptom (amnesia) of my disorder (DID) is getting worse!! But because it’s getting worse (I’m forgetting things more) I obviously must be faking (I’m just forgetting my symptoms)!!

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trauma so bad my coping mechanisms have names and pronouns

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Oh, so when they get spoken to by a god in their head they're a "prophet" and "will lead us to salvation," but when I get spoken to by a god in my head I have "DID" and "should go to therapy."

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i think plurality needs like an upgrade where i can take pictures in headspace and upload them to my actual phone here, so I can show people what the duck everything looks like without having to type it all out.