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“I’d die in my sleep

To live in your arms

And I’d stay trapped in this dream

Don’t ring the alarm.”

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i listen to the playlists.

and they take me somewhere else.

somewhere I used to be.

someone I used to know.

crocheting in the background of my Jeep.

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driving down the snowy Kancamagus highway.

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running around deadman’s curve

in the middle of the night.

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it’s like opening an old antique trunk.

and the songs, they burst out.

like the butterfly’s of last years summer.

the memories swarm.

one

by

one

each song was carefully chosen

to be kept in this chest.

I sit here in awe

as the clock goes around.

and the sounds soothe my soul.

I’m staring at all the memories

that have now filled this room.

it’s like a forest full of fallen stars.

every new song

that seeps through my earbuds,

a star crashes around me.

stars that were caught,

and ones that were missed.

this forest is a collection of every single one.

and as they come crashing

and all I can do

is smile.

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Adapted from Homer, The Iliad

// David Benioff, Troy

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“Hours in the shower steam

Still she never felt clean

As she curls into a ball

Some things you can't wash off”

JR

I don’t think I’ve ever resonated with another lyric as much as this

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I often wonder why womb and tomb are only 3 letters apart.

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“And somewhere

Somewhere the atoms stopped fusing

I'm still your favourite regret

You're still my weapon of choosing

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And out there

Stuck in a quantum pattern

Tangled with what I never said

You say it doesn't matter

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I wanna be forgiven

I wanna choke up chunks of my own sins

Even if the sky cracks in mourning

And the heavens just won't open up for me

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Would you invite me in again?

Let me pay for my arrogance?

Won't you show me your weakness?

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I made loving you a blood sport”

-Sleep Token

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“Cause I am broken into fractions

Oh, and I am driven to distraction.”

-Sleep Token

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Wolf at Woodland Park Zoo

Picture by Dennis Dow

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It’s 10:36 pm.

Ghost Hotel pours from my earbuds.

I smile into my pillow.

I think of the guy sitting on the edge of the bed

Smoking a cigarette

Looking at the clock that says 2am.

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third base is me showing you my poetry