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☆ numb ─ CHRISTMAS SPECIAL !!

It was Christmas Eve, and the group had gathered at Childe’s house, the only place spacious enough to fit everyone comfortably. The room buzzed with laughter, a few sarcastic quips, and, of course, a healthy dose of drama. The highlight of the evening was the annual Secret Santa, but for one person, it felt less like a fun tradition and more like walking into a minefield.

Finally, it was Scaramouche’s turn. He tried to look as disinterested as possible, casually reaching into his bag to pull out a small, neatly wrapped package. His gaze swept across the room—most of his friends were either laughing or eyeing their gifts with anticipation. But when his eyes landed on you, they lingered a moment too long.

The gift he’d chosen for you wasn’t something he’d picked lightly. In fact, he’d spent way too much time obsessing over it. He didn’t want to seem too thoughtful or too eager. That would give too much away—how often your name had been running through his mind lately. So, he went with something neutral, practical: a custom-made hoodie. Simple. Safe.

As he handed it to you, his fingers brushed against yours briefly before he pulled his hand back like he’d been burned. A flicker of embarrassment crossed his usually composed face. Great. Now you’d probably noticed. But he kept his mouth shut, like always.

You opened the package carefully, your expression unreadable. When you saw the hoodie, you raised an eyebrow and glanced up at him. Before you could say anything, he averted his gaze, pretending to examine something across the room.

" Woah. This is... actually pretty cool. " you said, holding it up with a grin.

Scaramouche straightened, trying his best to seem indifferent. " It’s just a hoodie. Don’t overthink it. "

" You’re terrible at pretending not to care, " you teased, a playful smile tugging at your lips. You could see the faint blush creeping up his neck, betraying his calm exterior. He wasn’t fooling anyone—not even himself.

Inside, he was a mess. Relief? Embarrassment? He wasn’t sure. He just knew he was glad you didn’t hate it. At least, not outwardly.

Then it was your turn. You handed him a small, neatly wrapped box. He tore the paper off and found a silver bracelet inside. It was simple yet elegant, engraved with tiny stars and constellations along its band. Attached to it was a small tag that read: 'For the one who lights up even the darkest nights.'

Scaramouche froze, completely unprepared for the thoughtfulness of the gift. He wasn’t great with emotions—or receiving meaningful gifts, for that matter.

" What’s this? " he asked, his voice quieter than usual, as though he wasn’t sure how to process it.

" Just something for someone who likes to pretend they’re too cool for heartfelt things, " you replied with a wink. " Wear it, or just keep it. Your choice. "

His first instinct was to brush it off with sarcasm, but for once, he didn’t. Instead, he muttered, " Thanks. " It felt foreign on his tongue, but it was the only thing that felt right.

The group didn’t miss the awkward tension and jumped on it immediately. Childe raised an eyebrow, smirking. " Wow, didn’t see that coming. Someone’s got a soft spot. "

Scaramouche rolled his eyes, leaning back in his chair. " It’s just a bracelet. Don’t make it weird. "

But even as he dismissed it, his fingers subconsciously brushed against the bracelet. He didn’t want to admit it, but he liked it—a lot more than he wanted anyone to know.

As the gift exchange wound down, the room was filled with laughter and teasing. Scaramouche leaned back, pretending to be unbothered by the chaos. But the warmth from your gift lingered in his chest, an unfamiliar feeling he couldn’t quite shake.

It wasn’t just a bracelet. It was a symbol—subtle, meaningful, and carefully chosen. And maybe, just maybe, it meant you cared as much as he did, even if neither of you was ready to admit it.

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma. AUTHOR.　I’m so sorry if this is too short 😭😭🙏🏻 I thought of this last minute and was very exhausted .. I’ll make it up to u guys in the next episodes, probably. ++ More extras in the near future, Merry Christmas! <3 TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56 @exhaustedcommunist @meigalaxy @dragontammerz @heusalettle @iloveapplepie7 @vitanye @shyentsmissingink @jiminscarmex @vixialuvs @kunikissr @rishaling @liuaneee

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Hii!! Can i be added on the "numb" masterlist please 🙏🙏🙏

─ Of courseee !!!

