wavykingofabby

[wavykingofabby]

I Am Sorry..

If you hearing this right now then I'm probably dead Or possibly layin' up in a hospital bed Reflecting on shit I've caused and probably said Not a drinker, but I could use a shot to the head Or four to the chest, a rope to the neck Trynna balance my personal battle, copin' with stress Hope for the best, holdin' my breath You souls waited for my tombstone before you showed me respect Lord knows the way it goes, they don't love you 'til you die Swearin' up and down that they were runnin' by your side Could've let it slide but I'm probably not alive And if I am then you probably won't proceed with the lies Notice eyes full of tears and they got me so fed up I hope to communicate from wherever I end up The love you givin' now that I'm gone got me heated If only I received it when breathing

I said I'm sorry I didn't make it I got surrounded by my sorrows and they shake it I tried to roll with every punch but couldn't take it I got to feel the realest pain and they'd replace it I said I'm sorry I didn't make it I'm not a crier but these tears I couldn't fake it I gave my heart and tasted love and then they break it I'm sorry I just hope I ain't mistake it, yeah

Felt like no one can feel me, uh

Wishin' someone would kill me, uh

Walk around with this damage, they take advantage once I reveal me, uh

All this baggage 'cause they see cabbage instead of seeing the real me, uh

All this baggage from all the damage that came

Can somebody heal me? uh

I just wanted embrace, but it's hard to let people near me, aye

And I beef with myself, to the point I'm startin' to fear me, aye

Screamin' out for assistance, but it's like nobody hear me, aye

In a room full of people, still feel like the only one here b, aye

I been talkin' to God, really hoping for guidance

But I can't see his signs, my eyes been burnin' from crying

And that's the part (I'm on dyin'?), no

And as I'm laying here dyin'

I notice nobody's with me, not even the ones I confide in

Ammo made for me confiding to you it's a shame

That my last ride'd to be ridin' with you

This is something that I sat down and decided to do

And I'm sorry but there ain't no way that I'm gonna move

[wavykingofabby]

I’m Sorry

I said I’m sorry I didn’t make it I got surrounded by my sorrows and they shake it I tried to roll with every punch but couldn’t take it I got to feel the realest pain and they’d replace it I said I’m sorry I didn’t make it I’m not a crier but these tears I couldn’t fake it I gave my heart and tasted love and then they break it I’m sorry I just hope I ain’t mistake it, yeah

I wasn’t braver Sorry I wasn’t stronger I’m sorry I didn’t wait to see if it would go on longer I’m sorry I didn’t feel like there’d be a better tomorrow I’m sorry I let you keep love I should’ve let you borrow I’m sorry for all the memories and taking up your time Sorry I wasted yours and I’m sorry you wasted mine I’m sorry I didn’t fight more I’m sorry for your tears I’m sorry I was a burden in the time that I was here I’m sorry you have to see me in this battered up condition I’m sorry if my decision puts you in a bad position I’m sorry if I- I’m sorry if I hurt you I’m sorry if this wasn’t my greatest action of virtue I’m sorry you lookin’ at me with a sadness in your heart I’m sorry I didn’t tell you all I wanted to depart I’m sorry you think it’s dumb I’m sorry for being numb I’m sorry I wanted all of you and ain’t settle for some I’m sorry you gotta hear me like this You hear me like this? I’m sorry I ain’t a hero you can’t cheer me like this I’m sorry if I brought you any stresses to ya mind I’m sorry I couldn’t survive in the battle against mine I’m sorry I ain’t consider y'all feelings while on the brink I’m sorry I couldn’t grow because the pains are making me shrink I’m sorry I was too prideful to ever go see a shrink I’m sorry I never took the time to figure what you think I’m sorry for being out for myself for once with my choice I’m sorry this is the last time you’ll probably hear my voice I’m sorry if you hear this and can’t handle that I’m gone I’m sorry I had these thoughts and took them further beyond I’m sorry if I’m still here, I caused you all to worry I’m sorry that I wanna make my exit in a hurry I’m sorry I can’t handle the most simple of emotions I’m sorry I don’t bounce back and get things into motion I’m sorry that I failed myself and let y'all down I’m sorry all I want to do is forget y'all now I’m sorry I’m always sorry I’m sorry for saying sorry I’m sorry it’s always sorry I’m sorry for staying sorry Tell me I’m weak Tell me I’m selfish Tell me I’m about to find out what Hell is Tell me I mattered to you and it’s all a mistake Tell me everything you wanted ‘til you blue in the face Tell me how bad it hurts, you love me, and that you mean it Tell me all that bullshit until you start to believe it Tell me God’s pissed 'cause I played with my life Tell me how you hope it’s a dream and that it ain’t right Tell me how you wished that we’d go for another ride Tell me how you wished that you could look me in the eyes Tell me how you care 'bout these feelings I chose to hide Tell me all the things that you ain’t said when I was alive Give me the love that I wanted while I was tryin’ Give me the touch that I needed while I was cryin’ Give me the roses that I’ll never get to smell Give me the hashtag while I try to avoid Hell And as I lay here and bleed by myself I think about a life where I can be someone else So I’m goin’ into hopin’ next won’t be like this Sucks to know that I’m prolly gonna leave like this

