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It's been more than 4 month since I start my jogging routine.

And It makes me happy every little achivement and I've got and every little progress I've made.

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Everybody have their own battle to fight

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can we have a talk?

Just having light conversation.

So, how is your day?

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This saturday afternoon, I went to my favourite coffee shop franchise. I almost called it as my new routine for my weekend. I was craving for spanish latte recently, so I ordered one large size of cold spanish latte. As usual, I chose a sit next to the window with electric socket below. I sat and throw my glance outside the window for a while, watching some people walking and some vehicle passing by. It was a bit cloudy outside and the weather was colder than usual. But, the temperature inside the coffee shop even colder because of its air conditioner.

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Life is hard, but we're filling each other

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When we're alone, It's time to reflect

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when you're in the middle of a deadline but suddenly an idea pops out of your mind. So, let's execute the idea first.

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Please don't get me wrong. I just like grey as color, not as condition or situation.

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This afternoon when I visited a bookstore, I suddenly remembered my childhood memories. Back when my sister and I were still in elementary or junior high school, our parents took us to bookstores several times. Oh no, actually we were the ones who took them to visit bookstores. 

My sister and I loved reading comics and novels. So we loved visiting bookstores to see the latest comics and novels. There were some memories that were very embedded in my memory. 

Because my sister and I didn't have enough money to buy books, we had to do a 'selection and elimination' system. When we had gone around and chosen several books which interested us, we then had to choose again and eliminate several books which finally left only one or two books. And those were the books that we ended up buying. 

Actually, our parents didn't give us a limit of books we could buy. It's just that my sister and I didn't want to burden our parents. 

Now, when I have my own income, I can freely buy the books I want. 

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clock keep tick-tocking and day keep changing, but 'you' still stuck in the same place

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People nowadays with their own problems.

Nowadays, there is so much pressure and expectation we have to face.

No one will ever trully understand the internal fights we'd done just how to grow, to heal, to learn, and to make it here today. Even sometimes we don't even know what's going on within ourself. But, we're the one who know ourself better than anyone else. No one know how hard we'd tried, how much internal battle we'd done. No one around us knows what goes through our mind when the world is quiet but it doesn't seem the same with our mind.

I personally knows that I'm not the only person who has my own battles against my self. But, almost anyone in this world has their own battles. The difference is how everyone handle their problems.

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sometimes, I get so far into my head that I forget anything else exists

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Once I get home, even though I still have leftover work, I just wanna do nothing but lay on my bed.

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I wish every day could be a holiday, but I still get paid

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Today at the office:

Opening my laptop

Drinking my yesterday's leftover coffee

Finishing unfinished report and other stuff

Scroll up and down on the report

Sketching random pictures I've found randomly on my phone and Pinterest

Going home twice

Actually , I do nothing today.

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Reading book is one of my way to take a rest, escaping for a while from my hectic-but-not-busy life.

Actually, my day recently is not really busy. But my mind is.

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Conversation

The two of us.

Theres’s nothing special about it, neither the conversation nor the jokes, neither the place nor the time, except the moment itself. We talked about random unnecessary things for hours. We laughed at our unfunny jokes while Wave to Earth playlist was playing in the background. It was a simple thing but not that simple. I’ll treasure our precious moment. It’s a blessing for me meeting someone like you, the one I can share all my random thoughts with. I don’t have to hold myself on too much. I can be just the way I am.

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