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one final health update and wip list.

I am very burnt out again. my back pain has spread to the rest of my body over the last year (which is why I have been inactive for multiple months at a time). I’ve kept quiet abt the extent of it but it’s constant now and it’s getting worse. I think it’s a chronic issue, but my doctor thinks I’m too young for chronic pain! so that routes a dead end.

honestly it’s been hard to write or be creative when my body is constantly in pain. I haven’t been to the gym in two months. I feel like I’m deteriorating despite doing everything right and yet I’m still in pain and nothing seems to help.

I know the lack of updates and fics and “I’ll post soon i promise!” has been frustrating. I am equally if not more upset that I can’t post or indulge in my hobbies. I’ll be back eventually, which I know sounds like another empty promise but I’ve booked a chiropractor appointment as a last resort for some kind of diagnosis.

“you should’ve done that before!” I believe the chiropractor is a scam and I didn’t have health insurance before but now I do. I’ve had routine xrays for years and nothing shows up on my scans bcs the primary focus was my back. I had back pain. now it’s just bone pain everywhere.

that aside, I’m mentally struggling to accept that I might actually be physically disabled as well. I know that it’s internalized ableism and I’m working on it, but the magnitude of my pain has always been neglected by doctors. for me to even admit that I’ve had back pain for ten years,,,,,, and that it wasn’t indeed all in my head, that I’m actually in pain,,,,,, took so long. to attach that to a disability? this is a lot to work out in therapy.

I think I’ve issued myself an ultimatum too with this situation. either get it sorted out or deactivate. and as much as I don’t want to do that, there is so much pressure that comes with being a writer online. “when are you coming back” makes me want to never come back sometimes. especially because this has been so out of my control. and I know everyone means well, but it’s frustrating to feel forced to write.

I’ve been writing but it’s nothing I’m proud of. nothing I would ever want to put out. things manufactured out of pressure never work. that being said, here is the final wip list of things to be posted for the remainder of the year:

tell it to my heart series to completion

moon song part 2

resume kinktober in october

woozi hockey player au ft goalie brother hoshi for the holidays

zombie au (at least prologue) will be posted at some point as well. i need to coordinate w shaya on this one.

Yeah. okay. that’s all. I’ll try n figure this one out but idk it’s looking a little rough. I’m also on a waitlist to get my human producing organ removed so. I’ll have free time when that happens. I have missed tumblr ngl sigh. I’ll be back whenever. idk when that is yet but. also band fic coming early next year

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will be posting soon i promise. I’ve been writing, just haven’t had time to format anything properly. I’ve also been on the road lots cus it’s summer and there are things to do and places to see.

tell it to my heart chapter three has an official release date but it’s secret for now.

(see: me in my passenger princess duties for three hours)

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WOOZI MC BOO’s Dangerous Invitation #2

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based on your experience with apps, are they effective? u can find someone interesting there, for one meeting or dating? ppl lie a lot? What's the funniest/weirdest thing u saw there?

I have never talked to a single person more than once on any dating app. like I have never gotten past the “how are you” stage bcs everyone is SO boring over text. like no one can hold a conversation on dating apps at least in my experience. it’s all small talk and i cannot do small talk cus im autistic.

also there’s the issue of only having men that look like discord mods in my area. I don’t want to date any of them so I have deleted all my dating app profiles bcs they’re the only kind of dudes getting recommended to me.

funniest/weirdest thing that I’ve seen as a product of being on dating apps was a dick the size of my forearm right in front of my face. it was awful. there is such a thing as too much.

tldr I hate dating apps and have given up on romance unless it happens organically. but I’m taking this semester off so I won’t meet anyone until I go back to school. sigh.

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for research purposes I need omegaverse fic recs.

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Fanfics tend to recycle the same 2-3 Jihoon archetypes: idol Jihoon, producer Jihoon, and gym trainer Jihoon. If we're looking to break the mold and explore fresh professions, that still feel in character for woozi, what would u suggest?

I’m writing drummer ex cocaine addict jihoon rn. I think that breaks the fucking cycle😭 idk music teacher/band director/clarinet professor jihoon is also tangible.

tech guy jihoon/it guy jihoon also feel realistic for some reason. idk.

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how trans ppl, especially before top operations, react to hugs? like I know every person is different, but it might trigger body dysmorphia?

I hated hugs preop. like I would genuinely try to fight ppl if they wanted to hug me but now I eat that shit up. and I didn’t rlly think abt it until I read this ask but. yeah.

also small correction, dysphoria* not dysmorphia. they are very very different things.

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he also said today, when his long arms were mentioned 'height is the only short part of me'. like. we know baby. we have a whole thread full of proofs of that 🍆

sigh that man is chronically online do u think he knows abt the thread. that is my biggest fear. GET BACK 💥💥💥

sorry woozi. my bad. but like I’m a visual learner so pls send proof to validate our theories.

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woozi rejecting estrogen man and testosterone man just to call himself a testosterone woman is the hottest butch flex i've ever witnessed. like okay masc king ruin me a little 😭😍🔥x(.)com/jeonghannisms/status/1944669388742820080

he’s sooooo nonbinary lately idk I love him slay my gnc king. this is kinda stupid but honestly that clip made me rlly happy. at least he is not plagued by toxic masculinity.

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this video was a fucking double kill. I am unwell.

I WM SOOOOOOO UNWELL RN MY GOD. when did he get tits. genuinely get him a bra asap. what the FUCK.

not to be horny mid day but yall see it too?? I AM A WOOZI BIG DICK TRUTHER!!

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something u can add to the cock tribute thread. i can't, just passed out x(.)com/SaythenameN/status/1944001599707525481

ik the focus is on his dick but JESUS CHRIST when did his chest get so fucking big. get that man a bra ASAP my lord

link

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I fucking KNEW this thread would be back when I woke up this morning. I need that shit in my mouth RN.

not to be horny mid day but yall see it too?? I AM A WOOZI BIG DICK TRUTHER!!

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bro how was the concert

so. so so so good. i cried. my view was so good. Pete wentz is SOOOO. Sexy irl. oh my god. he’s so hot. i had a twelve hour drive home to think abt the concert. i literally have no idea what to even think rn. genuinely idk. patrick stump is one of the best vocalists ever idc argue with a wall. he’s taken such good care of his voice it’s crazy.

here’s a few photos

i might reopen the band au doc soon sigh. things r happening in my brain.

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also if anyone is seeing fall out boy in Calgary today I am here w @sunshinedeekay come say hi

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pookie how are u? knowing exact date hurt u or u've made peace with it?

eh I survived the bts enlistment this shouldn’t be too bad. plus I’m seeing fall out boy today there is no time to be sad

genuinely idk I thought it would bother me a lot more but ik they have to do it so honestly whatever. plus it’ll be so nice for them to get an actual break

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U have nice phonecase 👍 seems like you changed photocard since the last time u showed us, right? How was the movie? Worth all the waiting?

I did indeed change the pc in my phone case to a burstday one.

man that movie. it’s been a few days n I’m still thinking abt it. it was So good. not at all what I expected,,, like the trailer made it look very different. But it was still sooooo good. I fucked cried over a horror movie lol.