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     “I will do no such thing” she said, almost immediately, as if insulted by the idea that Mab thought she would simply forget her. Bella never forget anything, good or bad. She could still recall the exact shade of gold that her first love’s hair was, the feeling of falling in love for the first time with that two faced mortal. She could still recall the ring in her ears when her father would laugh, of his booming voice and his immense pride in his only daughter. She could still feel the dirt in her lungs from when her mother had buried her below the earth for half a century or feel her mothers grip on her throat when she would disobey a direct order. Belladonna could never forget anything, no matter what it was. But most of all, she could never forget this woman.

     “Do you really believe I could forget you? Forget us?” she asked, her gaze searching the face of the other that had contoured in pain. “That I could forget what it feels like to love you, to be loved by you?” she asked, her tone almost accusatory. She walked closer to her, mostly to get her attention, hoping her movement would force the other woman to look up at her as she spoke.

     “What it felt like the first time you kissed me...and the whole world seemed to stop for us” she breathed, the memory so fresh it felt like yesterday. “The first time you touched me and the skies seemed to split open and swallow the stars. The feeling of being pressed against you in the dead of night, the lullaby of your breathing in my ears...feeling as if the gods built you to fit perfectly against me in every way” she said, her voice barely above a whisper now. “No...I don’t think I shall ever forget that. I don’t think I shall ever forget you...and I don’t ever want to” she admitted. 

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   Belladonna felt rushed somehow, even though her now former lover, wasn’t exactly physically rushing her out the door. She felt frazzled somehow, like her pride and ego were demanding that she make the perfect dramatic exit that she could not quite get a handle on yet, for her heart and her Damned soul knew that she was too upset for her usual dramatic flair today. She was losing the love for life, how could she still care about appearances? Because she was a selfish being, that’s how. Belladonna had lived centuries burying her feelings deep beneath her surface, the way her mother had always taught her to. Feelings were for humans, a weak thing that showed your flaws and failures to the world. She would never be caught dead showing her emotions, but right now she couldn’t seem to control that urge.

     She walked over to a pile of spell books in the corner, some of them hers and some of them belonging to the woman across the room, clumsily sorting through them to figure out which were hers and which were not. She couldn’t risk leaving something of hers here, she knew that she could never come back. She had just picked up two spell books of her own, ones that had belonged to her mother, when she heard the other speak of how only her people could love her. She almost froze, bent over in front of the pile of books, as if she couldn’t believe what she had just heard. She stood up straight, though her pace was slow, the books slipping between her fingers like sand between your toes at the beach.

     She turned to look at Mab, the look in her eyes almost unreadable. They were like a pool of hurt and betrayal, the ice blue color almost darker now with rage. “How can you say that to me?“ She asked, looking up at the other woman. “How can you say that only they can love you? Have I meant so little to you? Have our years together meant so little to you? Truly?“ She asked, her hand moving up to her stomach, a strange feeling that she may be sick within her. “You cannot tell me that I have not loved you with every fiber of my immortal being. I have come as close to death as I ever could for you, I have bled for you, I came to this place for you. I spent my entire life alone, promising myself that I would never attach myself to another person. But I allowed myself to tangle with you, body and soul. I have been here for you every day since the moment I met you. And still you say I do not love you? Heartless I may be, but to you… I have been anything but“ she said, her voice harsh with pain.

perhaps this was how she was supposed to be. was she always supposed to be alone? everytime she felt as though she had someone at her side, they were soon gone in one way or another. well, anyone that was not of her kind that is. eyes were sparkling beautifully as she watched the other. gods she loved her. she hated her just as much for loving her. she honestly couldn’t even remember what their argument was about anymore, all she knew was that she was feeling such a pain that it couldn’t just be gone by a simple apology or anything of the such. she couldn’t believe she had someone get so fucking close to her. this always happened, no matter who it was! that included her own family. her own sister didn’t talk to her, and her elemental brothers of both earth and fire did not speak with her either. morgana spoke to her from time to time but even she drifted away back to the lake with her mother, and then there was her own mother– the earth goddess, who fell silent. not just to her but to her sister and to the rest of the earth. she was there, but she wasn’t talking to any of them. she was completely and utterly alone. she began to believe that she was cursed to be unhappy for the rest of time. she met her gaze with her own eyes, that were filled with such fury but of course tears began to slowly stream down her cheek, and so she stormed over to shut the curtains and shut the door. she couldn’t let any of them see her like this. she couldn’t afford to look so fucking weak. “i’m sorry i screwed that up for you. so you can go. you can start again and just forget i even exist belladonna.” her voice was as cold as ice, and her fingers drummed over her end table. “i don’t think anyone truly loves me. i’m not destined to such a thing. i am so stupid to even think i had a chance of such a thing. fate is a cruel thing, and it was cruel for having me fall in love with you.”

