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CH 9-THE END or A BEGINNING

“Best things in life are supposed to be felt,and also same can be said for the worst things in life”

How can you imagine a break up? I mean do one thing imagine the worst case scenario for a break up? what do you get?

If you did put an effort, you must got these words on your mind “betrayal,cheat,hurtful,unworthy,dissatisfaction,exposure,termination………..etc etc”

So how do you think they break up? well yes there was no communication and when she was sending mails,he was not replying,then how?

okay let me tell…………….

So it has been 2 months when he made that mistakes of telling her to find a new bf,and when he said to her that its better we stay friends,Now he was in China and ship has to undergo some maintenance that means no more sailing for 15 days.

Okay he said to himself as the work load was less,he thought to check up her unread mails and clarify what she must have decided.

He checked his mails,there were few of them and all said the same thing about her not being comfortable with this whole being friend things.

He said to himself why is it so hard for her to understand a simple concept of being friends for the time being!

Feed up and bit angry about her foolishness,he called her.

he-hi

she-hi

he-ermm sup?

she-nothing,wanted to talk to you about something!

he-oh really?(thinking she might have finally decided to be his friend)

she-yeah!

he-okay tell?

she-I ermm I am dating someone!

he-ermm…(speechless)….wow!

she-yeah i know right! he is cute,his eyes they are blue and he is just so understanding,he was there this whole time when i was having trouble deciding what to do about our situation,he is nice,you know him i guess that guy who played that song “muskurane ki wajah tum ho” for me if you remember,he plays good guitar though,want to know his name?

he-(Did you ever had a feeling that the ground on which you were standing on is not there anymore,and the air you were breathing has suddenly vanished……that feel…….that sadness…..you know this is the best sad feeling you ever had………………he was feeling all that at that moment) name….? ermmm….?clues?

she-name bollywood muslim actor? (she said smiling unknown what she have done)

he-aaaa………..aamir? (barely holding on feeling he was stabbed so many times)

she-nah the cute one?

he-shahrukh is there then! (its okay he have decided he will not show he is weak)

she-Oh ho i give up! SAIF his name is SAIF!

he-oh yeah yes he is cute………!

she-yeah,just wanted to tell you this,so that there are no issues between us i mean we started dating but i always felt that i should tell you.

he-its fine,its okay,ermm are you happy?

she-ermm yeah!

he-well that’s all that matters then.Okay I am sorry i remember have to finish something!

she-okay bye!

he-bye!

That was it, it happened just like that he went back to check his mails running down to check how did he miss this part about she being with someone else,he saw the last mail was dated 1 month back,in haste earlier he didn’t saw the date.

What now? he said to himself,first you should drink water dude (crazy phase of talking to himself was back)

The more water he gulped,the more he heard her voice in his and her description about saif!

After one hour or so of soul searching and coming up with nothing, he went to his senior!

senior-hey what happened? and why are you crying?

he-she ermm she………she……………(he finally went to his knees and couldn’t stop himself) she left!

senior-card girl?

he-(just moving his head up and down)

senior-hey,its okay come inside and sit.

he-no sir,no more sitting and no more crying!

senior-don’t make any rash decision,just calm down.

he-i will after a drink,what say?

senior-you don’t drink,now don’t say anything foolish.

he-went to the table where his senior was doing his project,took one cigarette lit it up,took a long drag and said sir “in one word define me?”

senior-you? ermm insane come’s to my mind looking at you now!

he-be serious as i am serious! (he said taking another drag)

senior-okay okay! helpful,good,efficient etc etc, okay happy now?

he- NO! (with a smile) i will be happy when all of this will change! now lets go for a drink as what’s that saying “its good to be bad”

senior-okay let me get ready and anyway i can’t leave you in china all by yourself when you are already out of your mind!

he-I am fine! can i take another cigarette!

senior-here kill yourself!

he-okay meet you in an hour!

senior-okay!

he went back to his cabin thinking what he will do now,is it good,is it bad,he was uncertain,his focus,his dreams, his life,all of it felt like a lie to him!

he went for a shower and came back with a “last try” “one last try before everything is over,maybe she was just kidding,maybe all this was a big fat lie”

“not make any rash decisions” he said to himself remembering what his senior have said.

he opened his Facebook account to and started typing just to be sure she was serious or not

“Hi this is ermm you know who this is.

Well if you ask me am i happy or not, i cant tell you still. I mean you know me well actually you know me very well sometimes i think you me more than i know myself as you are the one whom i have discussed everything with.