++ Hii guysyssyys...... I’m not sure when I’ll be able to update, school’s been hectic lately haha .. but I’ll try to post this upcoming winter break !!!

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☆ numb ─ 06.　overwhelmed

" [full name]! What is this on your test paper?! " The voice cuts through the silence like a blade. It’s the same voice that used to murmur lullabies in the dark, to hold you close when nightmares lurked. But now, every note of it drips with a resentment that clings, cold and suffocating. " But, Mom! I did well, didn’t I? I got a high grade—only three wrong answers— " Your words crumble as her hand connects with your cheek, sharp and unforgiving. The sting spreads through your skin, a bitter reminder that nothing you do is ever enough. You’re good, but never good enough. " You're a disappointment to this family, " she hisses, each word like poison slipping into your veins. " Is a perfect score too much to ask? Is it so impossible to make us proud? " You dare not meet her eyes; the shame burns hotter than the pain in your cheek. " I gave you everything, " she whispers, her voice shaking. " And this is how you repay me? With mediocrity? " You stand there, silent and small, too afraid to cry, knowing the punishment for weakness is yet more scorn. Silence stretches, thick and heavy, until she finally sighs, a sound full of pity and contempt. " What would your father say, if he were here to see this? I’m just trying to make a good future for you. " She reaches out, fingers ghosting over the mark on your cheek, soft and almost loving. " I just want you to succeed, " she says, the smile on her lips brittle and unconvincing. " You’ll do that for me, won’t you? You’ll be the child I worked so hard for? " You nod, throat tight, the wordless answer she expects, even as something inside you shatters. Her smile fades, and her face twists into something dark and sorrowful. " This is my fault, isn’t it? I failed you. I’m a terrible mother. " Her voice is soft now, pulling you into a new kind of pain. You feel the weight of her regret, sharp and heavy, threatening to crush you. " No, Mom, don’t say that! " You reach out, clinging to her, desperate to make it better, to prove you’re worthy of the love she so rarely shows. " You’re not a bad mother—it’s my fault. I’m the one who’s sorry. " " I’ll do better on the next test! " You plead, voice trembling, desperate. " I’ll get the perfect score, I’ll study harder. It’s my fault for not being enough. " A sob rises from somewhere deep within, raw and helpless, as you force yourself to promise again and again. " I’ll be successful, Mom. I’ll make you proud. I swear. " .. .. You wake up with a start, realizing you must have dozed off while studying. The remnants of a memory linger in your mind—the one where you were the one comforting her. How ironic it is that the child comforts the parent instead of the other way around. You sigh, pressing a hand to your forehead as the familiar pressure of unfinished work settles on you again. You have to ace these exams. No—need to. You can’t let her down, not after everything. And your dad, too. You remember the promise you made before he passed, the one your mom made you tell him: that you’d make them both proud, no matter the cost. Glancing around, you notice the mess piling up in your room. It’s chaos. She’ll be furious if she comes home and sees it like this. But right now, the thought of fixing it, of handling any of it, is just too much. You can’t keep doing this. The pressure is suffocating. In a rush, you grab your phone and open Ayaka’s contact, desperate for some support.

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma. AUTHOR.　Genuinely why is the last pic so blurry. I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIX IT FOR THE PAST FEW MINUTES BUT IT WON'T COOPERATE?? But anyway.. Do people actually read author notes? I'm so curious, plz tell me. I will literally yap abt my whole day here. ++ I might redo the taglist since I noticed most people aren't getting tagged ! TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56 @exhaustedcommunist @meigalaxy @dragontammerz @heusalettle @iloveapplepie7 @vitanye @shyentsmissingink @jiminscarmex @vixialuvs @kunikissr @rishaling @liuaneee

