waifering

[waifering]

I love feeling empty

I love my stomach growling

I love not stuffing myself

[waifering]

[waifering]

The cognitive dissonance between thinking fat women are gorgeous and desirable and not despite their fatness but because of it and also thinking that i deserve punishment for being fat and would rather be dead than stay this way is truly whiplash inducing.

[waifering]

[waifering]

Ed logic is binging on 3000+ calories and STILL being petrified of non diet drinks. Even when I completely lose control I still never touch a full fat coke 😭

[waifering]

I started taking a stimulant far burner before work and I'm feeling melancholic so fast lmfao

[waifering]

I need more than anything to be so thin that Im beautiful and creepy and ethereal and fragile and unsettling and strange and worrisome like a cryptid or a faery you’d hate to encounter alone in the woods at midnight. That’s all I want to be.

[waifering]

what doesn't kill you makes you stay on tumblr for 13 years and counting

[waifering]

Minors DNI/Block me

HW: 115.6kg

CW: 112kg

UGW: 56kg

[waifering]

Low cal foods I've been loving lately

Mama Clear Bean Thread Soup - 140kcal/1 pack

chewy instant noodles with decent volume, pair it with bone broth for protein and a full feeling for like 195kcal. plus gluten free, not that I care

Chicken Bone Broth - 45kcal 9g protein/240ml

I drink this shit on it's own or use it as a base for like every soup for tons of protein.

Quorn meatless pieces - 130kcal 17g protein 6g fiber/100g

protein and fiber and honestly decent volume. rlly good with sauces like soy or low cal sweet n sour.

Bibigo mini chicken and veg wontons - 260kcal 11g protein 2g fiber/13 pieces

these are so good, especially in like broth with miso and soy sauce? I usually only eat lie 6-7 at a time tho

[waifering]

simultaneously deeply sad that my little sister died while dieting to lose just 10 more lbs and also terrified I could die like I am, fat,