I just wanted to tell you my intention was never to hurt you, it was like 1st time i saw you n my mind said this girl is just so i don’t know happy,easygoing,lovely and just so beautiful i wished i could be with you,n guess what it happened, you were mine and that too for so long i mean it was perfect. Every time i saw you n was with you it was living in a dream, i just loved to be with you.

We had ups and downs but we were still together. I still remember that boyish spit walla promise “together forever” i will still keep my promise!

As i always do at least that’s what i think. It was like you want to do something and it was my life mission sort of thing. Love or no love i still want you to be happy as you deserve it. Me i know me i couldn’t be happy its just like that and i am used to it.

You know i believe i have every chance to go to hell but at least if i do something good in your life i could just fight with god saying what about my time with this girl. Your happiness is all i ever wanted now i think i m the only one reason for all the worries in your life. You can disagree but believe me it is true. So that’s y i just couldn’t be with you. You are the best you deserve better i know its a very renowned break up line but Believe me its from the bottom of my heart. I love you i won’t be getting any other girl like you or any girl like you. But i had you and that’s what will keep reminding myself every day of my life . And will be so happy even without any girl if you are happy. I love you and will always do-With a faint smile and watery eyes. Mein bhi emotional hu tumhari tarah. and be happy always.

her reply-(after one minute,which he thought means that she didn’t bother it reading)

oh please! you wanna make me cry?

he-(knowing that she was serious and had really moved on) “read the last line again”

She-haha!

we are still good friends and do mail me? otherwise i will hit you whenever i meet you next!

(but after an hour or so,she blocked him from her Facebook account)

He did got hurt,well it was obvious,to some extent he thought he deserved it,Wasn’t he the one to say go find someone else,wasn’t he the one who didn’t reply to the mails she was sending,haven’t she felt the same what he is feeling right know………………he made a mistake,yes agreed

but was his mistake so big that he deserved this sort of punishment……………?

While reaching his bed drunk that night he remembered his mother saying “Son,one day you will be so badly hurt by your own words,that you will realize the importance of words which you so casually use these days”

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CH 8-PHANTASM STAGE

“Which is the true nightmare, the horrific dream that you have in your sleep or the dissatisfied reality that awaits you when you awake?” ― Justin Alcala

She kept on mailing him, how sorry she felt of hurting him and by now he was so hurt that he don’t want to accept her apology anymore………………………!

“It was summer,the beautiful afternoon was irresistible to miss,the clear sky,the sun,the whole scene was so clear and calm……..but there she was scared,miserable,feared,sweating,her heartbeat was so high that she could feel the blood flowing to her fingers but she kept on running.

Someone was following her,she don’t know who and what all he was wearing but he was racing towards her,so she kept on running………she started running on the stairs,he was racing towards her and was right behind her,she saw a door at the end of the staircase,she opened it and………………………………………………….it was the same terrace where she was with him for the last time, she remembered how safe she felt when she was here last time, the time they spent together ,the vows the took together……………………….she felt a hand on her back she looked back but due to sudden jerk her legs slips of the edge and she fell down……………………!”

She woke up suddenly breathless, scared and in tears! “why me?” she asked looking up trying to plea to the god! She switched on her laptop to see if he had forgiven her and so that she can tell him about the nightmare she started having these days but there was no reply from his side. She started crying again!

He on the other hand had called his friend and was talking

he-hi bro! how are you?

friend-hi man,i m fine,how are you doing,where are you now days?

he-i m fine too in Singapore now days! so hows everyone?

friend-everyone is fine and meet with your parents too they are doing great too!

he-thanks man glad to hear that, and ermmm!

friend-ermm……….?

he-what about her? i know i told you not to spy on her and just keep her safe but we had a fight and i don’t know how she is doing?

friend-she? well…..?

he-what?

friend- i don’t know bro,she seems okay but have seen her with other guys don’t know exactly who is he but she did spend time together with him,hey i don’t mean to bring this up but you asked so i said!

he-okay bro thanks no issue i think its her brother or one of her friend from coaching,she told me about it and if she is happy its okay right?

friend-yeah! and one more thing,sorry i can’t keep it to myself!

he-say?

friend-its kinda awkward but i did texted her sometime back and we talked about normal stuff but then she mentioned that she went to one of her male friend house and had a sleepover,also not to forget she mentioned she tried his pj’s and all and she was babbling about how comfortable they were! sorry again just thought you should know!

he -(speechless) okay bro thanks, gotta go!