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☆ numb ─ 06.　overwhelmed

" [full name]! What is this on your test paper?! " The voice cuts through the silence like a blade. It’s the same voice that used to murmur lullabies in the dark, to hold you close when nightmares lurked. But now, every note of it drips with a resentment that clings, cold and suffocating. " But, Mom! I did well, didn’t I? I got a high grade—only three wrong answers— " Your words crumble as her hand connects with your cheek, sharp and unforgiving. The sting spreads through your skin, a bitter reminder that nothing you do is ever enough. You’re good, but never good enough. " You're a disappointment to this family, " she hisses, each word like poison slipping into your veins. " Is a perfect score too much to ask? Is it so impossible to make us proud? " You dare not meet her eyes; the shame burns hotter than the pain in your cheek. " I gave you everything, " she whispers, her voice shaking. " And this is how you repay me? With mediocrity? " You stand there, silent and small, too afraid to cry, knowing the punishment for weakness is yet more scorn. Silence stretches, thick and heavy, until she finally sighs, a sound full of pity and contempt. " What would your father say, if he were here to see this? I’m just trying to make a good future for you. " She reaches out, fingers ghosting over the mark on your cheek, soft and almost loving. " I just want you to succeed, " she says, the smile on her lips brittle and unconvincing. " You’ll do that for me, won’t you? You’ll be the child I worked so hard for? " You nod, throat tight, the wordless answer she expects, even as something inside you shatters. Her smile fades, and her face twists into something dark and sorrowful. " This is my fault, isn’t it? I failed you. I’m a terrible mother. " Her voice is soft now, pulling you into a new kind of pain. You feel the weight of her regret, sharp and heavy, threatening to crush you. " No, Mom, don’t say that! " You reach out, clinging to her, desperate to make it better, to prove you’re worthy of the love she so rarely shows. " You’re not a bad mother—it’s my fault. I’m the one who’s sorry. " " I’ll do better on the next test! " You plead, voice trembling, desperate. " I’ll get the perfect score, I’ll study harder. It’s my fault for not being enough. " A sob rises from somewhere deep within, raw and helpless, as you force yourself to promise again and again. " I’ll be successful, Mom. I’ll make you proud. I swear. " .. .. You wake up with a start, realizing you must have dozed off while studying. The remnants of a memory linger in your mind—the one where you were the one comforting her. How ironic it is that the child comforts the parent instead of the other way around. You sigh, pressing a hand to your forehead as the familiar pressure of unfinished work settles on you again. You have to ace these exams. No—need to. You can’t let her down, not after everything. And your dad, too. You remember the promise you made before he passed, the one your mom made you tell him: that you’d make them both proud, no matter the cost. Glancing around, you notice the mess piling up in your room. It’s chaos. She’ll be furious if she comes home and sees it like this. But right now, the thought of fixing it, of handling any of it, is just too much. You can’t keep doing this. The pressure is suffocating. In a rush, you grab your phone and open Ayaka’s contact, desperate for some support.

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma. AUTHOR.　Genuinely why is the last pic so blurry. I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIX IT FOR THE PAST FEW MINUTES BUT IT WON'T COOPERATE?? But anyway.. Do people actually read author notes? I'm so curious, plz tell me. I will literally yap abt my whole day here. ++ I might redo the taglist since I noticed most people aren't getting tagged ! TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56 @exhaustedcommunist @meigalaxy @dragontammerz @heusalettle @iloveapplepie7 @vitanye @shyentsmissingink @jiminscarmex @vixialuvs @kunikissr @rishaling @liuaneee

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☆ numb ─ 05.　student council

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma. AUTHOR.　Ok guys when I said " Ep 5–6 will be posted shortly " I DIDN'T MEAN TWO DAYS OK. School caught up to me QUICK ! Fr tho, I might post ep 6 either Saturday or Sunday.. ( Might do revisions and extra chapters because I made too much stuff. ) TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56 @exhaustedcommunist @meigalaxy @dragontammerz @heusalettle @iloveapplepie7 @vitanye @shyentsmissingink