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   Belladonna felt rushed somehow, even though her now former lover, wasn’t exactly physically rushing her out the door. She felt frazzled somehow, like her pride and ego were demanding that she make the perfect dramatic exit that she could not quite get a handle on yet, for her heart and her Damned soul knew that she was too upset for her usual dramatic flair today. She was losing the love for life, how could she still care about appearances? Because she was a selfish being, that’s how. Belladonna had lived centuries burying her feelings deep beneath her surface, the way her mother had always taught her to. Feelings were for humans, a weak thing that showed your flaws and failures to the world. She would never be caught dead showing her emotions, but right now she couldn’t seem to control that urge.

     She walked over to a pile of spell books in the corner, some of them hers and some of them belonging to the woman across the room, clumsily sorting through them to figure out which were hers and which were not. She couldn’t risk leaving something of hers here, she knew that she could never come back. She had just picked up two spell books of her own, ones that had belonged to her mother, when she heard the other speak of how only her people could love her. She almost froze, bent over in front of the pile of books, as if she couldn’t believe what she had just heard. She stood up straight, though her pace was slow, the books slipping between her fingers like sand between your toes at the beach.

     She turned to look at Mab, the look in her eyes almost unreadable. They were like a pool of hurt and betrayal, the ice blue color almost darker now with rage. “How can you say that to me?“ She asked, looking up at the other woman. “How can you say that only they can love you? Have I meant so little to you? Have our years together meant so little to you? Truly?“ She asked, her hand moving up to her stomach, a strange feeling that she may be sick within her. “You cannot tell me that I have not loved you with every fiber of my immortal being. I have come as close to death as I ever could for you, I have bled for you, I came to this place for you. I spent my entire life alone, promising myself that I would never attach myself to another person. But I allowed myself to tangle with you, body and soul. I have been here for you every day since the moment I met you. And still you say I do not love you? Heartless I may be, but to you… I have been anything but“ she said, her voice harsh with pain.

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     Belladonna had been moving about through their home gathering her things, mostly spell books or potion ingredients she was staking claim on. “Don’t be such a martyr Mab!” she hissed looking up at her. How had it come to this? How had they become so miserable, so broken? It seemed like only yesterday she had first met the other in a village of Christians that she had burned to the ground purely out of boredom; where had the last two decades gone to?

     “Do you believe me to be happy about all this? If so you are more foolish than those God loving simpletons of the mortal world” she said, moving away from the door and she began angrily bawling up her dresses and throwing them into a bag she had enchanted to hold all of her belongings without ever getting full. “Do you think I want this? Any of this? I never wanted to love you, to need you. I was raised to believe love was a myth that was created by mortals to make their meaningless lives a little more bearable” she said looking up at her now ex lover, her own icy blue eyes full of tears. “I made it centuries just fine, never needing anyone but myself. And you ruined that! You made me love you, made me want you, made me need you; made me question everything I knew!” she shouted, the fireplace in the corner suddenly raging as her magic began to get away from her. 

     “I hate you, you know. I hate you for making me love you so deeply that I can feel you every time I breathe, so fiercely that you run through my veins like the cursed blood my mother gave to me-so hauntingly that I will spend eternity in my own personal hell because I ever let you in.”

wolf coloured eyes were wide with both fury and pain, along with a hint of confusion hidden deep within them. she wasn’t supposed to love, she wasn’t supposed to feel for another and yet that had just happened. her heart was cold– cold as stone, and yet somehow belladonna had managed to worm her way through and poison her heart– quite ironically. she didn’t know how to process the pain that she was feeling, and yet she knew she had to try and keep it together, not for herself but for the fae of the land. she didn’t want to look weak, and made to feel broken by her. what would her followers think of her? she was a faery queen. a goddess of darkness and air. she was what people feared. she lured the dreams of mortals to bring fear to their lives. yet here she was now, almost trembling due to the unfamiliar feeling of horror running through her very core. “i’m sorry that you fell in love with me. i’m sorry you regret all that we had.” her words slipped through her dark purple lips in a hiss, and she took a step back to observe the other. she was angry. she was hurt. she was distraught. she knew that the fae were listening, especially her closest red headed fae. she could not break down in front of her, and then she was tilting her head to the side. as the fireplace raged furiously. “then go. if you regret being with me that much just fucking leave. i know you want too…” now she was angry, and her eyes raged, eyes flashing a fiery ember but she managed to control her magick apart from a loud rumbling that came from the earth around them. “you will do fine without me, you’ll soon forget me. most do apart from my kind. the faery people will be the only species that will ever love me.”