I’m sorry.  

[wavykingofabby]

I'm sorry I'm always sorry I'm sorry for saying sorry I'm sorry it's always sorry I'm sorry for staying sorry

VI

[wavykingofabby]

Does this make me soft as a man? This is an "L" I'ma hold it.  Tired of being hopeless & making shitty people stay the closest. How pathetic am I, that I'm this torn up but can't fuckin show it. Cause I'm worried bout how ya'll think and what ya'll feel and all my opportunities blowing.  I think I need help.. or maybe I just gotta toughen up. Before I really start snapping and end up putting rounds to your bodies like a button-up Maybe I need a vacation.. Move back to my home state. Maybe I should give into the lil me, saying I should put a fucking gun to my face.  IDK who THE FUCK to talk to.  IDK who THE FUCK'S a homie. IDK who really cares or who want's me to open up just to be nosey.  IDK what to turn too.  IDK what'll help me cope.  IDK I don't fucking know, if I should even hold onto hope..

5:30am

[wavykingofabby]

I'm done wearing a mask. I'm done wearing a smile. I don't give a fuck if we talk or not. It's not like we have in a while.. It's not like it matters to ya'll. I couldn't be madder at ya'll. Cause I got this weird void in my heart from my younger me screaming: "I don't matter to ya'll!" I always tried to laugh it off Cause we been through so much, but after it all. . I don't know if I'm ever gonna rock witchu Even if I get plaques on the wall.

VI

[wavykingofabby]

I just want everybody to love me back the same way that I love them son. It feels like everybody that I fucking love is leaving me bruh.. & it's too much. It's too much, it's too much. It's not even like these are crocodile tears. This is REAL, son. This is REAL. This is fucking REAL. And I can't tell y'all. I can't tell y'all everything 'cause I don't wanna look like a fucking bitch. But this is what I be fucking going through, son

fml

[wavykingofabby]

I gotta stop giving permanent treatment to temporary people.

W.D

[wavykingofabby]

Chorus: One day, I might not make it back home.  Sometimes, the devil walks alone.  If you love me, you'll never let me go.  Just leave, the light on.  ONE DAY, I MIGHT NOT MAKE IT BACK HOME! SOMETIMES, THE DEVIL WALKS ALONE! IF YOU LOVE ME, YOU'LL NEVER LET ME GO! JUST LEAVE, THE LIGHT ON! Verse:  Maybe we don't know how To get ourselves the fuck out Of this position that we're in No difference if my job is done or I'm out Working on it You can see it all now Never wanted you to see that I'm down Had to go and break my hands out these cuffs And it breaks the past to break us, just saying.  Chorus: One day, I might not make it back home. Sometimes, the devil walks alone. If you love me, you'll never let me go. Just leave, the light on. ONE DAY, I MIGHT NOT MAKE IT BACK HOME! SOMETIMES THE DEVIL WALKS ALONE! IF YOU LOVE ME, YOU'LL NEVER LET ME GO! JUST LEAVE, THE LIGHT ON! Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4ixdpzos3E Don't sleep

Zero

[wavykingofabby]