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☆ numb ─ 04.　midnight snack

NOTES.　If you don't like noodles, u can replace them with ur fav food ! <3

" I'm so hungry... " you mumble, slipping into your jacket as you head out the door. " It’s so late. I can’t believe I’ve been studying for almost eight hours, " you sigh. The cold night air brushes against your skin, causing you to shiver. Your mind buzzes with the endless list of responsibilities—student council, exams, and assignments. It’s been a constant whirlwind of pressure lately, and there's barely been time to catch your breath. As you walk, the thought of upcoming midterms lingers in the back of your mind. Afterward, the dreaded grade slips will come out. You can't shake the anxiety. What if you score too low? Getting kicked out again would be a disaster, and that fear clings to you. You finally enter the 24/7 convenience store, the fluorescent lights flooding your vision. The click of your shoes echo softly against the tiled floor as you make your way to the noodle aisle. Reaching for your favorite noodles, you're suddenly interrupted by a voice calling your name. " [name]? What are you doing here? " You freeze for a moment, your hand still on the noodles. Scaramouche? You blink in disbelief. What’s he doing here, of all places, at this hour? His presence is unexpected, almost surreal, as he stands there, looking at you with a curious expression.

" I could say the same, " you reply, your eyes drifting to the ice cream in his hand—vanilla, of all things. You didn’t peg him as the type to enjoy something so plain. He notices where you're looking and shifts the ice cream slightly. " Oh... I was just grabbing a snack for the ginger, " he mutters, glancing at the noodles you're holding. " Were you studying all night aga— " He abruptly stops, realizing he can’t finish the sentence without making it obvious. He doesn’t want it to seem like he was asking Kazuha to get Heizou to spy on you. That wouldn’t be weird, right? Just... casual curiosity. Plus, you were roommates. " Yeah, " you laugh softly, " I completely lost track of time. "

There’s an awkward pause, the kind that hangs heavy but neither of you knows how to break. His eyes shift between your face and the noodles, as if he's considering what to say next but holds back. You wonder if he’s thinking the same thing you are—if this is as weird for him as it is for you. His eyes flicker with something—maybe concern, or maybe it’s just the fluorescent lighting playing tricks. Either way, you choose not to dwell on it. “ So... how’s Kazuha? ” you ask, trying to keep your tone casual. But as the words leave your mouth, you instantly regret it. Why did you even bring him up? You literally just saw him yesterday. “ Kazuha’s good. Always keeping busy, you know? ” He rubs the back of his neck, his gaze drifting away. Maybe he’s feeling a bit awkward too—or is it something else? He's not sure if you’re just trying to keep the conversation going or if you’re looking for a reaction. Do you like Kazuha, or... is it something else entirely? ..He should go. Scaramouche clears his throat. " Maybe I could... walk you to your dorm? " His voice is hesitant, as if he’s still working out whether it’s a good idea. It’s nothing weird, right? He just wants to make sure you get home safe. And maybe... have a little more time to talk to you.

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma. AUTHOR.　HELLOOO !! I'm back from a short unannounced hiatus ! School's been pressuring me a lot lately but last week I got a break so I was finally able to make the eps! As promised, Ep 5–6 will be posted shortly :3 TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56 @exhaustedcommunist @meigalaxy @dragontammerz @heusalettle @iloveapplepie7 @vitanye @shyentsmissingink

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☆ numb ─ 05.　student council

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma. AUTHOR.　Ok guys when I said " Ep 5–6 will be posted shortly " I DIDN'T MEAN TWO DAYS OK. School caught up to me QUICK ! Fr tho, I might post ep 6 either Saturday or Sunday.. ( Might do revisions and extra chapters because I made too much stuff. ) TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56 @exhaustedcommunist @meigalaxy @dragontammerz @heusalettle @iloveapplepie7 @vitanye @shyentsmissingink

