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found my old tumblr y'all I'm outta here

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I’d rather hurt myself than hurt anyone around me.

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050120

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its overwhelming.

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Sometimes it makes me sick, the way sadness is addicting. The way I can't stop it. Sadness is familiar. It’s comfortable but everything else about it is hard. The way my body aches with self hatred. The way my mind spins and spins with hopeless thoughts. The way it poisons everything I do, every relationship I have. Yet it's addicting, because I know sadness, and I know sadness very well. And there's a sort of comfort in that, like being home after a trip or sleeping in your own bed after a while. There’s just a sense that this is where I belong. This is how it's supposed to be.

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I can’t look at myself in the mirror without hearing the words you’d say to me

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you're welcome;)

lil demon friend, her name is sasha ~

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thanks

lil demon friend, her name is sasha ~

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v cute

lil demon friend, her name is sasha ~

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there's this boy, he's v cute

he has

nice veiny arms

and

big ass hands

everytime I see him

my mind goes to a v dark place

I want him to choke me and fuck me endlessly

thanks 4 reading

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hahah I should be sleeping

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eye

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why would anyone think that im annoying? im so funny and original yeah