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PART 1.

There’s this girl. She’s going through a lot in her life and she needs saving. It’s hard for her to breathe and it feels like there’s literally a lot of weight weighing down onto her. She upset, she’s hurt, she’s sad, she’s lost and she’s unhappy. Nothing in life seems right to her. Every move she makes and every turn she takes is wrong. She’s tired of being lone and feeling like everyone is against her. She’s tired of not being able to have what she wants. Some nights she has meltdowns but she goes away from everyone to have them. She’s screaming, she hits things, she’s crying, she is begging for help. She gets so weak and fed up that she sometimes tries killing herself but her attempts fail every time. If only she would just push down deeper and her blade was sharp enough. She hates living. She hates waking up seeing people she doesn’t like or connect with. They make her feel less of a person and hurts her feelings a lot. They think they know everything about her when they have no idea. They don’t see signs that’s as clear as day right in front of their faces cause they’re too blind. No one notices the cuts and bruises on her wrist. No one notices her red poufy eyes. Nobody cares. It’s like she invisible sometimes. She’s felt pain and hurt her whole life. People close to her and strangers have hurt her. she feigns for love so bad that she draws towards guys for it but she has still been getting hurt. She walks around hurting and in pain because she was done wrong but no one notices her walking funny or even the way she acts or the ouches she screams. She’s hurting when she moves and when she uses the bathroom. She’s afraid. So, afraid to where she no longer trusts anybody and don’t ever in her life wants to have sex or anything again. She wants to be protected and safe. She wants to be with the person who’s been there through thick and thin with her. but even he isn’t perfect. He hurts her too but he loves and treats her better than everyone she knows put together. She’s lost and she wants to wake up and see her mom. She wants to not hear and deal with her stepdad because he’s a monster and he’s childish and petty af so she stays to herself wishing he was the one gone and her mom was here. Her mom wasn’t no angel either. Out of all people. Her mom caused her the most pain. She would always hurt her and say things to her and she would look at her and make her feel like some unwanted human being.

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These past few months I been dealing with a lot. I lost my mother to cancer.My family fell apart. And I lost my long term love of my life. My life has always been so fucked up so I wrote a story summarizing a few things. I will post it in sections right after this so I hope you guys enjyoy it

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