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☆ numb ─ 04.　midnight snack

NOTES.　If you don't like noodles, u can replace them with ur fav food ! <3

" I'm so hungry... " you mumble, slipping into your jacket as you head out the door. " It’s so late. I can’t believe I’ve been studying for almost eight hours, " you sigh. The cold night air brushes against your skin, causing you to shiver. Your mind buzzes with the endless list of responsibilities—student council, exams, and assignments. It’s been a constant whirlwind of pressure lately, and there's barely been time to catch your breath. As you walk, the thought of upcoming midterms lingers in the back of your mind. Afterward, the dreaded grade slips will come out. You can't shake the anxiety. What if you score too low? Getting kicked out again would be a disaster, and that fear clings to you. You finally enter the 24/7 convenience store, the fluorescent lights flooding your vision. The click of your shoes echo softly against the tiled floor as you make your way to the noodle aisle. Reaching for your favorite noodles, you're suddenly interrupted by a voice calling your name. " [name]? What are you doing here? " You freeze for a moment, your hand still on the noodles. Scaramouche? You blink in disbelief. What’s he doing here, of all places, at this hour? His presence is unexpected, almost surreal, as he stands there, looking at you with a curious expression.

" I could say the same, " you reply, your eyes drifting to the ice cream in his hand—vanilla, of all things. You didn’t peg him as the type to enjoy something so plain. He notices where you're looking and shifts the ice cream slightly. " Oh... I was just grabbing a snack for the ginger, " he mutters, glancing at the noodles you're holding. " Were you studying all night aga— " He abruptly stops, realizing he can’t finish the sentence without making it obvious. He doesn’t want it to seem like he was asking Kazuha to get Heizou to spy on you. That wouldn’t be weird, right? Just... casual curiosity. Plus, you were roommates. " Yeah, " you laugh softly, " I completely lost track of time. "

There’s an awkward pause, the kind that hangs heavy but neither of you knows how to break. His eyes shift between your face and the noodles, as if he's considering what to say next but holds back. You wonder if he’s thinking the same thing you are—if this is as weird for him as it is for you. His eyes flicker with something—maybe concern, or maybe it’s just the fluorescent lighting playing tricks. Either way, you choose not to dwell on it. “ So... how’s Kazuha? ” you ask, trying to keep your tone casual. But as the words leave your mouth, you instantly regret it. Why did you even bring him up? You literally just saw him yesterday. “ Kazuha’s good. Always keeping busy, you know? ” He rubs the back of his neck, his gaze drifting away. Maybe he’s feeling a bit awkward too—or is it something else? He's not sure if you’re just trying to keep the conversation going or if you’re looking for a reaction. Do you like Kazuha, or... is it something else entirely? ..He should go. Scaramouche clears his throat. " Maybe I could... walk you to your dorm? " His voice is hesitant, as if he’s still working out whether it’s a good idea. It’s nothing weird, right? He just wants to make sure you get home safe. And maybe... have a little more time to talk to you.

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma. AUTHOR.　HELLOOO !! I'm back from a short unannounced hiatus ! School's been pressuring me a lot lately but last week I got a break so I was finally able to make the eps! As promised, Ep 5–6 will be posted shortly :3 TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56 @exhaustedcommunist @meigalaxy @dragontammerz @heusalettle @iloveapplepie7 @vitanye @shyentsmissingink

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☆ numb ─ 03.　how NOTES.　js a filler on how Scara fell in love !!

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma. AUTHOR.　The next few eps ( 4 - 6 probably ) will be uploaded together btw !! School started 2 weeks ago so I haven't uploaded much ... TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56 @exhaustedcommunist @meigalaxy

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─ I SWEAR I'll post a new update of Numb !!! Js have been very busy these past few days because of school 😭😭🙏.

Dw I'll post ep 3 on Monday ! If not, i'll post it on Wednesday. The next few eps will be posted together so get ready I guess 🙏🙏

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☆ numb ─ 02.　love

The moment I opened my dorm mailbox, a large pile of letters and presents tumbled out onto the floor. It was nothing new ─ Luckily, I had brought along a paper bag to put all of the letters and presents in. Gathering up the gifts and cards, I placed them carefully inside.

“ [name]? “ A familiar voice calls out, I look up to see a boy with platinum blonde hair, with a single orange-red streak running down one side. He’s towering over me as his gaze is fixed on mine.

