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“Of course it’s stupid, Stiles! Willingly being a vessel for a demon is dangerous. It could kill the real you and all that would be left is the demon. What the hell were you thinking?” Kira stared at Stiles with a sad and slightly angry expression. What was the matter with him? He was lucky she found out first before Scott.

“You know what else could kill me? Being weak. It could get us all killed!” Stiles barked defensively. He expected an angered reaction but the expectation didn’t take away the stress. “I refuse to be the weak link in the pack anymore, Kira. I’m not putting anyone else in danger because I have to be saved.”

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The words hit hard, harder then he expected. Stiles was by no means evil, but he was tired of being the only normal one. The human one. The not so spectacular. The ‘figure it out for us and then stay here because it’s not safe for you’ one and that tempted him more then he wanted to admit. He wanted to be stronger then this, already feeling crazy for arguing with himself. Or rather, a form of himself. A wilder crazier one who didn’t seem to have rules or regulations to live by.

“Well… If we’re getting technical my power is your power. We’re connected, two halves of a whole. It’s not you and me its we and even though most of me says I want nothing to do with you, there’s a smaller part that says we should protect each other. If I destroy myself… You go to. Or did you think I didn’t know about that little detail hm?”

“Do you really think you can hurt me, Stiles?” The Nogitsune laughed, genuinely amused by his threat. “No one in your pack can. You can threaten me....but at the end of the day, that’s all they are. Empty threats.” The shadowy man circled Stiles, tapping his fingers against the boy’s shoulder.

“Besides, why would you want to? Don’t you want to have power?”

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Krista looked down at the ground, she couldn’t even look at Stiles’ right now. Not when she was like this, covered in an innocent mans blood. Here he was offering to drive her somewhere, to keep this from his dad. She knew how much he hated keeping secrets from his dad, and this was a big secret. Instead of replying out loud, she gave a slight nod of her head and headed in the direction of the jeep, climbing in the passenger side and sinking down into the leather material.

It wasn’t until he joined her that she finally was able to manage to get her voice to work again, “I can’t ask you to lie to your dad…I have to turn myself in…I should have just let…” she started before looking away out the window. “I just want to run…and not look back, it’s selfish I know, but what if I hurt someone else?”

“No! Krista, you can’t do that.” Stiles protested. “You turn yourself in and that’s it for you. You’ll be doing life in prison for an accident.” The boy’s knuckles were pale from his grip on the steering wheel. His brown eyes stayed locked on the road to avoid the sight of his friend distressed and covered in blood. He had to think of a way to get her out of this situation. “Maybe I won’t say anything to my dad. They’ll assume it was an animal attack. But...he’s seen this stuff enough now that he knows the difference.” Stiles mumbled to himself before banging his hand against the wheel out of frustration. “Just tell me where to take you.” His voice was hushed as he tried to ignore the pain in his hand.

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Overhauling on my accounts today. Gonna do some serious sprucing up. Expect replies later!

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Stiles stared back at his double with the same wide frightened eyes he’d worn since this empty version of himself showed up. “I don’t know that that’s true” he answered, always trying to be confident and in control even when he wasn’t. He could say “get it together Stiles” as many times as he wanted but in the end this was really happening.

“Considering your wearing my face, I’d say maybe you need me a little.” Came his reply, smiling back at himself.

The corners of the Nogitsune’s mouth curled to match the smile on Stiles’ face. The boy had a little bite to him. It was part of the reason the evil spirit considered Stiles such a likely candidate.

“Oh, a face is all I needed. A casing to hold all this power. You on the other hand.....you’re just a case. A fragile, little shell with nothing inside. Where’s your power, Stiles?” His smile darkened as he drudged up the truth. “So tell me, who really needs who?”

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“Stiles, Stiles, Stiles.” The dark figure tsked. “You need me. More than I need you. You might as well admit it.”

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Krista closed her eyes as Stiles’ spoke, she didn’t understand why he wouldn’t just leave. To protect himself. It was obvious she was a killer, she’d killed an innocent man and she could just as easily lose control with him. Not that she was sure that the thing inside him would let that happen, but she didn’t want to risk resurfacing that part of him either. She took a breath, trying to heed his words. Letting the images of her little sister fill her mind, before everything happened. She knew she looked up to her, that she wanted to me just like Krista when she got older.

Krista continued breathing through her nose until the tension began to leave her body. Her eyes returning to their normal chocolate hues as she regained control. Though her bloodied hands still shook under the weight of what she’d done. “How do I fix this…I killed someone Stiles. Now the hunters have a real reason to come after me. What do I do?”

Stiles stood holding his breath waiting for Krista to return to her usual self. He softly exhaled as the blue gleam of her eyes faded. Ones her claws were out of sight, Stiles’ rigid posture eased, leaving his body shaking.