Fully disturbed by the idea of what he have heard he went to the computer and texted her about how things have gone so far,how they cant be together,

how its affecting both of them,how he is not able to focus on his work cause of her and how she is not able to focus on her studies,being a boyfriend he should have never been angry to her cause of that NO what she said to him earlier,and have decided that its better that we both become friends with each other and not couple.

For him it meant that he can focus on his work and pressure by not thinking about her so much, being friend he meant that there is no need to feel anything if she went with a boy or not. Future is still far there is already so many confusion between them that if they don’t stand down and face it,all that which they tried and built in those 3 years the friendship,the trust,the love………it will all be lost due to misunderstandings.

“He is lying on a bed with violet color bed sheet,the room was full of  burning scented candles,he tried smelling it and says ‘lemon grass isn’t it?’ she was there standing towards the door burning the last candle ‘yes right i love it’.

He didn’t said a word as he was admiring her beauty,she was wearing a white top,her hair were untied,was wearing those earrings which complimented her face,that priceless smile of her and those killer eyes.

He could not resist the urge and went towards her,hugged her from back and said ‘white suits you,you look like a princess’ and turned her face towards him and started kissing her,he kissed her hands,shoulder,neck,mouth the scent of her body was amazing,she in one word was irresistible.

They both now was on bed kissing each other and by now she stared kissing him everywhere she possibly can and then removed his shirt threw it over the floor and came closer to his ears and said “I LOVE YOU” and leaned back to see his face…………………………………It was not him, he didn’t saw his face.It was someone else he cant make out the person as it was a dark room but it was definitely not him”

He woke up breathless it was like for a moment life had left him,he quickly went to his fridge and got a water bottle and put the water over his head and then drank some of it,it was only after that he felt stable and said to himself “just a bad dream,just a bad dream”

But did these nightmares meant something?………………(to readers frankly speaking by nightmare you think of illusion in a worst way possible but what if you see a same nightmare again and again…………….and that exactly what was happening to both of them same dream every time……………so does nightmares mean anything?

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CH 7-An UN-FAVORITE Mistake!

Every mistake is a lesson…………………..is that so!

Can a mistake be so big that it can change a person to his soul and by soul I really mean SOUL.

So there he was looking at the land of Korea on the brink of the ocean,he was excited as for the first time in 8 months he will be going out of his ship, the feeling of land touching his feet,the people yes the people which he will be meeting after so many months, and yes not to forget the call cards which he will be getting by which he can talk to his parents and with her for as long as he may like,he was just so excited only by the thought of it.

He reached Korea in the following afternoon,he got his call card and dialed her number 7838____70! he knows it by heart with a smile on his face he pressed the call button.

he-hi

she-hey

he-i m Geeta speaking

she-i know,i know your voice

he-really i wish i could say the same to you but it seems like i m talking to a man!

she-Ha ha! very funny! tonsils!

he- you and your tonsils!

she-hmm….

they kept on talking for hours about everything they can think of like how much they miss each other,how they are just living life by counting days,how her coaching is going,how one guy have sang a song for her “muskurane ki wajah tum ho”, then all her other new friends in her coaching class etc etc.

After 2 to 3 hours of talking to each other,he said aacha i have to call my parents too and after that will talk to you tomorrow as you are busy in studies too!

he called his parents talked and then it was it! he got carried away in the call so much that he forgot the timings to go out,so didn’t went out to see Korea and went back to his work.

The  next day 04/07/2014

he got up and called his parents it was his mom…..

mom-wait a min,you said your call card have talk time of 4 hours,you only talked to us for half an hour what happened to the rest? what was the need to buy new call card?

he-yeah but friends bhi toh hai! he said laughing!

mom-friends? only one i can think of!

he-correct! usi se baat kar tha!

mom-okay but…………anyway aur tell whats going on?

he-nothing much just some pending work! and ermm but…….? kya?

mom-nothing its just i have seen her roaming with other guys near our house!just that i thought you both don’t talk that’s all.

he-aaray it nothing we do talk and the guy you are talking about is her cousin brother who is there,she did told me about him!

mom-okay but no brother roam around in green belt with her sister.

he-mom? its okay! forget it so where is dad?

then he talked to his dad then his sister about everything, how are they doing etc etc!

when he cut the phone the 1st thing on his mind was guy? roaming? green belt?

