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Help?

Okay, internet, I need an advice. Week ago I Almostly completely stopped eating. The thing is I'm hungry, I do want to eat sometimes, but I'm getting incapable of doing it. Everything inside me sqeezes from the thought of food.

I believe it's stress related, had a little conflict that got on my nerves. I'm totally detached from my feelings and I can't even quite tell the level of stress I might have.

My heart is racing 24/7 and I'm actually exhausted already sometimes even to sleep, in addition I'm waking up a lot at night which is quite not helping.

To mention I would add I don't have(or at least I haven't had) a lot of issues with food before. I ate everything and in normal portions and now catching myself incapable to eat even a bun, when it comes to cooked warm food I can't make myself even look at it.

What is this? Does someone knows how to deal with it?

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[whatisityouwishtoknow]

Looking for Moots&online friends.

I'm 21 y.o.

My interests are drawing, anime(HxH, kny, Solo leveling, windbreaker and a lot more), I love music projects like Milgram and Alien Stage, I love j-pop and j-rock(Eve, Stellagram, Parsley Onuma, DUSTCELL), shoegaze(band of horses mostly).

Also know literature a little (Mostly japanese, again)

I don't know what else should I write..umm... Desperately need friends? I have discord, Twitter, Instagram, Whatsapp and telegram.

I understand English, a little bit speaking Polish, currently also learning Japanese(predictive, ik).

Waiting for you .

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I already gave up having any kind of friends. I don't know what is friendship and how does it build up. I totally forgot and when you're grown up it seems impossible. I dunno.

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i think i’ve always wished for a group of friends to make memories with. now that i’m an adult i fear i’ve lost my chance. what if i never find the place i belong?

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9/08/2024

I put on the dismissal. Yapeee.

The most, I guess hard part of it all is that I have no clue what should I do next. I wanted to put some effort into education, but I completely have no savings. I'm also thinking about my mental health. It's pretty poor, not so long ago I had the worst nightmare I ever had.(I'm having them really often, so this was actually bad.)

I don't remember waking up that frightened. I was totally paranoid and tried even to glue the door peephole, but I actually don't have one. Remembering that hilarious and concerning at the same time.

Actually no more news. I'm broke and I'll be free soon.

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I'm having 80zł and two weeks to feed myself yo.

But I brought myself sonic t-shirt. I actually feel guilty-pleasure.

*crying in irresponsibility*