I watched as his eyes scan the scattered notes and presents around me, and a soft chuckle escaped his lips. “ Ah, more letters to respond to? “ he says, crouching down to assist me in putting everything into the paper bag. I nod in response, smiling warmly at Kazuha.

As I gaze at the letters and presents scattered around me, I couldn’t help but wonder — wasn’t he also a popular figure, just like me? After all, he’s been quite helpful and always maintains good grades, which earned him a spot in the student council, too. Yet, despite his popularity, I noticed that he doesn’t have any gifts from his admirers to put down in a paper bag, just like mine.

I turn to Kazuha, who’s still helping me put all the cards and presents into my paper bag. " Do you have your letters and gifts stored somewhere as well? " I ask him, hoping that he isn’t feeling left out.

Fortunately, he responds with a smile, saying, " Yes, I’ve already kept them safe at my dorm. " His answer assures me that he’s just as well-loved as I am — even if his cards and gifts aren’t with him at this moment.

“ You have a lot of admirers, if I’m being honest, I think they even outnumber mine. And it leaves me wondering, not to be forward or anything, but are you not interested in taking a chance on any of them? " He asked, his gaze locked onto mine as I contemplated his suggestion.

"I don’t know.. Most— no, all of them only like me for my looks, can you believe that? It’s as if they don’t even see me past my appearance, and it’s so frustrating. " I said with a huff, shaking my head.

“ Ah, yes... I can see how you may feel that way. But believe me when I tell you that there is at least one person out there who loves you for who you truly are, regardless of your current struggles, or appearance. That person may be hiding behind all the noise in your life, but they exist, I assure you. "

He takes a moment to admire the last card in his hand. The image on the front is a sketch of a cat, rendered in deep purple ink. The creature’s expression is one of contentment, with its eyes closed and mouth pulled up into a contented little smile. He lets out a small chuckle as he looks at it, clearly pleased with the result.

" You’re an amazing person, [name]. You’re hardworking and responsible, surely one of your admirers will see it. "

I watched as he looked directly at me, then placed the final card in the paper bag before standing up. With his hand extended towards me, I took it and got to my feet. I gave him a warm smile.

“ Thank you, Kazuha. “

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma.

AUTHOR.　Might post a few eps all together then not post for a few days, my laptop’s charger broke and school starts soon (⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)

TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2 @trulyylee @lalalaloveallmydays @hearts4lizzzz @animeobsessed56

[xiouahh]

☆ numb ─ 01.　letters

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SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma.

AUTHOR.　Woohoo the story finally begins !! I apologize for if the pictures r blurry, please tell me so I can fix them<3 Also!! don't mind the message bubble on Kazuha, I noticed it just now and I couldn't fix it :c

TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv @ciellez @asukahiriko2

[xiouahh]

☆ numb

⋆ ࣪. ⭒ ⁎ Scara's friends .ᐟ

Scaramouche.　Computer science major, 2nd year in teyvat university, has liked [name] since freshman in high school and used to be the top in the class, but since he met you he started letting you get 1st because he always notices your upset expression when getting 2nd. Whenever your friend group is at their dorm he uses that opportunity to admire you and get closer to you, also has not experienced love but he's willing to learn for you. Childe.　Marine biology major, 2nd year in teyvat university, is Scara's childhood bestfriend and knows about his family problems, so he offers to play video games at his house to get his mind off it when they were in high school. He can cook but he begs Scara to do it instead since his cooking is immaculate. Xiao.　Computer science major, 2nd year in teyvat university, used to like [name] in high school and Scara just found out about it recently so he held a grudge on him for a bit, but at the last year of high school he started liking one of your friends. Kazuha.　Literature major, 2nd year in teyvat university, is VERY popular because he's soft-spoken and kind, a representative in the student council and always helps if needed, also Scara's childhood bestfriend so he knows everything about him. Aether.　Information technology major, 3rd year in teyvat university, known Scara since high school because he thought Scara was a girl and got glared at in return, but he's a bit funny so Scara tolerates him. Mona.　Astronomy major, 3rd year in teyvat university, Scara only introduced and let her in their group because she's his cousin and she looked 'pitiful', the biggest girl's girl and used to defend the girls at elementary school when Scara made fun of them.

masterlist　|　previous　|　next SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma.

