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Your whole fucking life is pathetic.

My mom

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i can’t take this constant influence of ups and downs in my life/emotions. because every morning is super awful and i want to cut and die for like the first part of the day. and then by the end of the day i end up feeling okay and might have a decent afternoon.

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i just want someone to take care of me and nurture me without putting a fucking leash around my neck I literally hate her more than i hate myself

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you're just a big fat fuck up

mom

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almost every post on this blog should just end with “…”

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edits month old posts for spelling and punctuation errors

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just re-read this entire blog and woah boy was i a mess last year haha i mean jeez !

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i've been through a lot these last few years and i gotta say i've definitely grown as a person. still got a lot of growing to do, but slowly and surely i'll get there.

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The precise moment between the apathy of a failing relationship and the panic of losing that same someone

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It’s a thought that constantly creeps in throughout the day It’s a thought that I wish I could keep at bay How did I get to the point where I question my worth? But the truth is this self-hate all starts from birth When we are young we are compared constantly So as we get older we do things more cautiously We lose that sense of creativity and freedom And if you pursue your dreams society thinks you have a problem I am not a label, I am not a number And when you call me harsh words just know I’ll remember I know what I deserve and how I should be treated But when I show my love for self the world says I’m conceited We set abnormal expectations that will only end in failure And try to cut our fat away as if our body was paper Our mind takes over as we try to vainly conform The media makes a boney body the image seen as norm But we are more than skin and bones And if we stay silent we unknowingly turn into clones I still struggle with my physical appearance But I’ll be better someday it only takes a little love and perseverance

Not Good Enough//Submitted by @daniimaaals (via tornpagesspilledink)

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relationships usually just fizzle out instead of ending in any abrupt or dramatic manner, especially on the internet no matter how intense and exciting it feels at first it can and probably will just fade away with the years and there will be nothing left to do or expect from the other person

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you dont even deserve my anger you deserve cold feelings and hollow interest. a ghost to you, but thats all you are..just a shell..lifeless

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REJECTION !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DENIAL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYBODY LEAVES ME !!!!!!! EVERYBODY LEAVES ME !!!!!!! I WANNA DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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The empty void of one’s heart must be filled someday by the thoughts of another. If without this, you’re life will feel less than the potential given to by one’s belief. These thoughts will either be loved, neutral, or hated. If you love this thought, you will constantly think about it, and think of new ways of getting more of it. This is the best feeling to ever have, the one that makes you want to wake up each morning and sing with the birds. But if you find their thoughts to be neutral you are not bothered by it, and therefore it just something in your heart that means something but not thought about. If you find this thought to be hated, you will give strong feelings and constantly think of ways of hurting this individual so you will satisfy your thirst of their tears. This is all on the side of the recipient of one’s thoughts. If the person giving these thoughts to the person loved the other, they will share their loving thoughts of waking up to sing with the birds together. If it is neutral and the other is love, one will constantly feel hurt from the burning love in which they cannot burn the other with. To give nothing but empty affection that lies between the fantasy of your mind. This is the most difficult feeling to handle, because you feel so close to having someone to sing with the birds with you, but you fall too flat or too sharp to share the harmonically beautiful sound with. Then lastly the heart breaking moment of messing up, leaving someone that you love, who doesn’t love you back, only to hate you. This is not as common as the rest because of the harsh credentials it needs to fulfill it’s uniqueness. This feeling is terrible, because the person loving the other will never be able to get back with them, and sing.

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Love is not a game of passing your heart around, it’s a act of building each other up, so that if you or they leave, you won’t be left with nothing, you’ll be left with the memory of them.