He thought of calling her but realized its too early for her i mean 8am and she will be up impossible he smiled and opened his Facebook.

he went to her profile and started looking at her pics,she looks cute in each of them miss photogenic he said to himself he did saw some pics of her with some guy but she have already told him about it. its okay he said he did felt jealous of him being near her but hey its 21st century not medieval period.

He went out in Korea roaming here there, buying stuffs and then in the end he was forced by his colleague to go inside a bar and by bar I mean it was a strip bar which was common in Korea.

suddenly he had an idea!

he called her

he-hey beautiful

she-hi and why so romantic?

he-aise he,aacha im out in korea streets and need your full attention now!

she-ermm okay! tell?

he-I am outside a strip bar and i promise i wont go inside if you say “no need to go inside come back and you can have your own show” he started laughing!

she-NO! (she said firmly)

he-really no? (he got a bit disappointed and angry at the same time,he shouldn’t be angry as he asked her that in a funny sense but that straight no was not expected by him)

she-yeah no! ain’t gonna happen!

he-(wanted to scream, have a great walk with whosoever you are roaming with but instead…….) okay im going then!

she-enjoy (frustrated)!

he was frustrated too, he was thinking why he is getting upset and angry?, he meant that in a funny way surely she would have said no but the tone of her voice that firmity, that was just what made him angry,he started thinking she would have at-least said  something funny or smart, but NO ,okay he said to himself “no after 3 years, and also for doing exactly what she said all this time,okay what was the last thing she said “enjoy”,okay lets not disappoint her now…………..and started walking towards the strip bar.

Back in India she was thinking what just happen? why he was asking all this all so sudden? is he okay? is he sad or is he just so excited? I might have used or said something else as he did sound angry by the end………….!

Back in the bar!

Strip bar of Korea was a complete disappointment for him,it was a dim lit hall where on one side there was a stage for singing karaoke, the middle part have chairs where you can order food and drinks, on the other side there was a bar where you can drink and on the far end there was a door for private shows and the girls who are serving should be paid well enough to get a private show from them,and not to forget the private shows means a 20 min lap dance if you can last that long and if you are lucky enough then you might have a kiss or two!

He-“what?” his first reaction after hearing all the terms and conditions of the bar, which was told to him by his senior officer.

He-“so what are we going to do here sir?”

senior-“I am going to have drinks and wait for the guys you can tag along,and you sure you didn’t wanna go inside?” (he said with a wink)

he-“No,having kind of a rough day got up in fight with my gf”

senior-“women’s god’s mystique” (he sounded totally drunk after finishing up his 2nd bottle of corona)

he- “right”

senior-“you want anything to drink, no issue bill is on me”

he-“no thank you sir,you know i don’t drink”

senior-“yeah but they do serve cold drinks too if you like to have it”

he-“okay i might like coke sir”

so after that they waited for there remaining members,talking about all the time they have spent together,talking about home,how much they miss it etc etc

suddenly he was disturbed by a female voice

she-hey Mr. Cold drinker?

he-Ermm excuse me? are you talking to me? (he noticed a girl from the bar)

She-yeah I am talking to you only, so if you don’t drink then why are you inside the bar?

he- I am waiting for my friends that’s all.

she- oh i see, so from where you have come to Korea?

he-India

then they kept on talking about each other what they do, why they do it, he literally asked her “so why do you work in a place like this? she replied with a faint smile “i have a son and need money for him as his father have left them both” he “oh i see i am sorry,i don’t know what to say”

after that they again talked and talked…….he was happy because after so long someone out of the ship was actually talking to him, understanding him etc etc,they end up being friends and exchanged there emails.

she-so since you don’t drink, i might have to pay for my own drink just to talk to you more!

he-yeah maybe but if you want you can go and talk to someone else, its okay i understand its your job!

she-(with a smile) no i prefer to sit and lets have a bet!

he-bet? (seeming excited)

she-okay i am going to order a drink and you wont be paying for that if you can undo the hook of my corset with one hand? (she said with a wink)

he-(he remembered the video he have seen in school where Zac efron undo the hook of girls corset on a TV show) you know i know the trick!

she-okay lets see! (she said by bringing her back to him)

he did it and was really surprised by himself that he can actually do that, and for the readers (the girl didn’t got naked she was holding the front part so nothing came off and logically i think its not possible too, okay and he did put the hook back on and surely this time he used both his hands)

so after that they bid good bye to each other he did kissed the girl goodbye and went on with his group!

While coming back he remembered how he forgot the issue he had with his gf due to all that what happened after that! he did made a good friend he was happy about it!

he opened his Facebook to text her sorry but……………..his senior have already posted the pic of him and the girl from the bar on his wall!