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Belladonna smirked “and here I was hoping you were the gay version of eve” she said, referring to the wife of Adam. She came up to circle her and stood behind her “because then I could currupt you” she said softly near her ear.

“I know everything. I’m the devil.”

Lana couldn’t help but to smirk a bit as she held her cigarette between her fingers. “Right and I am the gay version of Mary.” 

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Belladonna felt her body tingle as Mary sat beside her. She was surprised when Mary told her she wanted to give herself to her, reaching out to caress her jaw. When she asked her to kiss her she smiled softly and nodded “yes” she said softly. She leaned in, not wanting to be too much for her, pressing a kind and gentle kiss to her lips.

Mary looked at Belladonna for a moment. “Love isn’t a sin…” She repeated Belladonna. Then she got up slowly and sat down on the bed next to Belladonna. “I was to give myself to god…No one else. But I—I want to give myself to you.” The young nun whispered while her eyes looked deep within Belladonna’s eyes. “I—I want you to kiss me. C—Would you kiss me Belladonna?” She said softly. 

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Bella watched her lower to her knees and reached out to run her thumb along her jaw. “I don’t believe it’s a sin” she said softly. “I don’t think this can be. The way my heart swells when I hear your laugh...the way I can’t help but smile when you smile at me...” she said, the feeling if her soft skin making her heart skip a best. “I’ve spent so long in the dark...god sent light to me in you” she said. “Attraction is not a sin, Love is not a sin, desire is not a sin...we aren’t sinful. We’re simply...us”

Mary moved closer to Belladonna. Then she sat down on her knees in front of her. “I am a child of god, Bella…I’ve never felt this way before.” She whispered while her eyes lowered a bit. “I—I have never felt sin before and I know what I’m feeling is a sinful thing.” Mary’s eyes slowly looked back up at Belladonna. “But you make me feel something…Something no one else has ever made me feel." 

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Belladonna watched her come closer and watched her, moving all of her hair over one shoulder. When she spoke of no one seeing her out of her outfit she smiled softly, reaching out to touch her finger tip to the back of Mary’s hand. “Sister Jude won’t know. I promise” she said. “Jude doesn’t scare me. You want to know a secret?” She asked, raising a brow with a small smile. “I scare her. She won’t ever find out”

Mary stood there and listened to Belladonna. Her pricing blue eyes locked once more with Belladonna’s eyes. “Sister Jude is going to kill me if she finds out I am here or talking to you like this.” She whispered then unlocked the door and walked inside of the room. Slowly she then walked over to Belladonna and looked down for a moment. “No one has every seen me out of my nun outfit before…Well no one but the sisters.” Because of that this was a real big deal for Mary. 

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Belladonna was sitting in her small bed in a small night dress, one that could be considered lingerie, a book in her lap when Mary Eunice walked in. She raised a brow and lowered the book a bit “couldn’t sleep I see” she said, sitting the book on the bedside table. She sat up a bit more and pushed her blanket off of herself, her smooth legs revealed. “Why do i care about you?” She asked. “I’m not quite sure” she said. “There was four other people in the room when I met you. But...yours was the only face I saw” she said. “I’ve been all over this world, and it bores me to tears. I’ve seen everything, done everything, nothing is new. But seeing your eyes light up when I tell you of my travels, the smile that crosses your face when you think a patient is making progress, the pure belief in you that people are good...” she trailed off, her gaze almost looking off for a moment. “My life has been filled with so much sorrow, so much darkness, so much pain...” she said, slowly turning to look back at her. “You are the first bright and beautiful thing, the first light, I’ve ever found” she said softly. “I care about you because you’re the candle in a dark room, you’re the sun when the night is over. I care...because you make life beautiful whenever you’re around.”

Mary then laid down and tried to get some sleep. But when she couldn’t sleep she got up and put on a rode and walked over to her door and opened it. Then she walked down stairs and walked into the woman’s room and looked around. Shinning the light in Belladonna’s lock up room she looked at her. “Why do you care so much about me?” 

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Belladonna watched the other woman leave her room and sighed. She often would stay in one of the rooms meant for the nuns when she would come to visit the facility, seeing what her money was being used for. Really she was coming to visit Mary, to see her beautiful smile and hear her sweet voice. It was irony that her heart had attached itself to a catholic nun, but she found herself unable to look at any other woman the way she looked at Mary. Mary was too perfect to bother looking at anyone else.

Mary nodded her head then walked out of the room and walked down the hall. Slowly she placed a hand on her chest and tried to catch her breath. She then looked behind her and thought for a moment. Shaking her head she walked into her room and got down on her knees and started to pray.