AUTHOR.　Once again I apologize if some of the college majors are wrong !! Don't mind the joined part on Scara's priv and Childe's acc, I forgot abt it HAHA TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv

[xiouahh]

☆ numb

⋆ ࣪. ⭒ ⁎ [name]'s crew .ᐟ

[name].　Business major, 2nd year in teyvat university, the secretary in the student council, gets confessed to almost every week because they're really attractive + the top in the class, prefers to have few friends because most students who ask to be friends has a crush on them and clings to them which makes them uncomfortable, genuinely has never experienced someone to love them for who they are so they'd doubt them. Ayaka.　Business major, 3rd year in teyvat university, you guys met when you were just a freshman and welcomed you and your friends to the university, the mother of the group, the vice president of the student council and her brother is the president, she often helps you with documentary for the student council. Hu Tao.　Biomedical science major, 2nd year in teyvat university, your childhood bestfriend so she's always been with you since. knows the reason why you have problems with love so she comforts you whenever you get a breakdown from it. Lumine.　Information technology major, 3rd year in teyvat university, the 2nd mother of the group, likes someone in Scara's friend group but the others don't know, really good listener and comforter, Ayaka introduced you to her and she was really kind and welcomed you. Venti.　Music major, 3rd year in teyvat university, you guys met at elementary school when he stood up to the people who picked on you and has been your friend since. sometimes a troublemaker and since some of his friends are in the student council they sometimes let him slide. Heizou.　Criminology major, 2nd year in teyvat university, he often hosts game nights to the group and he always adds a mystery game, but he ALWAYS solves them really quickly and gets happy when he does, so the group just lets him be to make him smile I guess. Childe.　Marine biology major, 2nd year in teyvat university, when Heizou hosts game nights he always insists that they go to his dorm because Scara is his roommate and he knows about Scara's crush on you, whenever he notices you're upset he's quick to buy you your comfort food.

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AUTHOR.　I apologize in advance if some of the majors are wrong !! I don't know anything about college yet but I did some research ! Scara and his friends' profiles will be out in a bit <3 TAGLIST.　 @arlecchino-soon-main @skyoverkill1 @yo0ngleswag @scaraenthusiast1 @skyvella @lloovvv

[xiouahh]

☆ numb

scaramouche x gender neutral reader　|　social media au

SYPNOSIS.　You had always been the independent, strong-willed person who didn't need anyone's help. Despite your best efforts, your trauma continues to plague you, making it difficult for you to trust and connect with others. That is, until you meet a young man who is everything you've wanted in a partner. Despite his aloof demeanor, he manages to break your emotional barriers and become a source of healing and support for you. As you learn to trust and open up to him, he becomes the healer of your heart, helping you heal from your trauma.

STATUS.　Ongoing

GENRE.　fluff, angst, smau, college au, slowburn ( ? ), friends to lovers, modern au,

INFO.　Timestamps don't matter unless stated otherwise, Contains themes related to LGBTQ+, Some characters might be ooc, swearing, the pictures used are not meant to represent the reader, but rather focus on the pose or background!

AUTHOR.　First time using Tumblr, plz don't bully me (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠). Originally this wasn't a smau and I posted it on Wattpad, but I didn't like it that much so I decided to rewrite it !! ++ First smau !! Might also be cringe in some chapters. Also [name] is actually a reflection of my own personal experiences with love, specifically my difficulties with being both capable of loving and being loved in return ! So I decided to make this for the people out there who have the same situation as me.

TAGLIST.　Open !!

[name]’s crew　♡　Scara’s friends

ACT ONE .ᐟ

01.　letters

02.　love

03.　how

04.　midnight snack

05.　student council

06.　overwhelmed

07.　friends

08.　friends 2

09.　exams

10.　school

ACT TWO .ᐟ

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EXTRAS .ᐟ

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