yeetus15

[yeetus15]

Why has literally no guy my age ever called me pretty or anything

Ugh I feel so ugly

[yeetus15]

Yeetus , my friend , my benefactor ,

You are my bestie my bro my whole soul I love you and I'll never forget you

We truly didn't talk enough I always felt like it would be awkward but just know I always saw you as such a chill awesome person , I love you so much

I love you too bro ❤️❤️💕💕💝💘

🐱🐱🐱🐈🐈🐈

[yeetus15]

Me

[yeetus15]

I’m finna binge again 🤪🤪🤪

[yeetus15]

How do I stop binging?????????

And why am I binging????????

[yeetus15]

[yeetus15]

I... I just binged and I haven’t done that in like 3 months????

Wtfffff

I feel so horrible rn ew

[yeetus15]

Rant/Vent 2

Tw: Ed stuff

So I mentioned in my last post that I like a guy in one of my classes and that he makes me wanna be a better person and stuff

He’s kinda already taken and he’s like 2-3 years older than me and his gf is like half my size

Like he makes me wanna get better but seeing him w his gf makes me wanna die bc she’s so thin and it feels like he picked her over me bc she’s thin and I’m fat

It’s fucking with my head a little bit ngl

[yeetus15]

Rant/Vent

Tw: Running away, nicotine, Suicide, Ed stuff, etc etc

I started vaping/smoking over the summer because I heard it helped suppress appetite and I was trying to starve and lose weight. Anyways when school started I was super stressed and I started vaping/smoking more to help with the stress of failing like half my classes and still being fat.

Side note: there’s a guy one of my classes who I really like. He’s super positive and kind and nice and smart and funny and stuff. He sorta motivates me to be a better person. So I stopped starving as hard as I was which was like 300ish a day and I started doing normal dieting and eating 1200 a day. Then I gained like a pound of weight and freaked out and tried to starve again but then I always felt blackoutish so I stopped trying to starve which stressed me out which kinda made me vape more

Anyways I realized that I needed to quit and try to drink more herbal teas and sleep more and exercise and just like less harmful stuff in general

Sooooo I gave my old vape to a “friend” because she said that she really needed it and stuff and she got caught with it and ratted me out and when I got called into the office I kinda denied that I gave it to her

They didn’t call my parents or anything but the truth is probably gonna come out tomorrow

So I was thinking about running away but I realized that was a bad idea bc I had no where to go and no money and no survival skills. So then I thought about killing myself, which I already was thinking about anyways bc I’m a failure and I’m kinda at the point of no return with school bc I already failed last year and I’m currently failing all of my classes this year and I don’t have the energy to make it up but like if I attempt to kms and fail then I’ll get sent back to psychiatric hospital and the psych ward doesn’t tell you about calories with the food, like at all. So I really don’t know what imma do

[yeetus15]

‘Why didn’t you do your homework?’

What I say - 'I’m sorry I forgot’

What I wish I could say - 'we’ll I spent all last night in a suicidal panicked mess trying to not hurt or kill myself and I guess it just slipped my mind 😒’

[yeetus15]

dream fridge

[yeetus15]

Guys! I got under 160!

I now weigh 159.6 🥳🥳🥳

[yeetus15]

If you’re suicidal and still alive, I’m so fucking proud of you.

If you’re suffering from an eating disorder and still eating, I’m so fucking proud of you.

If you’re suffering from a mental illness and your fighting, I’m so. Fucking. Proud. Of. You.

[yeetus15]

I know I haven’t been active that much lately but like my mental health has been feeling better lately so I haven’t been restricting as hard and I feel like I don’t really have an ed

[yeetus15]

Keep the flame going for those we have lost to suicide. 

[yeetus15]

Okay so since I started doing high res like a couple weeks ago I only lost like 1 pound but I do feel mentally sharper and physically I feel stronger

Idk if I wanna keep doing slow weight loss and feeling decent or if I wanna starve and lose really fast and feel like shit

[yeetus15]

I love fruit and yogurt so much

Especially when they’re blended together

Mhmmm