Shit!-he screamed!

and texted to his gf-“jealous?”

she-“little bit but there was no need to go that far?”

he-” I didn’t went far,actually my senior posted it and i will tell you everything what happened! once i reach the ship over the call!

she-okay!

he got back and told her everything and by everything he meant everything including the girl,the bar,the talk,the bet,the goodbye kiss. (he thought she would have done the same as that’s the way it was suppose to be)

she sounded a bit angry and said “kya zarrurat thi jaane ki”? (what was the need to go inside the bar?)

he couldn’t help his frustration and cut the phone and typed on fb!

“What do you think,how i feel?

Missing you for all these months,every time i think about touching you,hugging you,i miss you so very much and because of that i asked about the show,but no you think i asked that out of lust and now you think i did something with her too isn’t it?

Am i angry or not we will see! but till now i am okay! And if you think i am mean and i don’t care for you, i am there for you just out of lust,well its okay,maybe you deserve someone better!”(THE MISTAKE)

he went offline with tear in his eyes, he was hurt cause she was the one who understood him so much and why she is unable to understand him now,why she thinks he is a lewd person.

she on the other hand was shocked after reading his texts and texted him back, but there was no reply from his side to her apologies………….!

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CH 6-OURS by TAYLOR SWIFT!

“And you’ll  say Don’t you worry your pretty little mind People throw rocks at things that shine And life makes love look hard The stakes are high, the water’s rough But this love is ours

And it’s not theirs to speculate If it’s wrong and Your hands are tough But they are where mine belong and I’ll fight their doubt and give you faith With this song for you”

“what will you do at times when I wont be there with you?” he remembered he asked her that when they were meeting for the last time.

And by looking at his Facebook messages after 5 months he got his answer it was full of texts from her and that too she was writing it daily as if he was there on the other side .

She wrote about everything that too everyday.

Things like what she was going to buy,what all she already bought,how cool she looks after getting a new haircut,how her friends are being nice to her,how she felt when her very close school friend is about to go somewhere else,how she feels so lonely sometimes and wish to talk to him,wish to be near him,how desperately she just needs a hug from him, how excited she was when his birthday was about to come,which all movies she liked and want to watch with him……………………etc etc.

“You are like my personal diary now & my situation is exactly same as the situation of girl in OURS (Taylor swift) song” she did mention that in one of her text.

And it was spot on he could see how much she is missing him,how strong she have been for all these 5 months it surely felt like the ours song.

He wanted to tell her about all the trouble he is facing at his work too ,how sometimes his seniors wants him to perform like a machine with no rest,how frustrating it is to work with multinational people,how he wishes he could get time to talk to her over phone.

But when he saw her texts he realized he is not the single one with all these issues in life,she is going through the same and he was so proud by seeing how well she is handling her life as till now he used to think he is the only one who could handle his life,But now he got inspired and decided not to tell her any of it as it may add to the troubles she is facing so instead he typed

“ahem ahem! in Singapore now the problem is will be here till 3 hrs only,don’t know whether you will come online or not but anyway I’m downloading all your latest pic soccha tumhe bata du! miss you so very much! bbye!”

“hey I poked you as you were missing my pokes I guess! :* ! Idk how to explain to you how much I miss you for all these days! you know its killing me that I won’t be able to see your reply to my message but Ermm idk I just miss you alot! :* lots n lots n lots of love to you!”

Its hard for her and yes agreed he should have wrote something better,something meaningful but he didn’t had that much time to think and write,his schedule was so hectic.

It was only when he went to his cabin that night and started reading all the text one by one which she have been sending for last 5 months, tears started falling down from his eyes,that’s what tears of joy with a tint of sadness must looks like as he was so happy that she haven’t lost her faith in him and how beautiful she looks now,he thanked god for being together with her and wished for her happiness. Also he was sad as he was not with her when she needed him.

But at the end of the day he was happy that they did managed to talk and it was really nice and motivating for him.

“This love is ours” she said to herself and went to sleep after seeing the text that he wrote.

“This love is ours” he said to himself and started looking at the pics of her,awestruck by her beauty.

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CH 5-REAL GOODBYE TEXTS part 2!

The good times flew so quickly’

It was all he could think of when he was packing his luggage. he was happy that they did meet and bid goodbyes to each other and finally he was going tomorrow. So he finished packing and went to his Facebook page and started downloading all of her pics, as creepy it may sound but he wanted to carry a small part of her with him suddenly his phone buzzed.