Good intentions falling short, relationships are fading quicker. The same people talking down are counting on me to deliver. Shit is backwards but I know it's love. I see it's getting hard to think, and easier to judge. The attention we think we need is like a fucking drug. Chasing a high to feel alive, the world is goin numb, what have we become?  But that's alright, it's ok. We're shaking off these long nights and cold days. Ain't no way I'm lookin back now, even when it hurts to smile, I just turn the music loud, tune out and go ahead and let the feeling

Take Me Away

[wavykingofabby]

just once in my life i wanna get up in the morning without going through the full seven stages of grief first

[wavykingofabby]

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[wavykingofabby]

Yeah I fucked up a lot, still do. The difference between me & you is: I own my failures. Making excuses don't prove shit.

[wavykingofabby]

I got so much fuckin love to give and I spread that shit out to ones that don't deserve it. But never have in me to cease to love ya'll, no matter how much I sit here hurtin.

[wavykingofabby]

I got it buried in my god damn brain.. That family ain't shit if they don't act it... Our only connection is a last name..

[wavykingofabby]

[wavykingofabby]

Masking emotions that I got inside of me I’m no better than the rest of society Please do not place me on top of a pedestal Meet me in person you’ll say that I’m pitiful Always complaining or take it for granted I’m not satisfied and I don’t understand it I barely managed to get out of bed And I don’t have a plan that’s going to get me ahead I cannot see the future I live in the past I confess that I’m mentally sick, but you son of a bitch Do you actually think that I care about numbers Or if you are playing my shit Man, I treat it like therapy, this is my session The pen is dissecting my singular thoughts That I took out the vault and I put on a page Only ‘cause I want to give you honesty I’m tired of these sickening motherfuckers They’re preying upon the weak And I beseech you with intelligence I pray that you can feel it I’m the realest and a villain that’s giving out his opinion Only if someone is willing to accept the boy Instead of giving out hate or reject the boy I told ‘em give me a minute for some reflection boy And you have tried your best, it don’t impress me boy You’re like the rest of them that I see through And that’s transparent, you should be embarrassed Call up both your parents for some home training There is no excuse for that sad existence We are not the same, I can’t tell the difference Fucka everybody on the internet They’re giving out illusions and You’re buying and flashing a minuscule moment of life But you have no idea what the rest of it’s like

[wavykingofabby]

Evade the negativity at all costs Tryna find my way, I'm feelin' so lost Find me in the zone, I gotta focus But that can be an issue, I'm addicted to the work It's all I ever wanna do, pursue the purpose that I'm pleading for And need it more than pity, man Them minuscule opinions picking apart the immaculate Happily apathetic and actually authentic This sentence is sentimental like the words are just a piece of my soul, lawd! I transcend into the artist that I wanna be I demonstrate my dominance; a derelict with dialect My etiquette is excellence, I dedicate my all to this I solemnly swear that I serenade with selections And different cadences to kill it Really givin' that in this and Anyone that wants the truth that we present to be identified I live a meager life I'm motivated by progression 'cause a year ago nobody paid attention to the kid And I'm persistent with the effort, document my declaration Dedicated to the death of me, definitely concerned that I prefer to be a purist Not perjuring any verses Only way to get it off of my chest, oh lawd! If it's a problem, I solve it privately; polish 'em off I punish with powerful poems, compose a doper creation Case in point, I'm steadily provin' this ain't a lucid dream I used to be infatuated, now it's just reality, I'm managing my temperament, my time to capitalise isn't infinite, the wisdom I'm attaining from trial and effort is priceless I pride myself on putting the music before my sanity Sing you a lullaby with alliteration and empathy The lack of recognition is starting to fuel my energy You know you made it when you receiving' hate from an enemy Irrelevance was never an option, here's the synopsis Said I'm knocking out whoever you considerin' the king I'll kick him off the throne, I want it, I'ma take it as my property And properly prepared to go to war with any challenger I battle in Colosseum's, people cheer for me to finish it Reminicing of the legends that left remarkable legacies I said that I'm ahead of my time, I am You can never understand the headspace I'm in, I Live and I'm writing about it Giving a lyrical ballad Workin' on findin' a balance Dealin' with every challenge, but It's a struggle, meticulously adjustin' my train of thought to be positive; transform to a phoenix

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