“I-I don’t know.” He shamefully admitted. “Let’s just get to the Jeep. We’ll figure it out. I-I could call my dad. We don’t even have to say you were involved.” He knew that wasn’t any help. That wouldn’t change the fact an innocent man’s life was taken. Nor would it wash the blood from Krista’s hands but at the very least it could prevent a target being placed on her back.

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Stiles sat on his bed, growing anxious at the silence. He wasn’t sure how his friend would react to the news he was harboring a demon...WILLFULLY. He couldn’t go on in the quiet of the room any longer. 

“I-I know, you’re upset with me. You think it was a stupid decision. Sometimes I do too...but I couldn’t stand aside anymore and watch everyone I love be hurt.”

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Krista shook her head at his words, she heard him, she knew it was true. It wasn’t safe for either of them right now. For her, because if a hunter seen this then they’d have a real reason to go after her, and for him because she still felt far from stable, far from under control. She could tell he was trying to keep it together for her benefit, but she could smell the fear and anxiety rolling off of him in waves. Her fists clinched at her side as he brought up her sister, “They killed her…that doesn’t help, it doesn’t. They killed them all and that’s all I can think about” she spoke a hint of a growl wrapping around her words. “I can’t…look..what I did…I can’t…Stiles I don’t want to hurt you too”

Stiles’ entire body tensed at the guttural sound but he refused to be moved. He had to be strong. The coppery scent of blood faintly surrounded the scene making Stiles nauseous. He couldn’t back down. If the two of them were to make it out of the preserve alive, Krista would have to grasp control. Fast. 

“Krista, please.” Stiles pleaded. “I’m not asking you to think of what happened. Think of her.” Although never needing an anchor, in times of trouble he’d often think of his mother. How she’d want him to handle the situation or her in general. He kept her passing as far out of mind as possible. Stiles hoped the same was possible for Krista. “Think of how much she loved you. How she looked up to you. You’ve got to fight your instincts, okay? Do it for her.”

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Krista’s gaze fell to the ground at Stiles’ words, her bloodied fists clinching at her sides as she tried to keep herself from losing it again. She didn’t want to hurt anyone else. Especially not Stiles, she couldn’t believe her control had slipped so badly. Now there was an innocent dead, because of her.

She took a step away from him as she tried to regain focus, at least enough to explain. “What do you think happened Stiles!! Look at me..” she snapped before sinking to the ground, burying her head in her hands. “The moon, my emotions, not having my family for Christmas…it all caught up with me…I…I came out here to chain myself up, I knew id been off all day…some kids come by mentioning hunting…” she whispered her voice breaking. “All that registered was the word and I snapped…hunting…my parents being dead…that’s all I seen was the hunters faces…until it came back too and it was too late..” she whispered.

Stiles flinched as the wolf raised her voice. Regardless of the fear he felt, he couldn’t run. This was his friend. She needed help.

“Krista, we have to get you out of here. It’s not safe out here for either of us.” He spoke in a hushed voice, doing his best to make Krista think he could handle the situation. He wasn’t sure if he believed himself. “Take a deep breath. I know things have been hard but you’ve got to find your anchor. Um....j-just think of your sister!” Stiles encouraged.

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Stiles’ breath hitched seeing the blue gleam envelope her iris. “Oh no....no, Krista. Krista, what did you do?”

It had to have been an accident. He knew Krista, she wouldn’t take an innocent life on purpose. Stiles ran his hands through his dark hair, trying his best to hold himself together. There was no taking it back. No way to fix what had been done.

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“No…no..you need to get away…Stiles…the moon. I lost control…I snapped. Oh god..” she spoke her voice raising in panic as her eyes flashed blue. 

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“Krista...you need to tell me what happened.”

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<3

Apologizes for not being on in over a month. There’s been a lot going on recently including illness, debt, and the passing of a family member among countless other things.

I haven’t given up on my accounts, it’s just hard to find my muse and focus with so much other stuff going on. I’ll be on every now and again but I won’t be very active until at least the holidays are over. I think right now I need to focus on spending time with family and friends, and pulling myself out of this depression.

For those of you willing to stick with me, thank you so much. I really appreciate it. <3

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OOC: I probably won’t be back on until Tuesday. I’m attending a costume party tomorrow night ( that I’m super excited about ) and will probably be staying with my boyfriend until Tues.

I hope you all have a happy Halloween. Stay safe. Don’t drink too much, eat too much candy or summon the dark lord Satan. <3

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“So a couple things I am right about… do you think my… abilities, will develop over time?”

“It’s not that they will develop. They’re already there. You just have to learn to access them. Something that comes with practice. Concentration.”