She -Hi

He –hi!

She-wassup ?

He-looking at Ur pics again again!

She -Again ? Aap ke pass kaam dhandha nahii hai kya ?

He- hai naa both are YOU! :*

She-Mein dhandha hu ? :PD

He-Yup mine! :p I know I sound crazy idk y i’m saying this!

She-Hehe :P, pagal Admi :P, Card padhe ? he realized yes the cards she had given him some hand made cards and he was not allowed to read it in front of her.

He-nahi,should i read them now? as previously i was not supposed to read them till i reach my destination?

She-No.you read them now and tell me how you feel,as i’m a girl i cant wait for that long.

He-Okay! i will read them in the order in which you have given it to me.

She- okay!

He-happy new year in advance to you! (it was a simple card but the main thing was it was hand made and that made it felt so unique and hard touching)

She- next? and Dekho handwriting ke bare mein kuch mat bolnaa.

He-okay its my birthday! thanks again!

She-you know three years passed and we never meet at your birthday?

He-Its okay! though we didn’t meet but you are always the 1st one to wish me! and plus we meet at your birthday so!

She-okay next?

He-okay its 14 Feb tab Kya hota hai?

She-IDK! Dekho heart paint karne liye mere pass brushes nahii tha So I did it with my fingers toh ussko kuch maat bolnaa

He-Hehe okay! :p I’m reading it my Valentine!

She-Next ? tum padho I just brb Ek sec mein

He-okay! and  best aadmi? sure? :p

She-I’m Back and yes best aadmi! and next thing will be holi! sorry i couldn’t help myself!

He-hehe! okay! let me read it!

She-hmm…!

He-okay I know d bet is valid pagal Will do it next year pakka! (he remembered his bet about kissing her at time of holi and havnt been able to do so)  n tshirt? kyu? (in this she was mentioning his abs, he knew it still pushing it…)

She- Yes!

And  Toh as i said I won’t go for holi Next year jaaungi as without you what will i do!

He- oh I love u so much! n holi se pehele toh its Ur birthday missy! :p happy birthday in advance wish u have every moment of happiness in Ur life for ever!

She-Happiness toh next year hogaa na

He-okay!

She-next

He-okay next one says SORRY n I have no idea y? should I open it? :l

She-YES

He-okay wait!

She-okayy!

He-I hate you! a lot :* pagal! mein darr gaya tha! :l (this one actually was April’s fool day card but that got reveled in the end only, as the start talked about her relationship with one of her friend which he had no idea about, it was a relief when he read the last line and came to know that it was a joke)

She- haha! but idea was good naa?

He- Yup! pagal aaurat I love u!

She-I love you too best admii

He-okay last one! Diwali!

She-0kaayy

He- u know u look like a princess in white! :* (in this she had elaborated their first Diwali together so well that it felt like he was there and was reliving that moment again those lights,that scent of crackers in the air,that face she use to make when there was a loud cracker burst, all that was so lively and enjoyable)

She-So happy ?

He-very! and thanks for all the effort you put in.

She-you know what?

He-what?

She-kal bhi maat jao!

I pinky swear! I won’t fight And I won’t irritate! and will let you poke

Sochlo aisa offer fir nahi milengaa

He-Jaan u know I want to stay but think Ur family Will not accept me if I’m not settelled in my life! :l I’m going for us Jaan for our future! :l n most importantly for YOU my love! please understand!

She-I do! please be back soon!

He-i will! you know what?

She-What?

He-I don’t know how should I thank u for everything u did for me for all these 3 years!

She-You don’t need to thank me  Bs jaldi jaake jaldii aao

NAhiiii wait

Der se jaake jaldi aao

He-okay!

She-Pagal! Go sleep It’s your soone ka time And you must be sleepy

And You watch big boss right ?

Guess who’s the winner ? Miss Khan!

He-I know that! okay I gtg! sorry Will talk to u later! too sleepy!

She-okay bbye good dreams sweet night! (that was her way of writing it she knew it was wrong but she always wanted to be unique!

He- bye! same to you! :*

She- :* have a great journey and do miss me!

He-I will!

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CH 4-REAL GOODBYE TEXTS part 1!

Sometimes its just hard to accept the truth but still you know its about to happen.

So there it was the day was about to come for which he dreamed about for so long. He is finally going out of India to work, he was surrounded by mixed feelings where in one end he was so happy that he is leaving but on the other end it was her.

He have not told her anything,actually he was not scared of telling her as she have been so understanding all these years but he was not so sure about how will she react and what will happen to there relationship when he will be gone.

Will she wait…………will she understand………will she be able to hold on…..?

All these questions were preventing him to tell her that he will be going and one day when there was usual fight going on over the text-

‘you don’t get it, you should be strong,why you ask me for help’ he asked he didn’t want to use such words but he was angry

and she knew it ‘because you r my bf n bf suppose to know all this.Right? :|’  there it was again the emoticon it was like he could see her actually doing that and he didn’t liked it ‘you and your faces, aacha tell what will you do if i leave?’

she didn’t reply for a bit and suddenly ‘I DON’T KNOW, i mean you are always there for me,you give good advice,you are the 1st one whose name come to my mind when i’m in doubt,so i don’t know what i will do :0’

he saw the text and actually tear fell down his eyes when he wrote the reply ‘WELL I WOULD BE LEAVING ON 31st DEC, company called’

there was a quick reply followed by series of text

‘what?’

’31st you mean after 3 days?’

‘for how long?’

he replied ‘yes,maybe for a year’

WHAT? was only thing she can write at that moment

it took a while and that while was a 2 hour discussion with her as he have realized that they had been together for so long and now even the thought of going and not meeting each other that too for a whole year was hard for both of them.

so he explained her everything and for next 3 days there were promises,sharing of d  their happiest moment together,discussions about things what they like so much in each other even things what they don’t like in each other for example the long classes which she use to take and he have to wait for her, she intervened with the way he use to come to meet her after playing football,all sweaty and messy.

It all went very well they meet several times in the chores of those 3 days and they were enjoying all of it as both of them knew that the sad part of leaving each other is about to come and for which they might or might not be ready……………!

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CH 3-KISS OR IS IT KISSES………!!!!!

He-“Will you come?”

She-“Lets see I have to lie again at home”

He-“Hey its okay,no need to come its already 6:30pm and so cold outside, n plus i hate when you lie to your folks”  he replied, n started thinking what he will do now? n started gazing at d sky with grayish  clouds with a tint of orange in it.

As sun was about to set the view from the terrace he was in, was just mesmerizing!

He was thinking that he would have told her the truth that he was actually missing her a lot from the morning and y not? it was 7th Jan the day when he actually purposed her  one year ago,he was so happy and thanking god that its so magical that they were still together,he actually never thought that he would be completing one year together but he did and from his heart he was overjoyed.

Suddenly his thoughts were interrupted with a scream HI!

he actually got scared as he was so busy gazing at the sky and with his thoughts and almost forgot that he was on terrace of someone else house,where anyone can come but all those things came rushing down to him when he heard that loud HI!

It was her,who else can it be!

She started laughing after seeing his scared face! she wanted to give him surprise as she was not at home she was out this whole time n had kept him waiting just to surprise him, but she cared for him too, so she came to him and said “SORRY…..i didn’t meant to scare you!” n there it was again the tilt of her head when she says sorry! they have discussed it last night over the text!

So he cant help himself but said you know you look so cute when you do that! n she replied “Aachaa?” and he said “yes” with a wink!

In no time she got to her senses n said we cant be here,as i think people have seen me coming to the terrace!

WHAT? was all he could say at  that moment!

so he grabbed her hand firmly and said walking towards the gate “We need to go, you don’t know what can happen if people saw us together here”

She calmly replied “okay”

so they went for there long stroll talking about random stuff.He was trying hard to make poor jokes as he always did and she was as always pain in the ass for him, but he loves that about her, for him whoever challenges him, was a point for him to prove himself n she was  just perfect in challenging to his non sense jokes, his sense of style,his taste in music and dance, etc etc she was just impossible but she was perfect for him n he knows it very well!

After the stroll was over they found themselves sitting at d park with  him trying different position to rest his head on her lap! (it was real trouble my god no comments on that)

after 2 or 3 efforts he finally decided to quit as every-time he end up in an awkward  position.

After that he checked the time n he was sad it was 7:30, time for each of them to go to their homes, he quickly hold her hand and said I LOVE YOU!

she didn’t say anything and started touching his face,it was d first time she have ever done anything like that! he was surprised too in a awkward way when her hands were on his cheeks.

He said “ermm…..what are you doing” quickly she realized what she was doing and suddenly she took her hand off his face, she was nervous he saw that as always, so he said “maybe we should go”, she replied “yeah maybe”

And they started walking towards the exit gate of the park.

That walk was the hardest walk for him, As he wanted to do that but the shades of past was haunting him where he have tried to kiss her n she trusted him n then when he went for her lips she was shocked and panicked!

So he was scared too,should he do it or not,what will she think, will that be okay with her now after one year!

finally they reached the exit gate and was about to go in opposite directions, when he held her hand and pulled her towards him there was silence in that cold winter evening but they were hearing the sound of each other breath it was fast,they were holding each others hand it was hot.

He finally couldn’t help it and said “Can I? ” she didn’t reply to it instead she closed her eyes.

and that’s how they kissed each other for the very first time.

ON THERE WAY BACK HOME

He-“you r a good kisser”

She-“Really? how did you know,how many girls have you kissed before”

He-“it was my first,its just that it felt perfect that’s y”

She”okay :)”

He”so how many years?”

She”what?”

He”i have read somewhere that when a couple kiss the girl knows at that instant,for how long their relationship will last”

She “oh i c, Aisa toh kuch nahi hua”

He “okay maybe next time we do it tab hoga”

She “SHUT UP”

He “reached bbye”

She “bye n happy anniversary again”

He :)  

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CH 2- A Not So Shitty Meet!!!!

“I remember it hurt looking at her hurt!” He finally saw her and she looked like a completely different person,head bowed down,slow walk,hair uncombed,no lipstick,no eyeliner……..he just knew  by then that this would be difficult,as he have never seen her like that ever.

Suddenly she looked up and their eyes meet,it was like a sudden thunder they both just stood at one place,so many things were about to be told but in that brief moment of silence they told everything to each other.

Then they got back to their senses by a car horn which was passing them nearby.

She was the 1st one to say ‘why you always lie,I mean all the time?’ he got shocked and replied ‘lie? no u asked where was i?

And i told “OUT OF HOSTEL” they said together.

There was a feeling of joy inside her,he can see that in her eyes,it was like that from the start he always knew when she is happy or sad even if she wont tell him.

so he asked “so now can u take back what you said earlier? i’m not a liar” she replied “yeah but only after you tell me that what made you come here from your hostel?” those words he was starstruck by them ‘he wanted to scream “it was for you cant you see that” ‘ but instead he said “IDK i thought you wont believed me,when i told that my phone battery was dead in the morning”

she knew he just made that up,it was like that with her, even if she wants someone desperately to be by her side she will not let her guards down, and on the other hand she was happy that the boy whom she is committed to actually bunked his collage and is there with her and is lying just so that she wont feel down or sympathetic.

She realized that she actually went out from home to go to her dancing class,one thing in the world she cant live without was dancing.

she said “you have stalked me to that extent that you know the exact timings of my dancing classes too?” he smiled and said “ermmm……maybe”

She was delighted with the answer she actually started blushing she forgot about all the trouble which she was having. This time she was happy really happy she wanted to hug him and tell him thank you for coming and making everything normal again. But she didn’t in fact she said “i’m getting late for my class,would you be here when i come back?” he again smiled and replied “here? at middle of nowhere at 8pm” he just burst into laughter.

she smiled but was angry too and said “yeah ass i know you know what time i get back too, stop smiling, stalking is not a good thing and by here i meant in the society not literally here” he replied “yes my love sure can do” and seal it with a flying kiss. she turned back and said “i know you will” and started walking away from him. he stood there watching her,he didn’t knew why he does that,but he just don’t want to loose her,he wanted to watch her till he cant see her, sometimes foolishly he hoped for her to turn back just like what happens in the movies but his life is not a movie and it doesn’t happen. So he turned and started heading home thinking about what all happened in last 20 min,he remembered how sad she was at first and by the end how happy she was……..”not so shitty meet he said to himself”. A Not So Shitty Meet!!!

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NOT SO SHITTY STORY CH 1-The helpless call

Lights switched on. He saw the time it was 4 am! He replied over the phone ‘hey its gonna be alright they are your parents not your enemy’.

There was no reply from d other side,he can just hear her crying. Feeling helpless he started to think what all she told him about the family in last couple of hours, how her folks are,how they treat her,all the trouble she have gone through in her life,she is not that strong……her pain. He was spellbound but in a bad way, he really wanted to say something which would help her or soothe her pain, something that would give her hope,something that will make her happy again…………but all he can say was ‘I love you’!

‘hello…..hello…….are u there?’ there was no reply from other side. He checked his phone it was switched off! ‘damn battery!’ he screamed and woke his roommates up!